Thursday, 15 July 2021

YOU MUST KNOW I LOVE YOU

 

You must know I love you 

I hope I show you that I do

For the sweetest moments in my life

Are the ones I spend with you

You are my first thought

When I awake to the new day

And the last thing on my mind

At night when I drift away

 

I wish I could tell you

Of the love that’s in my heart

I want you to feel the depth of love

I’ve felt for you from the start

 

I would use sweet phrases

And sugary words of love

The sweetest ever known

Speaking of columbine and dove

 

No the words that I must choose 

Are the simplest that I can use

What I'm feeling deep inside

Is the deepest love for you

WILL MY PLEA ABOVE

Will my plea above

To gladden and cheer

My ardent call for love

Fall on deafened ear

 

Is there not but one

Who will hear my plea

And fill me with joy

Please, please hear me

 

Don’t leave me all alone

Let me share my love

Please have mercy

Oh hear my plea above

 

Take heed of my plea

Just another soul to love

Gentle and replete

And as precious as a dove 


Wednesday, 14 July 2021

Those Memories Made on Teardrop Lake – (24) The Christian Lady and the Pagans

 

It was in the middle of the 7th Century when 17 year old Olwen, the youngest daughter of King Osric, was pledged in marriage to young King Ryce of West Untenena.

King Osric’s tribe was in the east bordering Cantwarena and the marriage was designed to affect a treaty between the two tribes and preserve the peace by forming a mutually beneficial alliance against West Sexena.

 

Osric’s tribe in East Untenena were Christina converts and because of her faith, Olwen only agreed to the union if she could be married at St Augustine’s Church in the place of her birth.

 

The citizens of East Untenena were very pleased with the union as they hoped it would lead to a lasting peace.

Olwen was very popular among her people and the wedding was the cause of much celebration with seven days of feasting.

 

It was a joyous occasion and when it ended Olwen and her new husband then travelled under heavy escort to her new home.

Soldiers of both East and West Untenena made up the escort as an act of solidarity.

Olwen was also accompanied by her maids Esme and Elwin, and by her priest Father Audley.

 

Her new home was the great hall of King Ryce which stood in a settlement at the head of the Lake Tåre Drape on the edge of the great forest.

 

Although the marriage was forced upon her she was not disappointed with the union, Olwen liked Ryce and in time she grew to love him very deeply.

And she also grew to love her new home very much.

But she came from a Christian realm and she had married into a pagan one.

Though Ryce was prepared to adopt the new faith his subjects and more importantly, his chieftains, were not.

Although most of his subjects took to the new Queen and loved her almost as much as her own people did.

Though not all of them, in fact two of them were openly hostile to her and a third, Holt had threatened to kill any Christians who dared practice in his lands.

 

For the first year Olwen was content to have Father Audley attend to hers and her maid’s spiritual needs in her private chambers but she was not prepared to deny herself a place of worship forever.

 

So at the beginning of her 19th year she broached the subject with Ryce when he asked her if she was happy in his kingdom she replied rather unconvincingly

“Yes”

“You are unhappy?” Ryce asked

“No I’m not unhappy” she replied “but...”

“You still miss your home” he said

“A little yes” she admitted

“But really I miss my Church”

“I see” he responded “the one thing you miss is the one thing I cannot give you”

“Not even a small Chapel for us?” she asked in her most feminine voice.

“I can’t grant you that” Ryce said

“It’s doesn’t have to be grand or ornate”

She pleaded

“If I was to openly build a Church in this settlement it would give Holt the excuse he needs to move against me” He said and Olwen was crestfallen.

“I’m sorry” he said

“What if we built one in secret?” she asked

“Where?” he asked

“In the forest” she said

The King was very thoughtful for a few minutes and then he said

“I will give it some further thought”

Then he took his leave.

 

Olwen took that to mean no, but she left it at that for now, she didn’t want to back him into a corner.

But that didn’t mean she would give up.

