Put you trust in me my love
I will never let you down
my dear
My darling, dry your tears
My angel set aside
your fears
Our life together will
be sublime
Sweethearts till the
end of time
Put you trust in me my love
I will never let you down
my dear
My darling, dry your tears
My angel set aside
your fears
Our life together will
be sublime
Sweethearts till the
end of time
Katie Edwards was the
daughter of the Vicar of St Hilda’s in Forestdean and Mark Holt was the village
“Jack the Lad” and apart from them both being 28 years old, they had nothing in
common whatsoever.
Katie was a good
Christian girl, whose life revolved around her widowed fathers Church and the
associated parochial duties, Mark on the other hand was an agnostic, albeit a
church going agnostic, but above all he was an unashamed hedonist.
Katie was steady, diligent,
and chaste and was an innocent but Mark had no morals whatsoever but to his
mind that was more than compensated for by a belt full of female scalps.
However all of that
however seemed set to change when Mark was walking through the village one rainy
morning.
“Hi Katie” he said
Katie Edwards was a very
attractive young woman by any measure, with a warm open manner, a willowy
figure, and shoulder length brunette hair, intelligent green laughing eyes and
a broad toothy smile and altogether a very pleasant demeanour.
“Hello Mark” she
replied “What’s brought you out into the rain”
Mark was tall, dark
and muscular with wild gypsy eyes.
“I’m avoiding mum,” he
said trying to keep a straight face, Katie gave an understanding nod
“And you?”
“The Miss Devonshire’s”
she replied “it’s their turn to do the flowers” and she bowed her head with
shame.
“I think we need to be
fortified,” he said
“The Royal Oak?” she
suggested
“I thought you were
barred for calling the landlord a godless heathen,” he queried
“A simple
misunderstanding” she assured him “I’ve forgiven him”
Due to the inclement
weather the pub was almost deserted so they sat and unloaded their burdens on
each other.
Mark detailed the
haranguing his mother gave him for getting home at 3 am in a state of
inebriation and she talked about how the Miss Devonshire’s were making her life
a misery.
To make her feel
better Mark revealed some rather unsavory gossip about her protagonists which
made Katie feel much better as did the Guinness.
The alcohol also aided
Katie to reveal more and more about herself and the more she drank the more she
rambled.
The Guinness helped
her speak a lot about time and sand running through her fingers and choices and
not knowing.
He couldn’t really
follow her train of thought all the time, the drink wasn’t helping and as
neither of them had eaten since breakfast the beer took its toll very quickly
and two hours later they were fortified as newts and he had to steer her
through the pouring rain to the vicarage, and thankfully the rain was falling
so hard that no one noticed their drunken progression.
Once he reached the
front door he had to wedge her against the wall while he opened the door,
unfortunately as the door swung open she fell into the hall.
Mark instinctively
reached out and grabbed her in an effort to prevent her from hurting herself.
Unfortunately in
trying to avoid grabbing anything intimate he only succeeded in falling to the
floor before she did.
As a result Mark
landed on his back and she landed on top of him.
“You know Mark if I
wasn’t the Vicar’s daughter I’d shag you” she slurred before planting an almost
Labrador like kiss on his mouth.
“And if I wasn’t a
gentleman” he said after extricating himself from her embrace “I’d let you”
And then he struggled
to his feet and helped Katie to do the same but as soon as she was vertical she
said
“But you’re not a
gentleman so there’s nothing stopping you”
And launched another
assault on him and even put his hand on her breast before Mark regained control
and steered her through the hall and into the sitting room and plopped her into
an armchair and she immediately grabbed him by the lapels and planted another
kiss on his mouth, a much more controlled and unhurried kiss than before.
He wondered as he was
starting to reciprocate if she thought that having sex with a philanderer like
him was sin free, making him like a vegetable in a slimmer’s diet plan, and
then he broke away from her embrace again.
“But you are the
Vicar’s daughter” he replied and kissed her on the forehead
“And you’re drunk” he
added
“What’s that got to do
with it?” she slurred
“Everything, because
you wouldn’t want to shag me if you were sober”
“Oh yes I would” she
said after he left.
On the short walk home
Mark had mixed feelings, he felt rather proud of himself, after all Katie had
offered it to him on a plate and he had turned it down, and not because he
didn’t fancy her, on the contrary, and he also reflected on the wonderful kiss
and how much he enjoyed it.
