Friday, 7 May 2021

Uncanny Love Tales – (022) The One

Scott Sanderson had spent years looking for “the one” but consistently failed to locate her.

Even years of running the gauntlet of well-meaning friends, throwing what they considered to be suitable candidates in his path, had not paid dividends.

The problem was that he was too fussy, apart from her needing to be a petite brunette “the one” needed to meet his usual criteria, attractive, kind, loving and have a true of heart.

But in addition, he was searching for someone with a moral compass, a practicing Christian preferably, a church goer at least, though not someone permanently on their knees, a devout girl but not a pious one.

He wanted a girl who was sexy but not tarty, attractive but not vain, feminine but possessed of modesty.

A girl with good dress sense, free of tattoos and body piercings, well mannered, and lady like, definitely not someone who drank from a bottle.

However, with every passing day Scott had become convinced he was looking for someone who didn’t really exist.

 

Philippa Pullinger met most, if not all, of Scott’s criteria, she was blessed with great kindness, a quality in his opinion unfailingly underappreciated in the modern world.

She was a shining girl, intelligent but not academically bright, but inclined towards an unquenchable work ethic.

Attractive but not showily so, Philippa was certainly feminine, brunette, and petite, but there was something else in her nature, just simple goodness perhaps, which was a quality that Scott had not bargained for.

Philippa believed in goodness and everlasting life and of course good and evil.

Philippa too was searching, she was searching for a man who shared her faith and who put others before himself, a good man.

And she had sought him all of her life.

 

So you would think that, considering they were in reality searching for each other, and that they were actually perfect for each other,  they might have realised by that point that the other actually existed, the fact that they didn’t was all the more surprising when you consider that they worked in the same building and for the same company.

 

Scott had worked for Davis and Cooper in Abbottsford, since he left school, aged sixteen.

He started in the yard, fetching, and carrying, loading, and unloading, but that was almost 20 years ago.

Now he was a project manager and ordered others to fetch and carry, leading him ultimately to spend more and more time behind a desk.   

He was more accustomed to working on construction sites amongst hard working, hard living, and hard talking men and was all too familiar with their baser natures.

But somehow, he had always managed to raise himself above the mire and walked the Christian path.

Yet he had always had to walk the righteous path alone.  

 

Philippa also joined Davis and Cooper straight from school, but she spent the first ten years of her working life in the smaller Abbeyvale office, but when the recession hit, the company had to rationalise and the Abbeyvale office closed.

There were redundancies as well, in both towns but Philippa was one of the lucky ones and was transferred to the head office.  

    

The recession also hit Scott pretty badly, he had to let a lot of good people go, and his workload had to increase to make up the short fall in manpower, this also meant that what little free time he had previously was as a result greatly reduced. 

 

Philippa was not wholly happy with her situation either, when it first happened she was sad because she had lost a lot of good friends in Abbeyvale, and she’d had to uproot herself from her home and move to a town where she knew nobody.    

She was an orphan and had no family and even her adoptive parents were gone.

After selling her house in Abbeyvale and moving to the more expensive Abbottsford she had no money left and she had ended up with a more modest home, but all of that she could easily have coped with but that wasn’t the worst of it.

She was placed in a busy office on the Finance and Admin floor, among a gaggle of chattering young girls, she thought they were girls even though they were in their mid-twenties.

She thought they were girls compared to her as she was thirty-two and they were younger and very immature.

Philippa was instantly unpopular with them, firstly because she was replacing someone they liked, someone nearer their own age, someone equally vacuous and loose moraled who let them skive and secondly because she was a grownup who was good at her job.

Philippa was instantly at odds with the silly tarty girls in their short skirts and low-cut tops, loudly sharing the intimate details of their latest indiscretions with anyone in earshot.

“Look at me, look at me” they seemed to scream “everybody look at me”

She thought they were the type of girls who ended up drunk in the gutter showing the world their manicured intimate parts.

They despised her for her quiet efficiency and mocked her for her diligence, in fact, they openly mocked her to her face.

They also called her names behind her back, steel draws, the nun, little Miss Cherry and Mary, as in the Virgin Mary.

However, all of this was water off a duck’s back to her, she just ignored them and got on with her job, and her diligence didn’t go unnoticed.

She was always the “go to” girl when there was overtime available, and it was her work ethic that was recognised by the managers when pay raises and bonuses were in the offing.

Philippa didn’t mind being the odd one out or being the butt of her colleagues jokes, she was happy with her life choices and the brash tarty girls came and went over the six years she was in Abbottsford, where she was a constant and she now had the experience and the qualifications and just looked forward to a time when she would share her work place with people of like mind and her life choices would be the norm.

As for the men in the building they all seemed perfectly happy with empty headed tarts, in fact the tartier the better seemed to make them most content.  

