Sunday, 24 January 2021

THE “LOVE” WORD

 

Love,

Is just a word

Such a small word

Often misused

A throw away word

Used as a panacea,

To paper over the cracks

Tell someone “I love you”

And everything is expected

To be forgiven

But love

Is too small a word

For what I feel

Far too small

For what I want to express

As the love I feel

Is immeasurable, infinite

In its depth, its quality

It’s all-encompassing nature

It colours everything

All I say, all I do

Yet to express my feelings

All I can say is

“I love you”

It’s just so inadequate,

For what I want to express

My need for you

Of never being parted from you

To be joined forever

In every way

But I don’t have the word

To articulate it

I don’t have the vocabulary

I just have

Love

INSEPARABLE ONCE # 1

 


We were once inseparable
Soul mates incarnate
Held by an eternal bond
As strong as tungsten
Yet soft as pure silk
I thought our union
Would last for ever
Even to the end of eternity
But the bonds that held us
Have disappeared
Like tears in the rain

We had it all, in our grasp

We could see it, feel it, touch it
Something steadfast and solid
Reassuring and comforting
A constant, a given
Something infinite and immeasurable

We had it all in our hands
A living breathing thing
That we gave life
Our own creation, our new entity
But we let it escape from our grasp
Slowly slipping through our fingers
Though we tried to recapture it
It was illusive, like trying to net smoke
It evaded our efforts

So now it's gone, and nothing remains,
Of that entity that was us
Nothing tangible, nothing physical
Only memories remain

Saturday, 23 January 2021

Snippets of Downshire Life – Library Shelfie Day

 

The traditional seaside resort of Sharpington-by-Sea with its Victorian Pier, seafront hotels, crazy golf, The Palladium ballroom, well maintained gardens, promenade, theatre, and illuminations, has all the usual things to have a great time by the seaside, as well as amusement arcades and of course the Sharpington Fun Park, but in addition to those attractions the town obviously benefitted from all the normal amenities, such as the Public Library.

The longest serving member of staff was Chief Librarian, Karen Braiser, who was the very epitome of her kind.

Her dark greying hair was pulled back severely into a bun arrangement, she wore heavy framed spectacles and dressed in black pinafore dress over a long-sleeved blouse, black tights and wore sensible shoes.

She dressed like that all year round, whatever the weather, the only variety being the addition of a black or grey cardigan, in the depths of winter.

Karen was thirty-seven years old and had worked at the library since she left school and she loved it.

She was a private person and didn’t really socialise with the other staff up until the point Brittany Hutt joined the staff.

 

Brittany was a breath of fresh air around the place, she was a University graduate and openly admitted that she had only taken the job at the Sharpington Library until she decided what she wanted to do with her life.

Brittany was the antithesis of Karen, for a start she did not dress in the subdued manner that Karen did, she was an explosion of colours and styles, and her hair seldom stayed the same colour more than a week at a time, nor was she mousy or private she was loud and proud, and you always knew when she was around.

The one thing they did have in common though was their love of the printed word, they were both well-read and shared an encyclopaedic knowledge of books, and so despite the differences of age style and demeanour, they formed a rather unlikely friendship.

 

Another great lover of books was local Taxi Driver, Danny Tomkins, who was a regular visitor even before his niece Brittany started to work there.

From the first moment that her Uncle Danny walked into the Library and said good morning to Karen, and she responded curtly, Britt could read between the lines, they wanted each other.

Despite the fact that she was aloof and standoffish, and he was brash and over familiar, they wanted each other, and Britt knew it, even though they did not.

Karen had not been enamoured of him when he was a complete stranger, but when Britt formerly introduced them she was even less so.

For Danny’s part he found her mode of dress unappealing, her hairstyle old fashioned and she was older, by seven years.  

But when they were discussing a book or an author, they communicated as equals.

 

Brittany didn’t understand why nobody else saw what she did, or why they didn’t see it, what she did know was that she was powerless to change it.

However, after she had watched them do the same dance for months the germ of an idea formed and quickly grew into a fully developed plan, and she didn’t have to wait long to implement it.

 

It was the 4th Wednesday of January and the day started the same as any other, but it didn’t remain that way for long.

