GRIEVING FOR A LOVED ONE

 

Grieving for a loved one

Goes hand in glove

Because grief is the price

That you pay for love

WIND BLOWN PETALS

 

Like wind-blown petals

Of spring blossom

The snow fell in gentle swirls

Quickly settling

On the frozen landscape

To delight the boys and girls

Then I kissed a snowflake

Off her wrinkled nose

As more settled on her curls

FROM A BOY TO A MAN

 

I knew I had grown

From a boy to a man

When playing in the snow

With boisterous mates

Held less attraction

Than making snow angels

With a pretty girl

UNDER A BITTER SKY

 

Beneath the marbled skies

Of broken, fractured cloud

And the myriad of winter hues

Coloured with greys and blues

I waited in the bitter frosty air

Feeling the sting of winters bite

Until the moment I saw you

And warmed instantly by the view

THE DAY I SAID GOODBYE TO HER

 

The day I said goodbye to her,

Replays constantly in my mind

And it’s a familiar memory

Of the most destressing kind

I have tried to move on but I left

The love of my life behind

LOVE TIPS THE SCALE

 

Life is a question of balance

And love tips the scales

Some give a false accounting

But a steady love never fails

SHE BROUGHT GLORIOUS SUNLIGHT

 

She brought glorious sunlight

To the darkness of my soul

And the coldness of my heart

For living alone had taken its toll

But just spending time with her,

Has shown me again how to live

And revealed just how much love

One special person can give

AS ADMIRATION DWELLS

 

As admiration dwells

In following eyes

Such attraction can lead

To unwelcome advances

But equally it could be

The perfect stranger

So she takes her chances

In search of “The one”

FALLING IN LOVE FOR THE FIRST TIME

 

Falling in love for the first time

Is like a fledgling leaning to fly

But will new love crash and burn?

Or will it blaze across the sky?

LOVE WASHED OVER ME

 

Love washed over me

Arriving at my feet,

Like the lapping of waves

On a lonely beach

But it drifted away

On the ebb tide

GIGOLO AND GIGOLETTE

 

Right from the start

He lost his heart

When the gigolo met

His lovely gigolette

And philandered no more

Now he had his paramour

SHOULD I RUN?

I ask myself

Should I run to you?

And keep our secret tryst

For that sweet joy

Of being kissed

 

I ask myself

Should I run from you?

And protect my heart

But endure the pain

Of being apart

 

So I must ask myself

What joy exists

In sterile safety

Compared to being kissed

So I run to you

To the love and chemistry

And drown myself

In your sweet serenity 

I FOUND MY ONE TRUE LOVE

I found my one true love

My soulmate and when

I first laid eyes on her

My eyes saw only beauty

And at once I heard music

Where there was clearly none

But I heard it nonetheless

I could tell she heard it too

And she smiled at its significance

So I returned the smile

To my heart’s desire

And then we were caught-up

In an all embracing kiss

And our love is still singing

THE LOVE IN US

The love in me

Touches your heart and soul

And I feel a love divine

The love in you

Touches my heart and soul

And we share a love divine

The love in us

Binds us body and soul

And we bask in a love divine

WHY IS IT THAT LOVES TEMPERATE FLAME

 

Why is it that

Loves temperate flame

Cools the bearer over time 

Why is it so sweet

And yet so fleeting

And why does love

Fill a heart with joy

Yet age the lovers

Like a wilting flower

OUR FIRST MEETING WAS BENEATH

 

Our first meeting was beneath

A sky of perfect blue

When a shaft of summer sun

Set your copper hair ablaze

Unspoken smiles were exchanged

Followed by silent acknowledgement

And love bloomed like a desert flower

After fall of summer rain

NEVER BE SORROWED

 

Never be sorrowed

By love’s compromise

Don’t settle for second best,

You deserve better

So search for the one

Look into their heart

And when they look back

You will know it’s safe

To fall into their loving arms

I HAVE HELD MY LOVE IN CHECK

 

I have held my love in check

While watching and waiting,

Cautious from the very start

Withholding romantic feelings,

And playing it safe, until the day

I find a worthy receptive heart

GOLDEN LOVE

 

 

It was fifty years ago when I first saw her
When I fell for her beauty and her charm
And now in the autumn of our years
I’m still proud to have her on my arm

 

How long ago it was when we were young
When every minute we were parted
Was full of angst, agonies and torment
And time alone left us broken hearted

 