 

Scott worked on the fifth floor in the projects department but he occasionally had to go down to Finance and Admin on three, to discuss budgets but he only ever noticed the tarty girls he never saw Philippa working diligently at her desk, head down. 

He treated all the women on the third floor with equal contempt and he wrongly tarred them all with the same brush.

 

For six years Scott Sanderson and Philippa Pullinger worked in the same building and never met until one Friday evening in October.

Scott had been working late again and got in the lift on the fifth floor at 7.55pm.

He was not in the best of moods as he had not intended to work that late, he had somewhere to be, and he didn’t want to be late.

Philippa had worked later than planned as well, as it was Friday. The lazy little princesses had all finished early in order to go out and get drunk to point of unconsciousness, or shit faced to use the modern parlance, before having a knee trembler in a bus shelter, or behind the bins.

But whatever state they would end up in they had left her to do all the reports.

She stayed as late as possible but then she had to go, so she packed up and grabbed some folders and headed towards the lift.

Philippa would ordinarily take the stairs but with her arms full of homework for the weekend she decided to take the lift.

She pressed the button and a moment later the doors opened, and she stepped in.

The lift wasn’t empty, a man that she vaguely recognised was in there already and he had a bundle of files under his arm too, she gave him a cursory glance, he definitely wasn’t one of the dogs that sniffed around her office, but she must have seen him somewhere.

 

When the doors opened and Philippa stepped in, his heart sank but then on closer inspection he thought that she wasn’t dressed like one of the third-floor sluts and she didn’t smell like a tarts handbag so he thought he could cope.

It was a shame really because physically she ticked all his boxes, it was just a shame she was from the 3rd floor.

“At least there’s only one of them” he thought to himself “and its only three floors”

The doors closed and the lift started to descend, but after a few seconds the car came to a juddering halt.

“Oh no” Philippa said, “Why today?”

She said it without anger or fear and that impressed Scott it was said more out of exasperation.

“Somewhere to be?” Scott asked and pressed the alarm

“Yes” she replied and put her things on the floor but didn’t elaborate.

He supposed she was going clubbing or something equally frivolous.

“How many of you are there?” A voice asked

“Two” Scott replied

“Ok, we’ll have you out as soon as”

It was Scott’s turn to put his things on the floor and then he sat down beside them. 

“I hope it won’t be too long” he said

“Why? Do you have somewhere to be?” she asked and also sat down

“Yes, I do” he replied “and I particularly wanted to be there on time”

“Oh, yes? What is it a new restaurant?” she asked

“Of a sort” he replied

“What about you?” Scott asked, “are you off clubbing?”

“Certainly not” she said with disgust “I have more important things to do with my time”

Scott was just digesting her answer and considering his next question when the lift came to life again and continued its descent.

“Excellent” He said and stood up, then he offered his hand to Philippa

“Quite so” she agreed and took his hand “Thank you”

“My pleasure” he said and by the time they had gathered their things together the lift had reached the ground floor and the door opened.

Scott stood aside and let her exit first which he thought she would probably consider an act of sexism.

“Thank you” she said appreciating the gentlemanly gesture and added  

“I hope you make it on time”

“You too” he replied  

 

They quickly got to their respective cars and headed in opposite directions to their homes.

Philippa lived the closest and she was fed, showered, changed and on her way out the door before Scott had even reached his front door.  

When he did, he closed the door behind him and went straight to the kitchen and made himself a sandwich.

He ate it far too quickly to be healthy and was still chewing as he stepped into the shower and he would have heartburn for the rest of the night.

He dried himself and dressed in warm clothes and was then on his way.

Scott parked the car in Church Street and checked his watch as he hurriedly walked toward his destination, he was twenty minutes late.  

He looked through the window and saw it was quite busy and a queue had formed.

Scott walked around to the side door and walked in and undid his coat as he did so

“I’m terribly sorry I’m so late” he said “I got stuck in a lift”

“Well, they all say that” she said as she turned around and Scott saw that it was the girl from the lift, and that was how their mutual lifelong searches came to an end at the South Abbottsford soup kitchen.

ALONE

 

Tears stung her eyes

And her voice cracked

As she remembered

Her loss hung heavy

Since he, what?