Karen, Brittany, and Danny were all stood by the main desk when Karen asked.

“What on earth is going on today?”

Her question was in response to seeing more than a few of the Libraries patrons walk eagerly into the library, take a selfie, and then leave just as briskly.

“It’s Library Shelfie Day” Britt replied and laughed.

“What on earth is that?” Karen and Danny asked in unison.

“It’s self-explanatory really” Britt replied.

“You visit your local library, take a selfie in front of a bookshelf, i.e. “shelfie” and then you share it on social media”

“Why?” Karen and Danny asked again in synch.

“Well primarily it helps to promote Libraries” she replied, “and the better the selfie the more times it will be shared and the more times its shared then ergo the more visibility “your” Library gets on social media”  

“Oh, I see” Karen said, “I think”.

“Come on let’s do one of our own” Britt suggested.

“You, me and Uncle Danny”

“Oh, I’m not sure about that” she said doubtfully.

“Come on it will put Sharpington Library on the map” Britt said.

“Oh Ok” she agreed “Where?”

“In front of the poetry section” Danny suggested.

“Which ones,” Britt asked “Modernists, Postmodernist, or English Romantics?”

“Edwardian” Karen replied

“And Georgian” Added Danny

“Oh yes” Karen agreed.

“Ok then” Brittany said, “Let’s get into position, I’ll take it and you two can stand behind”.

“No, that’s no good” she said.

“It’s no good just standing there pulling a face” Brittany said.

“I was smiling” Karen protested.

“Or just smiling” she said, “I know, kiss Uncle Danny”.

“Absolutely not” Karen protested.

“That’s not going to happen” Danny concurred.

“You have to kiss, we need to do something that people will do a double take on, you two kissing will definitely do that”.

“Seriously?” she asked.

“Seriously” Britt replied

“Is this alright with you?” she asked Danny.

“Well, as it’s in a good cause, I suppose I’m in” he replied.

“Ok then let’s make this quick Britt” she said, and she turned to face him, and he stooped down to get in shot

“Ok, go” Britt said and the reluctant couple puckered up and they kissed, but as her lips touched his it was evident that it was so much more than a “good cause kiss” and the kiss lasted for a full five minutes and might easily have gone on for another five had the assembled patrons not given then a rousing round of applause which were loud and boisterous enough to bring the kissing couple back to the moment.

“Well, if that’s a reluctant kiss, I’d like to see the one when you’re actually up for it” Brittany said.

“Well, you’re not going to get an opportunity” A red faced Karen said and took Danny by the hand and dragged him down the medieval history aisle.

Friday, 22 January 2021

WHERE AND WHEN AND HOW

 


Where did it go?
That sense of one
The feeling of togetherness
Of mutuality, symbiosis
Thinking each other’s thoughts
A consciousness shared
Breathing in unison
A single beating heart
Speaking in a single voice

 

When did it happen?
At what point?
Did we separate?
When were we torn asunder
Split like an atom
Dissected like conjoined twins
To breath alone
To stop sharing one heart
And speak for ourselves

 

How could it be?
When I looked at her with love
A stranger looked back
Independent and solo
Individual and free
Thinking on a different plain
Breathing different air
Heart pulsing with a different beat
Speaking a foreign tongue

MY PETTY JEALOUSY

 


Sibilant whisperings
Greeted me
For it was I
Who stole their glee

The gathering
Looked upon me
As the architect
Of their misery

They could barely
Keep their hate inside
At this wedding
Without a bride

It was all my doing
With my petty jealousy
And with it in me
I had made her flee

YOU HAD ME LOVING YOU

 

 

You had me loving you from day one
I had you loving me when it begun
But somewhere along the way
Your cheating heart decided to stray

You had me loving you totally
And I thought I had you loving me
But now your heart resides elsewhere
And you have left me in utter despair

You are still the one that I adore
But you don’t love me anymore
You still have me loving you totally
But I no longer have you loving me

Thursday, 21 January 2021

Snippets of Downshire Life – MLK Day

 

When Margaret Linda Kennedy got into her car that morning in Brocklington she was feeling unusually positive, and it was the first time for several years she had felt that way, in fact it was the first time really since her divorce.   

