Thursday, 6 May 2021

REFRESHED

 

Laughter rings now

In the once empty caverns

Of my heart

Sweet wine now

Replaces the bitter brew

Which once coursed

Through narrow streams

My senses once dulled by time

Are now sharp, concise

Vision like an eagle soaring

Able to hear the beat

Of a hummingbird’s wings

Nostrils filled with exotic scent

Heady and cloying

Exquisite tastes tantalize

An unsophisticated palate

And the reason

For my transformation

My metamorphosis

Is an angel

Earthbound

Who has energized an old man

Invigorated my senses

She has re-awakened me

Stirred my soul

But she will never know

Must never know

How she has affected me

I will view her from a distance

And exchange polite greetings

A warm smile, A familiar nod

I will keep my own council

And I will feel contentment

My love unrequited

Wednesday, 5 May 2021

Snippets of Downshire Life – Dawn Chorus

The Pepperstock Hills National Park stretched from the bare and often barren crags of Oxley Ridge in the North to the dense wooded southern slopes on the fringe of the Finchbottom Vale and from Quarry Hill, and the Pits in the West to Pepperstock Bay in the East.

It is an area of stark contrasts and attracted a variety of visitors.

The Quarry Hill side of the park to the west, as the name suggests, was heavily Quarried over several hundred years, though more extensively during the industrial revolution, the Quarries had been un-worked for over fifty years and nature had reclaimed them and the former pits had become lakes and were very popular with anglers and the sparse shrubbery and woodland made it a popular spot with courting couples whereas the northern crags and fells were popular with climbers and the more hardy folk.

To the south and east was an extensive tract of magnificent mixed forestry and was rivalled only by the ancient woodland of the Dancingdean Forest, which was where Paul McConnell lived in the village of Springwater.

 

He wasn’t a native of Springwater and only moved to the village when he took the post of tree surgeon with the Forestry Commission, which he loved, but in addition he had two other loves in his life, one was bird watching while the other was Dawn Fowle, and the irony of the latter’s name was not lost on him.

 

Springwater was a perfect location to fulfil his love of bird watching however his love for her was not so perfect as she was with another man, her husband Mick, and she was not free for him to claim, even though her husband was cruel and uncaring, she was still married to him.

However, he was hopeful he might win her away from Mick, as he was sure his feelings were reciprocated but after six months he was no nearer to his goal, so he planned an intervention.

 

Dawn was a Paramedic by profession, but when she wasn’t working she was often to be found volunteering as part of the Springwater Mountain Rescue Team.

It was his knowledge of her activities with the SMRT that would aid him in his pursuit of her heart.

 

The Pepperstock Hills National Park was very popular with climbers and walkers of all abilities so there were a number of Rescue   Stations in the hills which were permanently manned during the busiest times of the year, and two nights every fortnight she would take her turn with the first responders on the hill, and furthermore he knew when she would walk down the hill to the Mountain Rescue HQ in Springwater, and which route she would take.

The only thing he didn’t know for sure was whether she would be on her own when she walked through the woods at the end of her shift.

 

Paul McConnell was often up in the woods in the early hours of the day enjoying the full majesty of the Dawn Chorus, which was how he knew Dawn Fowle’s route and timetable.

He was enjoying the chilly morning, walking in the wood, listening to the wind stirring the canopy above his head and the cacophony of birdsong, but then he stopped suddenly in his tracks and his ears pricked up, and he smiled as his quarry was approaching and she was performing a Dawn Chorus of her own.

He clearly heard the pleasing melodic tones of her sweet voice, competing with the singing of the birds in the morning air.

 

# Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you, dear

Louder, louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say
#

 

The voice definitely belonged to Dawn as she sang The Snow Patrol song, Run, though very much in the style of Leona Lewis, to every tree and critter.

He waited quietly in the shadows, and enjoyed the performance, so he kept quiet and listened, but as she passed him he stepped forward onto the path and said

“Morning songbird” and she jumped fully half a foot in the air and went as white as a sheet.