Now I could compose symphonies
And write lofty ballads to her name
I could write the sweetest love songs
And never express what are love became

 

I would have crossed the wildest seas
And walked on coals to be at her side
I would have slain the fiercest dragon
And fought duals to win her as my bride

 

I proclaimed my love to her as everlasting
And told her we would always be together
Through thick and thin, good times and bad
Through the calm and stormy weather

 

My heart soared as the church bells rang
When at the alter she stood and said I do
Now after fifty summers and winters
The love I proclaimed still holds true

THAT RAINY SUNDAY

 

It’s a rainy Sunday
And I’m feeling blue
Remembering the past
And thinking of you

 

Do you happily look back?
Across the years
Or do you view them
Through bitter tears

 

Do you ever think of me?
Just once in a while
With a furrowed brow
Or rueful smile

 

You thought our love
Would last an eternity
But I was quite happy
Just to wait and see

 

I just wanted us
To enjoy the laughter
But what you wanted
Was happy ever after

 

I loved you so much more
Than I would ever say
When we broke up
On that rainy Sunday

 

When you asked me
I should have said
“I really do love you”
I just shrugged instead

 

I wish I could go back
To that rainy Sunday
I would get on my knees
And beg you to stay

A SEA BREEZE BLEW THROUGH OUR HAIR

 

A sea breeze blew through our hair

As we walked along the shore line

The waves lapped at the sand

And sunlight glinted on the water

It must have been a beautiful scene

But as we walked hand in hand

I confess I had eyes only for you

As we strolled along the beach

While waves lapped at the sand

ABIGAIL’S TALE

 

In the comfort of the coffee shop
Nestled into an oversized sofa
Sits Abigail, homesick and sad
As she reads a letter from home

 

She knows the sadness will pass
And sooner this time than the last
It strikes each time she hears from home
With news from those she left behind

 

Her parents, always loving and kind
Her baby sister, annoyingly lovely
All of her friends of long standing
And of course him, the reason she left

 

She left her home and those she loved,
The only place she had ever lived
After her marriage dismally failed
So she is building a new life for herself

 

Away from the people she loves

And the places and all the familiarity
The things that reminded her daily
Of her failure and her inadequacies

 

So Abigail lives far away in a new town
And she is making new friends
Discovering new places that will be familiar
As she tries to forget past mistakes

 

She has joined a new church in town
A new congregation, where her angels voice
Can sing loudly in praise to heaven
And she is finding peace within herself

 

And one day very soon, Abigail will sit
In the comfort of the coffee shop
Nestled into an oversized sofa
And not be desperately homesick and sad

 

One day very soon Abigail will read
A long rambling letter from home
And smile at it familiar contents
And she will not feel the old pain strike

 

One day very soon in her new home
Abigail will allow herself be happy
One day very soon in her new home town

Abigail will forgive herself 

JUST A SNAPSHOT

 

I held a picture of her

Just a snapshot

Dog eared and faded

Posed for posterity

A picture of a young girl

In a summer dress,

A “hand me down” clearly

The pattern faded

On the much altered garment

With a fraying hem

She was a pretty girl

With a face of innocence

Framed by brown tousled hair

A naïve and unaffected girl

Unsure of her beauty

And all the more beautiful because of it

Such a wonderful snapshot

Of a perfect moment

Captured so long ago

On a perfect day

I fell in love with her that day

As my heart melted

Like the snow in spring

I love her still and I’ve loved her

Every day in between.

Tears welled in my eyes

As I looked at that picture

Of naïve innocent beauty

And they fell unchecked

As I remembered

The woman she became

And the love we shared

But then she was taken from me

So all I have left is the snapshot

And all the memories it invokes

THE WEEPING WILLOW TREE

 

 

Like the star-crossed lovers,
Romeo and Juliet,
They come from feuding kin
And must hide their love

From those closest to them,
So they meet in secret
Beside the quiet lake
At their secret place

To share a clandestine love

Where the only sounds,
Are of the faintest breeze
Disturbing the lofty tree tops
A gentle lapping of water

Against the bank

And ducks squabbling on the lake
But despite the quiet
They are fearful of discovery
As they embrace hidden from view
Beneath a weeping willow tree,
Its leafy pendulous branches
Trail down into the water
Where, stirred by the gentle breeze
They dip in an out of the water
Like the toes of a reluctant bather.
Despite their fear, the lovers

