MY HEARTS PROTECTOR

 

My hearts protector

A guardian fierce and true

And love of my life

INSEPARABLE ONCE # 1

 

We were once inseparable

Soul mates incarnate

Held by an eternal bond

As strong as tungsten

Yet soft as pure silk

I thought our union

Would last for ever

Even to the end of eternity

But the bonds that held us

Have disappeared

Like tears in the rain

We had it all, in our grasp

We could see it, feel it, touch it

Something steadfast and solid

Reassuring and comforting

A constant, a given

Something infinite and immeasurable

We had it all in our hands

A living breathing thing

That we gave life

Our own creation, our new entity

But we let it escape from our grasp

Slowly slipping through our fingers

Though we tried to recapture it

It was illusive, like trying to net smoke

It evaded our efforts

So now it's gone, and nothing remains,

Of that entity that was us

Nothing tangible, nothing physical

Only memories remain

INSEPARABLE ONCE # 2

 

We were once inseparable
Tied with the bonds of love
But when the day came
When bonds become restraints
Love melted into the ether
And the ties that bound
Turned inexorably to dust

IS SOMETHING WRONG WITH ME?

 

The years are passing me by
And another relationship has failed
What is wrong with me?
Why has this love affair derailed?

 

Why can I not hold onto love?
What kind of signal do I transmit?
What makes me so difficult to love?
Why can I not put my finger on it

 

So, I must move onto pastures new
Looking for the most elusive pray
Wishing for better luck this time

And that I will strike gold one day

 

Surely it is not too much to ask
That my love be returned in kind
But I won’t give up the search
I’ll keep looking and see what I find

 

I just have to keep believing
Keep the faith and I will soon see
The next one that I can love
And hope that they will love me

WHERE AND WHEN AND HOW

 

Where did it go?
That sense of one
The feeling of togetherness
Of mutuality, symbiosis
Thinking each other’s thoughts
A consciousness shared
Breathing in unison
A single beating heart
Speaking in a single voice

 

When did it happen?
At what point?
Did we separate?
When were we torn asunder
Split like an atom
Dissected like conjoined twins
To breath alone
To stop sharing one heart
And speak for ourselves

 

How could it be?
When I looked at her with love
A stranger looked back
Independent and solo
Individual and free
Thinking on a different plain
Breathing different air
Heart pulsing with a different beat
Speaking a foreign tongue

MY PETTY JEALOUSY

 

 

Sibilant whisperings
Greeted me
For it was I
Who stole their glee

The gathering
Looked upon me
As the architect
Of their misery

They could barely
Keep their hate inside
At this wedding
Without a bride

It was all my doing
With my petty jealousy
And with it in me
I had made her flee

YOU HAD ME LOVING YOU

 

You had me loving you from day one

I had you loving me when it begun

But somewhere along the way

Your cheating heart decided to stray

You had me loving you totally

And I thought I had you loving me

But now your heart resides elsewhere

And you have left me in utter despair

You are still the one that I adore

But you don’t love me anymore

You still have me loving you totally

But I no longer have you loving me