“Oh my God” she exclaimed “I nearly had a heart attack”

But then the colour returned to her cheeks and she roared with laughter, a laugh which was so infectious Paul was soon laughing along with him.

Their hearty laughter filled the air as they began to walk back to Springwater but after a few minutes she looked him up and down and said

“Aren’t you cold in shorts?”

“We “Woodsman” types are a hardy breed” he responded

“You don’t look very hardy” she lied as her eyes examined every inch of the muscular outdoorsman.

“I think you had better come to HQ with me and have a hot drink”

“Ok” he retorted “I bow to your superior knowledge and expertise in these matters and I put myself in your hands”

“I wish” she thought to herself

For the rest of the walk they chatted in the same casual, flirty manner that they normally did until they reached HQ.

It was located on the outskirts of Springwater and was they last bit of civilization before you entered the Park.

It was a moderately sized complex, which housed a café, and a shop where you could buy everything from tents, sleeping bags, clothing, and footwear, to Sandwiches and Kendal mint cake.

In addition, there was a manned first aid station and of course the Springwater Mountain Rescue HQ, where the team met or assembled and where they stored all their equipment.

 

The HQ was as he suspected it would be at that hour, deserted, which fitted nicely with the plan, but after that he would just have to wing it.

Dawn unlocked the door and let him in and he sat at the table in the kitchen area while she filled and boiled the kettle, and they chatted in much the same vein as they had on the walk and then Dawn put the drinks down on the table beside him.

“Thanks, that looks just the job” he said “it’s nice to see that you have more strings to your bow that early morning bird scaring”

“You cheeky sod” Dawn said as she stood beside him and tried to clip him round the ear.

He caught hold of her wrist however and pulled her on to his lap and kissed her slowly and sensually.

“I’ve wanted to do that for ages” he said

“You’ve wanted to compliment me on my tea making do you mean?” she asked

“Yes, that’s precisely what I meant” he said, “I think good manners are so important, don’t you?”

“Oh, very much so” she agreed “So do you think I might prevail upon you to snog me again?”

“My pleasure” he retorted

“And mine” she concurred and then they were kissing again.

There’s no way of knowing how long the kiss might have lasted, but they were interrupted by the sound of the door opening and a woman’s voice calling.

“Hello?”

Dawn jumped quickly to her feet and for some reason began rearranging her clothing to make sure that there was nothing untoward, and then she left the room

“Good morning Jacqui” she said, Jacqui was her sister in law and she worked at the First Aid Station next door, he assumed she had seen the lights on and decided to investigate.

After the initial “good morning” all he could hear were muffled voices, so he finished his tea and followed in Dawn’s footsteps.

“Are you going home to bed?” Jacqui asked and gave Paul a disdainful look

“Yes” Dawn replied “I’m going to drop Paul home first, and then I’ll get a few hours’ sleep before work”

Then almost as an afterthought Jacqui said

“What’s he doing here?”

“I found him on the hill dressed like that” Dawn replied

“What’s wrong with him? Is he mental?” Jacqui asked coldly

“He’s fine but if he’d stayed up there he could have suffered mild exposure” Dawn replied

“I can well imagine what he would have been exposing” she said with contempt “Bird watchers are very weird”

“I am here you know” Paul pointed out

Jacqui had appeared un-phased by Paul presence, but Dawn was a little uneasy and glanced at her watch

“Let’s get you in the car Paul” she said in her best patronizing professional paramedic voice.

She turned off the light and locked the door and Jacqui walked back towards the First Aid Station.

“See you later Jac”

As they reached her car she whispered

“Do you think she suspects anything?”

“Not for a second” he replied, “You were after all merely showing off your tea making expertise”

“No seriously” She said as she opened the driver’s door “Do You?”

“No” he said reassuringly and got in the car and she seemed satisfied with his answer and drove out of the car park, but she didn’t drive him home, instead she drove up to a little car park down in the valley popular with dog walkers and was chosen by her because the valley was still shrouded in mist, so they could sit in the car and not worry about being seen.