Kiss in the quiet shade
And feel at once renewed
No words are spoken
Their language is of caress and kiss
Such a tender converse
With limitless vocabulary
And languid pronunciation
Every syllable well employed
And when the final paragraph is reached
They end with perfect punctuation
And bask in its afterglow

Until they must once again stir

From their lovers languor
And sadly tread separate paths
To re-join their warring tribes
Adopting adversarial manners
No knowing looks to be exchanged
No casual brushing past
When for an exquisite moment
A hand might touch a hand
They must remain entrenched
With their warring clans

Until they can once again
Embrace beneath the weeping willow tree

THE OLD RUSTIC STILE

 

The old rustic stile

At the end of the lane

Still stands like a memorial

Marking that special place

Where the fates conspired

That our souls should meet

Though on that day

We purposely trod opposing paths

But met at that rustic spot

And to help you cross

I took hold of your hand,

Small and silken soft

Guiding you safely to my side

Where you stood on terra firma

And despite the presence

Of our companions

We were to all intents

Quite alone as we stood

Hand in hand and in the moment

When hand touched hand

We at once beheld

Our lives from that point on

Would be forever altered

Our future journeys

Would be as fellow travellers

And we were content

With a shared destiny

The old rustic stile

At the end of the lane

Stands like a monument

Marking the place of alteration

A significant place

A spiritual place

A place often revisited

And on such sojourns

We find romantic renewal

As the energizing memory

Of that special moment

Of love at first sight

Assails our senses

Essentially invigorating

Like imbibing the waters

From the fountain of youth

And our hearts once again

Resound with joyousness

Sweet moments of romance

Those excited tingles

Of loves first passion

When hearts beat faster

And desire courses

Through every fibre

The thrill of blossoming love

Adding to the strata

Of our love, laid down

Through all our years together

So by returning to the place

Of loves wondrous inception

We keep our love alive

And in equal measure

Love returns the favour

OH TO FEEL LOVES EXQUISITE ACHE

 

 

Oh to feel loves exquisite ache
To feel that desperate longing
Experiencing that naked want
Of being with them again, and

Feeling so alive in the torment
While craving the next fix
Of that heady foaming brew
Which will satisfy the longing

And quench the thirst of desire.
And when that significant soul
Who holds my captive heart,
Is but a kiss and caress away
I am dragged from sorrows
Unfathomable despairing depths
And bitter anguish evaporates
Like dew under the morning sun
Until euphoria fills every pore
And in that perfect ecstasy
That blissful state of love
I remain until I am once again

Alone with my desperate longing

FORGOTTEN?

 

 

I had forgotten her
I had forgotten
The way she looked
With her bright elfin face
And brown soulful eyes
I had forgotten
The sound of her voice
With its sweet honeyed tones
And her infectious laughter
It had been hard
But I had forgotten her

I had forgotten
The smell of her hair
The taste of her lips
The touch of her skin
I had forgotten her completely
She was off my radar
My senses were free of her
Free of her intoxication
Free of her narcotic
It had taken months
Going cold turkey
To cleanse myself, to detox
To shake her from my consciousness
And exorcise her from my soul
But I had forgotten her

I had forgotten her
By changing jobs
Decorating the house
And ridding myself of everything

That reminded me of her
And I was free
My life was once more on an even keel
The stormy seas had been quelled
All was calm and safe
And there was such comfort

In feeling safe
The wounds had healed
Though the scars remained
I had peace of mind
When I could say

I had forgotten her

And I had forgotten her
Until that fateful day
When I found it
Down the side of the sofa
A small pearl button
Such an innocuous item
Evoking such potent memories
Of a violet lamb’s wool sweater
That accentuated her breasts so well
The button was a casualty

Of an intimate encounter
Discarded in our passionate haste
And in that instance of recognition
She was all at once back with me
My senses reawakened
Her scent was in my nostrils
I could feel her lips on mine
Her caress on my cheek
I could hear her infectious laughter
And I saw her sitting beside me
Close enough to touch
And as the wounds reopened
I realised to my dismay that

I had not forgotten her

I had not forgotten her
I had just shut down
Disabled my interface with the world
I hid away in my castle

And pulled up the draw bridge
And created my own world within
I held the button in my fingers
As the drawbridge lowered

And my castle walls fell
And the world flooded in
That little pearl button
Spoke to me in volumes
And I knew I loved her still

BUTTERFLY SUMMER

 

I remember well, when we were young

And all those long halcyon days

We spent so many joyful hours

Just idling our time away

Down on her dad’s farm.