 

After several days Ryce gave Olwen his decision as they lay in his bed.

“You may have your secret Chapel” he said

“Thank you my King” she said excitedly

“But it must remain secret” he reiterated

“If Holt or his kinsmen find out, there will be open revolt”

“Yes my Lord” 

“No materials or craftsman from my realm can be used”

“I understand” Olwen said


There was a regular caravan that travelled between East and West Untenena so over the following 18 months Stone was brought in secret from Thanet Island in small quantities and an Alta stone was transported from Lindisfarne via a circuitous route.

 

Firstly a large area of forest was cleared and building began on a small timber Chapel to Olwen’s specific design.

The Thanet stones were placed around the outline of the building in the traditional cruciform shape and some locally acquired flag stones formed the floor and the Lindisfarne Alta stone was given pride of place.

The Chapel walls and roof were made of Dancingdean timber and only a small number of trusted woodsman knew what was being built in the woods.

There was also a large baptismal bowl set into the floor of one side of the transept where Olwen’s husband Ryce and their children were baptized.

Its Water was drawn from a natural spring besides the Chapel clearing which the faithful claimed only sprang forth when the church was completed.

 

The first service was held on Olwen’s 22nd birthday and monthly thereafter so as not to draw attention.

This went on regularly for four years without incident until one spring when her brother Hugh and his wife Henrietta were visiting with her for Olwen’s confinement.  

She was six months pregnant with her third child and she was praying this one was a boy.

So she made more regular visits to the Chapel so she could pray to God to grant her wish.

 

It was on a bright spring day when Father Audley led Olwen, Ryce and their daughters, Lucetta and Annis, and her brother and his wife along the hidden path to the Chapel.

But as the priest stepped into the sunlight Ryce was struck on the side of the head with a sword hilt and fell to the ground.

“You will die for this Holt”     

Olwen screamed as she saw the face of her husband’s assailant.

“I think not” Holt said as he brandished his sword “You will all die here today at your holy place”

And his kinsman Irwin drew his sword at the same moment.

Thankfully Godwin the woodsman who had been instrumental in the Chapel’s construction was already inside when the attack began and without thinking he took up his axe and charged out and cleaved Irwin’s head in two. 

As Irwin fell down dead it distracted Holt long enough for Hugh to burst out of the trees and thrust his sword through Holt’s throat, and he turned to look at Hugh with a look of surprise and then dropped his sword.

“God has spoken” Olwen said and he fell dead to the ground.

 

It was all over in a trice, fortunately Henrietta had taken the young girls away at the first sign of trouble, so were spared the bloodshed.

Ryce was helped to his feet as Father Audley gave the dead men the last rites and Hugh and Godwin went in search of the chieftain’s horses.

 

The bodies of Holt and Irwin were draped across their horses and then Godwin led them into the deep wood and the bodies were never seen again.

With the resistance to the new faith gone the following year work began on a new Church adjacent to the great hall.

There were mutterings from those close to Holt about what had become of him and his kinsman but they were silenced when rumours spread that the one true God must have smite them down. 

 

The Chapel fell into disuse after the new Church was built though Olwen would visit it from time to time but no one went there after she and Ryce had died.

And ten years into her son Hugh’s reign a war began with West Sexena and Hugh had to abandon the Great Hall and the Church which were then destroyed.

By the time West Sexena were defeated and driven out 20 years later by Olwen’s grandson Edric all memory of her Chapel had faded and was all but forgotten until early in Queen Victoria’s reign.