Even now she can’t say it

Could not utter the word

Euphemisms fill her head

Crossed over, left the world, 

Gone to a better place

He’s in the next room

Passed away

Other people can say dead

But she cannot

Seven years have passed

Since it happened, her loss

And she lost so much

A husband, lover, friend

Partner, confident

Soul mate

And even now it hurt

Though the wound

Is an old one

It is still unhealed

Still vivid red, angry

Time is a great healer

They said to help her

To comfort her

But she thinks they lied

I NEVER EVER TOLD YOU

 

I fell in love with you

When you were eight, I was eight too

You had no front teeth

And you were freckled and chubby too

I loved you

But I never ever told you

 

I didn’t love you

Because of how you looked you see

I loved you because

Of what I could see inside, deeply

 I loved you

But I never ever told you

 

I couldn’t help loving you

I loved you irresistibly

I hid my feelings

Loving you in secret and invisibly

I loved you

But I never ever told you

 

When you were thirteen

You changed overnight from pupae

And transformed

Magically into a beautiful butterfly

I loved you

But I never ever told you

 

Had the ugly duckling

Still been here today

I would have swept you up

And carried you away

I love you

But I will never ever tell you

I will keep my love locked away

But I will love you

Until my dying day

THAT FIRST TIME

That first time

Long ago

When your hand

Slipped into mine

I felt instantly at peace

And when I looked down

At our interlocking hands

I was unable to detect a join

They were as one

When first we kissed

And we held each other tightly

We never wanted to part

When first we embraced

In that burning passionate embrace

Our hearts and souls joined

They are joined still

Thursday, 6 May 2021

The Clerembeax Palace Hotel and Spa – PTA

 

The beautiful Downshire village of Clerembeax St Giles was situated to the west of Abbeyvale located between Grace Hill and Bushy Down and on the outskirts was the Clerembeax Palace Hotel and Spa which had become very important to the lives of those living in the village community with St Giles’ Church at its hub.

It was a busy village with all the usual amenities you would expect, in addition to St Giles’ Church there was a village Hall, and primary school of the same name.

There was also the Trinity Methodists Church, two pubs, Étienne of Normandy and the Saracen and Stephenson’s General store which included an off-license, newsagents and Post Office.

 

Barry Little was Deputy Head Teacher at the village school and always walked to and from work, and on the way home he liked to call in at Stephenson’s, to see someone special.

The General Store was run by Ilyas Patel, although it was his young wife Anjuli and her Aunt Shula who did all the work, along with a few additional staff.

Barry didn’t like Ilyas, he was a surly old goat, old enough to be Anjuli’s father in fact he was old enough to be Barry’s father, who spent most of his time sat on his arse watching cricket.

He thought his wife and her Aunt were both lovely though, Anjuli was ten years younger than him, and her aunt was ten years older.

They were both tall and slim with thick black hair with big almost black eyes and huge toothy smiles, which lit up the whole shop if not the village.

But as much as he liked the Patel ladies, it was not them that he was hoping to see, that privilege fell to the mother of one of his pupils, and PTA member, Shannon Smith, who he loved to distraction, unfortunately she was already married to someone else.

It all began with some harmless flirtation, he would flirt outrageously with her and she would flirt back, but then one day as she handed him some sliced ham, she let go of the package before he had hold of it properly in his grip and as they both reached to recover it their hands touched and he thought it was like a mild electricity passing between them, and he could tell by her expression that she felt it too.

 

There were many such momentary touches and they were always accompanied by the same tingling sensation but other than the flirting and brush of fingertip on hand nothing ever came of it because she was not free.

Also, it was all tacit, nothing had been said, no feelings had been expressed, and he had wanted to make it plain to her, and not just flirt and accidentally caress her hand.

 

So, on one day when she was alone in the shop and there were no prying eyes, and as they were in a CCTV blind spot, he blatantly held her hand in his and caressed the back of it with the other, he would have liked to kiss her too, but he knew that was going too far.

You’re not free, so I can’t say that I love you” he said

“I know” she gasped 

“But it’s true nonetheless”

“I know that too” she replied quietly

“And I would kiss you if I could, but I know I can’t, so you will have to imagine me doing it instead, until I can”

“I do that every day” She replied and squeezed his hand and would not have relinquished it if another customer hadn’t entered the shop.

So, their intimate moment had passed until another day.

THE FIRST TIME

 

The first time I took her hand

It trembled faintly

Yet noticeably

Like a wild bird fluttering heart

In the hand of its captor

The first time I kissed her

Her heart raced

And when I touched her skin

I felt her pounding heart

Through my fingers

The first time we made love

Was the first time

For us both

And in our passionate embraces

Our senses were overloaded

The first time

Became many times

Though we are older now

The passion is stronger

Our senses fine-tuned

We are one, soul mates

We share the same shadow    

UNWELCOME NEWS

 

At once she understood

When she heard the words

Their meaning clear

And in that instant

Her voice broke

And then in her throat

A lump formed

Behind her eyes

She felt the stinging

And a tear formed

Then rolled down her cheek

Followed by another

Then another

The salt taste was in her mouth

Her shoulders shook

Uncontrollably

And her mouth opened wide

But know sound escaped

Tears continued down her cheeks

And her nose

Then her legs buckled

And she fell to her knees

In total despair

Now the sound came

Uncontrollable

With her love lost

Her heart was broken

With her love betrayed

Her heart was discarded

But with all the weeping

She knew inside

That all her tears

Would never extinguish her love