They were such happy lazy days

Swinging on that old rustic gate

Fishing in the mill pond,

Pooh sticks on the stream

And roaming the countryside

With nothing particular to do

And a world of time to do it in.

They were truly wonderful days

Pleasure filled days, innocent days,

Before the end of childhood

But that was before those amazing weeks

Of that one very special summer,

So many summers ago now,

When she transformed before my eyes,

A little more each day, into something new

Like a butterfly, emerging from its cocoon

Spreading its glorious wings in the sun

Displaying a previously unseen beauty.

A wonderful transformation

When she magically changed

From the cutely naive country girl,

An awkward and ungainly tomboy,

Into an altogether more graceful being

A beautiful young woman,

Though I was fond of the grubby faced girl

With the unruly hair, wispy and uncombed

But fondness paled and I very soon fell in love

With the beautiful butterfly that had replace her

And with the emergence of the butterfly girl

Possessed of all the wondrous beauty

Of the first flower of spring

We trod an unfamiliar path

And left our childish games behind

Taking our first tentative steps towards love,

A love that was a stranger to us, an alien thing

Yet we stepped eagerly into its turbulent sea

And immersed ourselves in its waters

We knew at once that excitement of first love

When joy was all we could see

And all of our thoughts were only for each other

Sweet moments spent in blissful adoration

Until love was burnt deeply on our souls.

Now when we walk the familiar places

Of our distant youth, as we so often do

We can stand in that very spot

Where first I beheld the butterfly

Resplendent in the sunlight

And say to her with heartfelt sincerity

That I love her still

THOSE JOYFUL DAYS

Gone now is that joyful day
When we stood before God
Humble in his blessed presence
And we were joined as one
When everything lay ahead of us

 

Gone are those joyful days
Full of love and laughter
Days of tender moments
And heady nights of passion
When everything lay ahead of us

 

Gone are those joyful days
When we walked along the shore line
Happy, carefree and in love,

As we walked hand in hand
And everything lay ahead of us

 

Gone are those joyful days
When God blessed our union
And delivered perfect joy into our lives
As our little family grew
And we had everything we desired

 

Gone are those joyful days
When your smile lit up my life
And my heart overflowed with love for you
Before it was broken in two
And everything was taken from me

 

Gone are the joyful days
Since you have gone ahead of me
Now God has you by his side
And I will miss you until that day
When God has reunited us

 

I look forward to that joyful day
When we stand once more together
But though my heart is broken
I must delay our reunion
Our sweet children need me
And I must love them double now

BEFORE LOVE DIED

 

We walked together in the spring
When our love was a fresh new thing
The cherry trees were in blossom
And we thought life was awesome
Our hearts were so full we sighed
But that was before love died

 

In the summer we walked together
In the fine and sunny weather
Through fields of golden corn
When we parted we were forlorn
And felt a burning passion deep inside
But that was before love died

 

In the autumn we walked abroad
And our hearts were of one accord
We wandered thought the golden gown
And nothing could ever get us down
We felt as one when side by side
But that was before love died

 

When winters chill fell upon the land
We still walked together hand in hand
We played in the snow like children
Making snow angels again and again
I even asked her to be my bride
But that was before love died

 

We had walked hand in hand
As a life together we planned
We sat beneath a leafy oak
As of everlasting love we spoke
And we loved, laughed and cried
But that was before love died

 

Now I walk alone in the familiar places
Where we enjoyed our fond embraces
Where we kissed and spoke of tomorrow
Places that now bring me only sorrow
Her love made me feel alive inside
But that was before love died

LEFT ALONE

 

Tears stung her eyes
And her voice cracked
As she remembered
Her loss hung heavy
Since he, what?
Even now she can't say it
Could not utter the word
Euphemisms fill her head
Crossed over, left the world,
Gone to a better place
He's in the next room
Passed away
Other people can say dead
But she cannot
Seven years have passed
Since it happened, her loss
And she lost so much
A husband, lover, friend
Partner, confident
And Soul mate
And even now it hurt
Though the wound
Is an old one
It is still unhealed
Still vivid red, and angry
Time is a great healer
They said to help her
To comfort her
But she thinks they lied

I LIE IN THE FIRST LIGHT OF DAWN

 

 