YOU ARE

 

You are the oasis in my desert

You are the sun in my sky

You are the cherry on my cake

You are the cream on my pie

You make us into we

Instead of you and I

SHE IS

 

She is embedded in my heart

I imagine her inside my head

I picture her in my life

Safely in my arms

Or sleeping in my bed

 

She is ingrained in my soul

I imagine us with a family

I picture our life together

Far off in the future

With cherished memories

 

She is woven through my fabric

She is at the very heart of me

I feel her hand in mine

And her kisses on my skin

Her scent is exotic and heady

 

Though she is in my every thought

And my dreams of her persist

I have to confess that

As much as I love her

She doesn’t know that I exist

TRESSPASSED

 

Other eyes have looked

Other hands have touched

The memories of my life

Intrinsic mementoes

Discarded like dross

The floor like a storm swept beach

Cables hang from

Invisible technology

What once was there now gone

Uncaring in their intrusion

Draws hang out precariously

Their contents strewn

My possessions lie in disarray

Everything of value gone

To feed a junkies habit

Or an idle mans greed

The insurance will pay

But when the money comes

I will still know they were here

And may come again

I will look at everyone with suspicious eyes

Can I live like that?


Tuesday, 13 July 2021

Those Memories Made on Teardrop Lake – (23) Loves Christmas Dreams

 

Karen Cooper thought of herself as a plump girl but in reality she was just a couple of dress sizes bigger than her older sisters.

In every other respect she was clearly a Cooper, the looks were unmistakable.

All the Cooper girls had Auburn hair and an abundance of freckle.

And each one of the sisters thought their siblings were much more attractive than they were, whereas in reality they were all very pretty.

Karen was a tall girl like Jane and facially she favoured Kath.

Although she wasn’t born by the lake she was only two when she moved to Coopers Villa and she had no memory of living anywhere else.

Karen also took the credit for being responsible for them being on the lake in the first place.

Because when she was a baby she contracted meningitis and had to be rushed to hospital, and it was her illness that brought about the reconciliation between her Dad, Paul, and Granddad Harry.

 

Apart from the Auburn hair and abundant freckles, another trait she shared with her sister was that they all possessed a propensity towards hard work, clearly inherited from their parents.

Whatever she wanted she would get because she was a hard worker, it had helped her through her education and it would help her in her chosen profession.

 

But there were limitation though even for a strong work ethic, for example hard work was not going to get her anywhere with Chris O’Neil.

She was convinced he didn’t even know she existed and she had been in love with Chris since she was 12 years old and she was now 18.

 

The Cooper girls may have been late comers to Teardrop Lake but the O’Neil boys were all Lakesider’s born and bred and whereas all the Cooper girls had Auburn hair and freckles all the O’Neil Boys had black hair and wild gypsy eyes.

 

Chris was 22 years old and worked as a paramedic.

He was the best looking of the O’Neil brothers and was as a result very popular with the girls, but the sort of girls who kept throwing themselves at him were not the type of girl he was looking for.

Like his elder brother Terry, what Chris was looking for was a girl he could settle down with, and a girl like that hadn’t yet thrown herself at his feet.

However Francis, the youngest of the O’Neil’s, who was 19 and was in his second year at University, studying English had other ideas.

Unlike his brothers he had no interest in a long term relationship, or settling down.

His plan was to get his degree and then travel the world with no burdens and no responsibilities to way him down.

 

Dakota Harris was 17 year old and she was the pretty girl of Teardrop Lake and she lived at Shoe Buckle House on the northwest side of the Lake, and she was a tall and slender girl with long dark hair.

She was on the outside at least ultra-confident and ultra-popular with the boys who she kept dancing on strings but they were only boys.

She was always immaculately turned out, painted, perfumed and powdered and ready to impress Mr Right.

But apparently he was never looking her way, whoever he might be.

But for all her big talk and bravado she was fast approaching 18 and hadn’t even been kissed.

Even her tomboy big sister was engaged to a gorgeous man, and an army Captain at that.

Because she was pretty and because she knew she was pretty, Dakota always talked big when it came to the opposite sex, and her friends bought into it.

But it was all bravado, if one of the men she flirted with actually came on to her she would have run a mile.

Outside she was sexy and confident but inside she was a shy and dowdy little mouse.

 

Karen Cooper’s hard work took the form of working multiple shifts waitressing at the Brown Windsor restaurant where her sister Jane was the Sous Chef.