Dawn parked in a quiet corner out of view of the entrance and due to the mist out of sight of everyone.

Once they had come to a halt she switched off the engine and as she stared out into the mist she asked

“I have to know what it meant”

“What?”

“The kiss, did it mean what I think it means, or was it just a spur of the moment, take advantage of the situation kind of thing?”

“I don’t know what you think it meant” he replied, and she tensed before he added

“But for me it meant everything”

Now for the first time she turned to face him as he spoke

“I meant that I need you, I want you and I love you, and all that that entails” he continued “I want you to leave Mick and move in with me and eventually I want to marry you, is that what you thought it meant?”

“No” she replied “But it’s what I wanted it to mean”

And then they undid their seat belts and proceeded to kiss and this time there was no interruption.

 


I WANT, I NEED

 

I want, I need, a woman to look at me

Just a glance

The way Sha’uri looked at Jackson

In “Stargate”

A look of passion

Of want and desire

Telling me all

In that one look

 

I want, I need, a woman to smile at me

Her face to light up

The way Donna Reed smiled at Jimmy Stewart

In “it’s a wonderful life”

A smile of passion

Of want and desire

Telling me all

In that one smile

 

I want, I need, a woman to love me

Come what may

The way Greer Garson loved Coleman

In “Random Harvest”

A deep enduring love

Wanting and desiring

Answering all my doubts

In that all-consuming love

 

I want, I need, to be in love with a woman

But no ordinary love

Special like Bogey and Bacall

Tracy and Hepburn in life and on screen

I want to see my love

Reflected back in her face

Reflecting want and desire

Telling all

In that requited love

THE DAWN PASSING

Sun light pierced the darkness

Through unmet curtains

Spilling gentle early morning sun

On her quiet restful countenance

Facing the dawn

She lay on her side

Her hand supporting her pail cheek

She was at peace

Her three-score year and ten served

Age and weariness had left her

And the pain, which hardens our features, was no more

As I held her cold hand

I remembered her warmth

And my mind was at once filled

With a lifetime’s memories

Good memories

Warm and rich beyond price

Memories So vivid they might have been yesterday

My lips quivered

And my eyes filled with the sting of tears

Happy for the memories

But so sad for the loss

Then Suddenly The peace was broken

With the doctor’s heavy footfall on the stairs

So, I kissed her gentle hand

And said my last goodbye to mum. 

EVERYTHING BUT A POSSESSION TO ME

 

My partner and lover

My significant other

My best friend and gal 

My confidante and pal

The love of my life

Happily, you’re my wife

Tuesday, 4 May 2021

Snippets of Downshire Life – Infidelity Hurts – The Ultimatum

 

The Dulcets were a collection of villages and hamlets comprising of Dulcet Meadow, Dulcet St Mary, Dulcet Green and Dulcet-on-Brooke, to name but a few, and of course Dulcet-on-Willow which was a large sprawling village beside the gentle shallow River Willow, which ran unhurriedly from the Pepperstock Hills to the more vibrant River Brooke.

It was in Willow where Gary Smith lived, and he was one of that group of men, who relationship wise, punched above his weight, in the form of Karen Filey, who was five feet eight, short bobbed brown hair, seductive hazel eyes and a stunning figure suitably proportioned and all underpinned, by the most amazing legs, who was five years his junior to boot.

Over their relatively short time together, lust soon turned to love and that led inevitably to an engagement.

But there was a fly in the ointment and that was that he was unfaithful, very unfaithful, he just couldn’t get enough, and he did any woman he could get his hands of any age, and anywhere, even though he had a real hottie on tap, who was as good as she looked, and who had a voracious sexual appetite for him, but still he strayed.

But things came to a head one day when they were cuddled up on the sofa, and Karen suddenly said

“Do you remember when we started dating and I said that I didn’t mind if you were unfaithful to me as long as you loved only me?”