I lie in the first light of dawn
Alone, thinking of her,
Wishing her next to me
Feeling her breath
Against my skin
Her breasts
Pressed against my flesh
In the quiet of the new day
Hearing her breathing
I ache for her touch
I long for her soft body
Against mine
In the dawns pale light
And in the darkness
I want her

I want her so much,
But she is gone
She is mine no more
Never again will my hands
Caress her form
Never again will I hear
Her murmur and sigh in pleasure
She is mine no more
My angel of the night
Has left my side
And dwells now
With others of her kind

I WILL BE WITH YOU ALWAYS

 

 

Do not grieve for me
Do not mourn my passing
Just remember me with a smile.
Don’t think of me as gone
Remember what we had
Think of our life as a favourite book
Do not close it and put it on the shelf
Never to be read again
Just because you hate the ending
Start to write the next chapter
Enjoy it like all the others
And don’t be sad
I will be with you always

 

I will be there when the wild flowers
Dance in the spring meadow
When the summer breeze moves through
A field of ripening wheat
When the morning mist of autumn
Softens the landscape
And when the winter sun
Sparkles and glints on the snow
And I will be by your side
Through your loneliest hours

I will be with you always

 

I will be there in the dawn
Rising with the sun
You will see me again
When the sun sets at the days end
And in the twilight hours
I will be that gentle breeze
That caress’s your cheek
On a warm summer evening
And I will be that tingle on your skin
As you lie in the quiet hours

I will be with you always

 

I will be there when you retrace our steps
And when you stand on the lake shore
My reflection will not be on the water
By I am still with you
When you walk in the autumn
Through the golden carpet
I will be in the dancing leaves
And when the snow lays,
Though I will leave no foot prints
I am there for these moments that were ours

I will be with you always

 

I will be there in the quietness of winter
Among the falling snowflakes
I will be in the dew drops
On the grassy meadow
I will be there in the warm sunlight
Of a summer’s day
I will be with you when the storm
Quickens your heartbeat
And you will feel me on your skin
In the April showers

I will be with you always

THE NIGHT OF FIRSTS

 

 

I dreamt last night
About our night of firsts
And I saw everything with such clarity
Though it was many years ago
All the sights, sounds, tastes, smells,

And of course, touch
It was such a special night
Our night of firsts
Principally it was our first date
And the first time we held hands
It was as I walked you home
Along the orchard lane
And then of course
Beneath the cherry tree
We shared our first kiss
On that late spring evening
When the air was full of perfume
And we heard the birdsong
As we gazed into each other’s eyes
Then our lips touched
And our fate was sealed
For at that moment
On our night of firsts
We fell in love
From that moment on
And all the days of our lives
Our love has lasted
And though I am alone now
And I can only kiss you in my dreams
When my time comes
We will meet again
And we will walk hand in hand

Along the orchard lane
And kiss once more
Beneath the cherry tree

LIFE’S SOJOURN

 

 

I held your hand
Though you did not know it
And I remembered
The first time I held it
That august day so long ago
When the magic passed between us
And I knew I had found my mate

It was such an innocuous action,
We were on the train
Two travelling strangers
As it rattled its way through Surrey
You were just getting to your feet
When the train lurched
And you fell back with a bump
I offered you my hand
Which you took and the die was cast
Our journey together began
Now your journey is nearly at its end
And I sit in vigil at your side
Where I will remain
Until life leaves your body

On that quiet final breath
And you make the next journey alone

I said to you when we were young
“I would love you all of your life"
And when you were still you,
Before the morphine took hold of you
You reminded me of it and said to me
“Will you still love me all of my life?”
With a crack in my voice I replied
“No I’ll love you for all of mine”

WHEN HARRY MET SALLY

 

Harry's mind wandered
As he wended his way
Through crowded streets

To a special someone
Anna was his new love
And he would see her that night
As he hurried along

He could smell her hair
Feel the softness of her skin
He could even taste her
And he longed for her
As he remembered
Her smile, her kiss
Her writhing body
Then Harry stepped off the curb
Oblivious to the danger
And was struck
By a car unseen
Tossing him like a rag doll
Depositing him unceremoniously
Between car and gutter

His body lay broken
And bleeding
Where it came to rest
On the unforgiving street
And the last image in his mind
Was not the killer car
But Anna his new love
As his life ebbed away
His heart beat its last
The paramedic's best efforts
Were to no avail