But that was just in her spare time, the rest of the time she was serving an apprenticeship at the Purplemere Film Studios where she was training to be a makeup artist.

Peter Lutchford the renowned film director who also lived on the lake got her the position.

She also help her sister Jane with her home dining engagements as well as doing makeovers to the inhabitants.

That was how she first got to know Dakota Harris and they soon became good friends because of it and Dak let Karen practice her make up skills on her.

Dakota was convinced she was never going to be kissed and especially not before she reached her 18th birthday.

She could quite easily get a kiss in time if she acted like a tart but she wasn’t a tart and she wanted her first kiss to be romantic, not desperate.

Meanwhile Karen was still dreaming of a romantic affair with her prince charming Chris Cooper but was resigned to the fact it would never happen.

 

On the Saturday before Christmas Karen had a rare night off and was around at Dakota’s house,

Dak’s parents were out to dinner and her older sister, India, was meeting her friend Penny at the airport.

So they had the house to themselves and Karen out did herself with Dakota’s makeover.

“Wow” she said “I look really hot”

“Not bad eh?” Karen said admiring her handiwork

“I look about 20” Dak said “Don’t you think?”

“21 maybe” Karen added

“Let’s go to the pub then” she suggested

Karen thought about it for a moment and said

“I don’t know” she said “I look rubbish”

“You can borrow something of Indie’s and I’ll do your make up” Dakota said

Karen reluctantly agreed so half an hour later they were laughing and joking and on their way to The Woodcutters Arms in Shallowfield.

 

At the same time Dakota was doing Karen’s makeup Chris and his brother Fran were just leaving Lakeside Villa bound for the same destination.

It was Chris’s first weekend off for a month and Francis had only got home from University that day.

The pair of them hadn’t been out for a beer together for almost a year so they thought a few jars at the pub might just fit the bill.

There were three pubs at the Teardrop Lake end of Shallowfield, The Woodman’s Axe, The Woodcutters Arms and The Foresters.

Ant the names clearly reflected Shallowfield’s dependence on forestry over the centuries, the pubs at the other end of town had more of an agricultural flavour in their naming, The Wheatsheaf, the Plough and the Farmers Tavern.

But all of those were too far to walk to so they decided very definitely to restrict their choices to the forest end.

Chris had drunk in all three at one time or another so he didn’t really have a preference and Fran didn’t care which one they went to as long as Chris was paying so they went to the closest the Woodcutters.

Dakota hadn’t been to the pub before and although she looked old enough to be in there after the makeover she had no ID so Dak went and found a table and Karen bought the drinks.

 

The girls were sat at a corner table facing back towards the bar.

“Look who’s just come in” Dakota said and Karen looked up and saw the O’Neil brothers standing at the bar.

As soon as she saw them Karen got all flustered and her cheeks flushed.

“What’s wrong with you?” Dakota asked

“Nothing” she said trying to look anywhere but at the bar.

“You fancy one of them don’t you?” Dakota probed “Which one?”

“Chris” she reluctantly replied

“How long have you fancied him?” Dak quizzed

“Since I was 12” she replied

“Why didn’t you tell me?” she asked

“Because nothing will ever come of it” Karen said definitively and took a drink then she glanced at the bar just as Chris looked across at them and smiled

“He’s looking over here” Dakota whispered

They both smiled back at him and then Karen said

“Well he’s not looking at me is he?”

“Well he’s too old for me” she said “I like Fran”

 

Karen spent the next 20 minutes sneaking glances at Chris as he laughed and joked with his brother, every now and then he would throw a glance at her and she would look away.

There were a number of girls who approached them but whatever they were after they left without it.

Dakota suddenly got up and announced she was going to the loo and almost as soon as she left there was movement at the bar at Chris started walking towards her.