The village of Brocklington was on the River Brooke about six miles downstream from Sharping St Mary in the Finchbottom Vale which was nestled comfortably between the Ancient Dancingdean Forest to the south and the rolling Pepperstock Hills in the north, those who are lucky enough to live there think of it as the rose between two thorns.

The Vale was once a great wetland that centuries earlier stretched from Mornington in the East to Childean in the west and from Shallowfield in the south to Purplemere in the north.

But over the many centuries the vast majority had been drained for agriculture, a feat achieved largely by the efforts of famous Mornington Mills, of which only three had survived to the present day and even those were no longer functional and were in various states of repair.  

There were only three small bodies of water left in the Vale now one in Mornington, one in Childean and third of course was Purplemere and it was Purplemere where Maggie was headed with her new-found positivity.

The reason for it was actually a misunderstanding and stemmed from the moment when she viewed her Twitter feed and saw that #MLKday was trending.

“MLK? That’s me” she said triumphantly and went off to shower.

Had she clicked on the hashtag she would have discovered that it was actually Martin Luthor King day and not Margaret Linda Kennedy day, but she hadn’t so she took it as a sign.

 

In truth it didn’t really matter what made her positive, what was important was that she liked the feeling and she was determined not to relinquish the feeling, and she managed to get as far as Purplemere when the incident that dented her positivity occurred.

 

She had just got off the Finchbottom Expressway onto the slip road when a BMW undercut her and, in the process, sideswiped her into the crash barrier.

The airbag deployed the moment she made impact and she closed her eyes and stamped on the brakes as her momentum carried her almost sixty yards before she came to a halt, and she was dazed and bleeding from a head wound as she saw the BMW drive away and then she passed out. 

   

When the ambulance arrived at the Royal Downshire Hospital in Purplemere they took her straight into the emergency department and she was immediately attended to by Doctor Vera Williams and Nurse Amanda Turner

 

PC King sat down next to Maggie’s bed while Amanda Turner, a skinny freckly nurse with her straw coloured hair tied in a bun stitched the cut on her scalp.

“Do you know who ran you off the road?” Marty King asked

“No” She replied

“Can you describe the car?” he asked

“Silver”

“Make? Model?”

“No” she said shaking her head

“Keep still hon” Nurse Turner said

“Dash cam” Maggie replied

“Excuse me?” PC King responded

“I had a dash cam, forward and rear facing” she said and winced

“Well that will definitely help” he said “I’ll come back this evening and get a proper statement.

“Ok” she replied with closed eyes

As PC King walked away Amanda leant in close and whispered

“He’s a dish” And squeezed Maggie’s hand as she added “and he’s coming back to see you later”

 

Maggie had a mild concussion, a broken wrist, bruised ribs and a number of cuts and contusions so they admitted her overnight for observation, and it was upstairs on a ward where PC King went to take her statement and left his partner PC Ricky Hall in the ED where nurse Amanda Turner flirted with him.

 

PC Marty King was a tall man in his late twenties, with a good physique beneath an unflattering uniform.

And as if being six feet four inches tall didn’t make him stand out enough, nature had also endowed him with prematurely grey hair.

But Maggie cheered up when she saw him approaching, she been a bit miserable since they took her up to the ward, she’d overheard the porters talking earlier and one of them mentioned Martin Luthor King Day.

“Duh” she said to herself “so much for being a sign”

So, she’d spent the afternoon feeling sorry for herself but when she saw him she realized Amanda was right, he was a dish, and she had always had a weakness for grey hair.

 

It didn’t take long to take Maggie’s statement as she was very together and very precise, which was a blessing and a curse because he rather liked her and although the way she gave her statement made it easier for him to transcribe later it meant the interview would be over far too quickly.

He thought it was a shame he was on duty as he would have asked her out under any other circumstances.

When he had finished he handed her the statement for her to sign, and after she had scrawled her Monica she noticed his own signature and printed beneath it was PC M.L.King.

“MLK” she thought to herself “maybe it was a sign after all”

Maggie handed the statement back to him and blurted out

“Can I call you? …. in case I think of anything else”

“Yes” he said “and perhaps I should have your number in case I have any more questions for you”

“What a good idea” she said and handed him her phone, and he smiled as he entered his number.