A moment's carelessness
Had cost a young life
And his heart beat no more
In his broken body
But would beat once more
In another's chest
And reanimate
To bring new hope
To rekindle another's existence
Bringing a new beginning for Sally
Who, like a phoenix
Rises from the ashes

Of her frailty at the price
Of another families grief

THE BAD NEWS CAME

 

 

The news came,
As bad news does,
Out of the blue
At break neck speed
And hit me like a train
With deaths hateful sting
Numbing me to the core
Leaving me speechless
And too arid even to cry
Until the pain burst through
Bringing forth the bitter tears

As despair washed over me
Until I was drowning in sadness.
I sank in its frigid waters
To the depths of my soul
So bitter was the news
The loss so acute
I was broken in two
Lying beaten on the ground
I could feel no worse
I could sink no lower

Then like kicking an injured dog
I was struck by remorse
Like a tidal wave

A tsunami of regret
Knocking me off my feet
Why didn’t I tell her?
Why didn’t I say?
“I love you too”

EVERY CORNER OF THE WORLD (6)

 

I have stood by the Anatolian salt springs

I have stood upon Lake Victoria’s shore

I have stood in the Himalayan Mountains

I have looked upon St Helens eruption in awe

I have seen many things in my long life

It is my plan to live to see many more

But I know I will never see more beauty

Now I stand beside you of that I’m sure

RELISHING THE MOMENT

 

If opportunity exposed

A glimpse of stocking top

Before my licentious eyes.

Should my perusal stop?

 

Should I avert my gaze?

From a most pleasing sight

Or consider it serendipidous

And drink in the delight

LITTLE MARY

 

Little Mary

Neat and petite

A little angel

Short and sweet

 

Little Mary

Hold my hand

As we walk

Along the Strand

 

Little Mary

Give me a kiss

On your sweet lips

My little miss

 

Little Mary

Here’s my heart

Its not much

But it’s a start

 

Little Mary

Take my hand

Then you can wear

My wedding band

STRANGERS ON A TRAIN

 

She had blocked the corridor

And I had blocked her passage

And an enpasse had been reached

Which was not so easy to assuage

Eventually compromise reigned

And ground was conceided equally

And accomodations were reached

A curt embrace followed, continentaly

This led surpisingly to kissing

Then there was cuddling and huggage

And passions burned brighty

And we made love amongst the luggage

SALLY

 

Sally was a lovely girl,

The daughter of family friends

Our parents thought to interfere

To join us for the own ends

 

And being in Sally’s company

Was enjoyable and pleasing

We had always been close

Sharing jokes and teasing

 

But anything else than that

I would just have to resist her

For to have a sexual relationship

Would have been like bedding my sister

 

But I was relieved to find out

That Sally had told her mother

That it was simply immoral

To be expected to marry her brother

A WASTED LOVE

 

Do you know why,

Even after all these years,

When I close my eyes

Its your face I see

Even after all these years

My thoughts are of you

My dreams are of you

Its because I still love you

And I am stuck

In this mind set

Of not being able to love another

While I’m still in love with you

It’s a wasted love

Because you moved on

When I could not

Your heart is cold to me

While mine still burns for you

I've known that for years

But I cannot break free

And when my eyelids close

You are there behind them

STEPHANIE

 

She was certainly a sight

To wet any appetite

Elegant and graceful

Understatedly sexual

Outshining the sex kittens

The vamps and the vixens

Mouth-wateringly tantalising

Deliciously appetising

All the time she was there

All eyes consumed her

She would grace any menu

At any type of venue

But her appearance was brief

She was but an aperitif

But she was surely a sight

To wet any appetite

THE MOST PERFECT WOMAN

 

If I could make

The perfect wife

To keep with me

All of my life

 

If I was able to

Build the perfect one

I would chose Charlie’s legs

And Brenda’s bum

Laura’s breasts

And Eliza’s back 

Annie’s arms

And Connie’s neck

Jenny’s hands

And Sarah’s toes

Cassie’s ears

And Karen’s nose

Maureen’s mouth

And Stephanie’s grin

Doreen’s hair

And Patricia’s skin

Charlotte’s voice

And Debbie’s eyes

Joanne’s teeth

And Susan’s thighs

Emma’s grace

And Christine’s hips

Diane’s heart

And Penny’s lips

 

If this was something

That I could do

She would still not

Be as good as you

MIX AND MATCH

 

If only you could mix and match

To build the perfect girl

It would be great fun

I think I’ll give it a whirl

 