“Yes” he said cautiously “but…”

“And I know you’re not faithful so don’t bother trying to deny it” she said sternly, and he was about to speak, but she stopped him

“I don’t know who, though I have my suspicions”, she said flatly

“And I don’t think I want to know but I know you’re sleeping with other women” she paused

“And as I said last time I don’t mind”

She paused again

“For now, but there will come a time in the not too distant future when I will”

“I love you and I’m certain sure of that, and I know that you say you love me but I’m not so sure of that”

“But I do love you” he said taking her hand

“But you don’t love me as completely as I love you” she retorted taking her hand away “you are enough for me, but clearly I’m not enough for you”

Gary tried to speak again but again she stopped him, so he got up and paced the room

“So, you have until December to sow your wild oats or to curb your appetites or whatever it is you do”

“But by my 21st birthday I need to feel your commitment” she said and again he tried to speak

“And no that’s not a euphemism” she said without humour “you need to want me and me alone, and that’s all I have to say”

Gary was now cleared to speak but he didn’t know what to say, he wanted to say don’t be silly you’re the only one for me, but he knew that he was a dog.

Gary knew that he was getting plenty, and he was liking that, but if he wanted to keep the girl he loved, it was obvious he would have to change.

“Is that why you don’t use the door key?” he asked as Karen was on her knees removing a DVD from the machine and he perched on the arm of the sofa just watching her, almost in a daze.

“Yes” she replied without turning around

“Because…” she began but couldn’t finish

“You don’t want to catch me with another woman” Gary said finishing her sentence while she carried on what she was doing slowly and deliberately.

Gary was a little shocked, firstly because it never occurred to him for a moment that he couldn’t have his cake and eat it, and secondly although he knew he loved Karen more than he had ever loved anyone he didn’t realise quite how much that was until that moment when he realised he could lose her.

The prospect of losing her stunned him and he knew he had to make changes in his life.

 

Karen finished putting the DVD in its box and switched off the TV

“Don’t look so glum” she said as she stood up, having finished what she was doing

“I’m not giving up on you yet, we’ve dealt with the serious stuff, now we get to do the fun bit”

She took hold of his hand and led him into the bedroom.

 

Over the following six months he tried to reform but it soon became obvious to him that he was incapable of keeping it in his pants and the inevitability of Karen losing patience with him and dumping him was so overwhelming that he began to think that the best course of action as for him to break up with her, thus saving both of them pain in the long run.

Which was what he did, quoting his abject failure to fulfil her ultimatum.

 

Seven years later and Gary was married to a woman he didn’t love because of a child they made together in a sweaty loveless coupling in a bus shelter in Appleby.

It was inevitable that his inability to control his urges would land him in trouble one day.

Karen was also married, in her case to a man, fifteen years her senior, whom she also didn’t love.

She had found it hard after she split up with Gary to commit totally to another man because he broke her heart and ended up marrying Eric for security.

However, they did both have a love interest in their lives, namely each other, and they met up wherever and whenever they could and were never happier than when they were together.

FROM THE SHADOWS

 

I stood in the shadows

As I had often done before

Out of sight, to see yet be unseen

To look upon that vision of loveliness

She talks with friends in the gardens

Unaware of me

Her skirt was long and green

From high waste to ankle low

Her crisp blouse of white

Enhanced to elegance of her neck

The long sleeves encasing her slender arms

Covered her fine boned wrists

Her hair was red

Red like burnished copper

Thick and full bodied tied back at her nape

Her eyes were the hue of polished emeralds

In a setting of perfect pale skin

No jeweller could ever hope to equal

Her mouth pale lipped, strong yet sensitive

When transformed into a smile

Illuminated her countenance

As if a light had been switched on

Perusal of every inch of her delicate frame

Returned echoes of a cultured creature

Dressed in the finest Edwardian elegance

More than a class above me

I step from the shadows

Returning unseen to my duties