“Hi Karen” he said

“Hello” she replied “Dakota’s gone to the loo”

“I know I saw her go” he said “it was you I wanted to talk to”

“Me?” she said incredulously

“Yes you” he replied

“Why?” she asked

“Blimey you don’t make it easy for a bloke” he said

“I don’t understand” she said

“I wanted to ask you something while Dakota was in the ladies” he explained

“Oh I see” Karen said with a sigh “you want her phone number I suppose”

“No” Chris replied with surprise “Why would I want her number?”

“Sorry”

“I wanted to ask you out” he explained

“Me?” she said incredulously

“Oh no not again, yes you” he replied

“I’ve been wanting to ask you out for ages but you’re always working somewhere or other and I never get a look in”

“Seriously?” she asked 

“Yes” he replied “So?”

“Yes” she said

“Now was that a question or an answer?”

“Definitely an answer” she said and grinned like a Cheshire cat.

“Good” he said “now can I get you a drink?”

Chris walked to the bar just as Dakota returned from the toilet and Fran joined his brother at the bar.

When he first walked to the bar and saw Karen sitting at the corner table he congratulated himself on his choice of venue and hoped Christmas had arrived early and seemed he was not to be disappointed.

 

“Well?” Dakota asked when she returned to the table.

“Well what?” she replied

“Did he ask you?” Dakota asked

“Yes” she said excitedly and they hugged

“But how did you know?”

“Fran told me” she replied

“But how did he know?”

“Chris told him?” Dakota said

“Oh”

“Anyway Fran told me” she said “and then he kissed me”

“Where?” asked Karen, wide eyed with curiosity

“On the lips stupid”

“No I mean, Where?” she explained “Where were you when he kissed you”

“Oh outside” Dakota clarified

“What were you doing outside?” Karen asked “Apart from being kissed”

“Well I went to the loo” Dakota explained “and when I came out Fran was there waiting for me and he told me no to go back to the table because Chris was asking you out”

She paused for breath

“Which was taking forever by the way, and we were blocking the door so he suggested we went outside and that was when he kissed me, in the moonlight, it was very romantic”

“Wow” Karen responded “And did he ask you out as well?

“Yes” she said excitedly and they hugged again

“Who’d of thought it, I have a date with an O’Neil”

Karen said

“Me too” Dakota squealed just as the boys and the drinks arrived.

 

As they reached the Shallowfield Lodge Hotel on the way home from the pub they split up.

Fran took the left fork so he could walk Dakota home and romantically kiss her in the moonlight once more.

Chris and Karen took the right fork and walked slowly hand in hand in the moonlight, they were in no rush to get home.

“Fancy that, Chubby Karen is walking hand in hand with Chris O’Neil” she said inside her head

While Chris was thinking to himself how lucky he was.

 

“Was that romantic enough for you?” Fran asked moments after his lips left hers

“It was acceptable” she said

“Perhaps I should have another go” he suggested

“Definitely worth a try” Dakota said obligingly

 

Francis O’Neil felt ten feet tall as he headed for home despite the fact that the evening had not gone as planned.

It was just supposed to be a few pints with his brother Romantic kissing was certainly not part of his plan at all but as soon as he saw Dakota Harris sitting in the bar trying to look all grown up, he was smitten.

Hook, line and sinker, smitten.

And this from the man who had no interest in a long term relationship.

His plan to get his degree and travel the world with no burdens and no responsibilities to weight him down was in tatters.

But then maybe he could take her around the world with him, she wouldn’t be too burdensome.

 

Chris and Karen still hadn’t reached either of the Villa’s by the time Fran came running along the road

“Don’t mind me” he shouted as he sprinted past.

 

When they got to the top of the path that led down to her house they came to a halt and he turned to face her and he kissed her soft lips, in a long and sensual kiss.

“I’ve been waiting a long time to do that” Karen said

“Me too” he concurred

“How long?” she asked

“A couple of years, almost three to be precise” he confessed

“I was 12” she admitted “when I first noticed you like that”

“Was it worth the wait?” he asked

“It was for me” she said

And then he kissed her again which she took to mean “me too”