Bits may be out of proportion

She may look odd I guess

But she will only have eyes for me

And she will only answer yes

BENEATH THE MOONLIT SKY

Beneath the moonlit sky

I looked at a star and wished

Then later that moonlit night

Beneath the moon we kissed 

WITH MY PETTY JEALOUSY

 

Sibilant whisperings

Greeted me

For it was I

Who stole their glee

 

The gathering

Looked upon me

As the architect

Of their misery

 

They could barely

Keep their hate inside

At this wedding

Without a bride

 

It was all my doing

With my petty jealousy

And with it in me

I had made her flee

LIVING ON THE DEFENSIVE

 

She told me that she loved me

And I didn't know how to react

I’m afraid to say I love her

I want to keep my heart intact

Is it time to let down my guard?

Should I tell her how I feel?

What if she is false or insincere

My heart may never heal

Should I expose my feelings?

Even though I feel insecure

But if I keep my feelings secret

Or wait until I am certain sure

I risk undermining her love

Blemishing it at its very start

And I could lose her love forever

And that would break my heart

LOVE STRUCK

 

It feels like only yesterday

That you first came in to view

And the world seemed to stand still

As I looked at you

It seems like only yesterday

That cupids arrow took flight

And struck me through the heart

And it was love at first sight

LIVING IN THE SHADOWS

 

I finally looked into the shadows

And saw where you live

Because I’ve reached the end

I have no more to give

 

I really loved you

And I thought you loved me

But it wasn’t love

That you wanted from me

 

You wanted control, of

My every thought and deed

You brow beat me and bullied

Until you got me to conceed

 

You've always been there

Behind my tears

Belittleing and undermining

Feeding off my fears

 

Deprecating me, correcting me

Telling me I’m wrong

Bleeding me until I am weak

Making yourself strong

 

But all those empty years

I just couldn’t see

I was blind to just how bad

You really were for me

 

But now my eyes are open

And I see the man within

Those dark days are behind me

And my new life can begin

IF ONLY YOU WERE HERE

 

If only you were here

So I didn’t miss you

If only you were here

So I could kiss you

If only I had been

Granted three wishes

Then I would wish you here

And cover you in kisses

SHADOW DWELLER

 

I have always been content

To live in the shadows

Avoiding the limelight

Keeping out of the sun

Living on the fringes of life

Bathing in the reflected glory of my peers

Living life vicariously

Keeping the world at arms length

And keeping a low profile

Laughing at other peoples jokes

Rejoicing in other peoples good fortune

Cheering on other peoples success

Crying at other peoples weddings

Always the bridesmaid, never the bride

Always the uncle, never the father

Always the friend, never the lover

And why not? no harm no foul

Its safe wrapping yourself in Clingfilm

Living a sterile life, protected

Against the pain and hurt

That fills the world

And I was more than happy to do it

And I thought myself the better for it

But now I realise

I am incomplete

I have lived a half-life

Taking no risks

Not opening my shell

By not exposing myself to the dangers

I have denied myself the pleasures

Well no more will I be content

I will no longer inhabit the shadows

No more will I view life from the fringes

I want to be blinded by the limelight

I want to walk in the sunlight

Before it’s too late to live a full life

IS IT THE RIGHT TIME?

 

I’m not sure I’m ready to say it

But I know I really feel it

So I will tell you that I love you

And hope that you love me too

NO MERE FRIPPERY

 

Though some thought her unworldly

I thought she was cute

I think not being wise in the ways of the world

Is an attractive trait

It left her with an air of innocence

Untainted by convention

Some thought her a mere frippery

I thought her beyond price

But I was in a minority of one

And to my great relief I found

She was overlooked by the rest

Which left this sweet curiosity

Exclusively to me

She was my Tulip in an onion field

My Daisy in a Rose boquet

She is now my constant companion

The love of my life

HAPPINESS WAS THE HARBINGER

 

Happiness was the harbinger

Of my doom

Happy laughter echoed

In every joyful room

 

But we were too happy

That was our crime

The God’s couldn’t bear

To see us happy all the time

 

So they sent the angels

To take you from my side

They took your life

And left me dead inside

 

Sadness envelops me

As I kneel by your grave

I try to keep back the tears

I try my hardest to be brave

 

But they come anyway

My grief is unconfined

My dear sweet angel,

Resides with others of her kind

 

I curse the selfish Gods

For their spiteful jealousy

And pray to them also

To come soon and take me