Katie ticked a lot of
boxes for him and he was not possessed of any high moral principles, so why
didn’t he take advantage of her was a mystery.
He didn’t have the
foggiest idea why he didn’t accept her invitation to canoodle, it certainly
wasn’t a lack of attraction on his part or even being put what she was wearing,
he liked uniforms and outfits, and vestments certainly didn’t put him off.
Nor did he think it
was because she was the Vicars daughter after all he had made many immoral choices
in the pursuit of sexual gratification, so he was left with only one possible
conclusion.
However having come to
that conclusion he immediately dismissed it, it was the obvious conclusion but
it had never happened before, so he wasn’t sure how to proceed in the new
territory.
It was a strange
feeling that he was experiencing which had hit him right out of the blue.
But strange though it
was it was impossible to ignore because the genie was very much out of the
bottle and there was no putting it back.
Mark never imagined in
his wildest dreams when he escaped his mother’s scathing tongue that morning
that bumping into Katie Edwards would turn his entire world upside down.
“Thank you the Miss
Devonshire’s” he said aloud “Thank you for taking your turn to do the flowers”
But after his
revelation he didn’t know where to go from that point.
And more importantly
he didn’t know if she would still be receptive to him without the aid of
several pints of Guinness.
It was an interesting
position for him to find himself in, caring whether or not a girl would come to
her senses in the cold and sober light of day.
So when Katie knocked on
his front door he knew it was a game changer.
“Hi” he said
“Hey Mark, I’m sober”
“So I can see, come
in” he said “But I’m still not going to shag you”
“Really?” she said as
she followed him inside
“Really” he confirmed
“But why?” she asked
“it’s what you do isn’t it?”
“And that’s why I’m
not doing it to you” he said
“I don’t understand”
she said and sat down heavily on the sofa
“You’re better than
that” he said “you deserve better than that and I’m not going to let you settle
for less than you deserve”
“What does that mean?”
she asked
“It means we are going
on a date”
“A date?” Katie asked
“Yes, a date” he
replied “and after we have dated for a while we can talk about the other stuff”
“Oh” she responded and
then he kissed her
Just let me gaze into your eyes
His words did not
disguise
His unsubtle advances
Of flirtatious talk
and furtive glances
But I fell victim to his
charms
And he held me in his
arms
But I held him in mine
as well
And then had him under
my spell
As I gazed into his
eyes
I had the lothario hypnotized
It was late when Alan Nelson travelled the short distance from
Finchbottom to his home in Lower Gracewood.
It was the final leg of a journey that had begun 11 hours earlier with
a taxi ride to Tegel airport from the Berlin Hilton.
Thus followed a 2 hour delay at the airport, a 2 hour flight, two trains
and another taxi from Finchbottom Station.
So when his house came into view through the windscreen of the cab, it
was greeted with a feeling of relief, he had been away for 5 days and he was so
pleased to be back home.
Alan paid the cab driver and carried his case to the house, there was
a light on in the hall but it was late and the rest of the house was in
darkness, so he let himself in.
He dropped his bag quietly in the hall, and opened the lounge door and
when he walked into the room he saw her, and his heart soared.
She was wearing her favourite fleecy pink dressing gown and was curled
up in his favourite arm chair with her little feet tucked beneath her.
Celia was hugging a cushion, almost as big as she was and her tiny
delicate frame was almost lost in the overstuffed chair and instantly an
unabated wave of love washed over him and he immediately wanted her.
He had missed her so much while he was away, but there she was, a
scrawny little thing barely a hundred pounds soaking wet but in his opinion
worth her weight in gold.
Alan had seen her that way many times, sleeping cuddled up in his chair but he
loved her totally, with every fibre of his being, even after ten wonderful
years of marriage.
And furthermore she still excited him and making love to her was electric, from
the first time to the last it was like being plugged into the national grid.
The first time he saw her he thought she was the sexiest girl he’d ever seen
and he thought so still.
He stood over Celia and stared affectionately down at her for the
longest time, as she slept so soundly.
He didn’t really want to wake her, he should have let her sleep, but if he had
she would not have thanked him, in fact she would have been very miffed.
So he knelt beside her and roused her gently and as she stirred from her
slumber her eyes slowly opened and then widened
“Hello Baby” he said and when she saw him she smiled him her come to
bed smile.
“I waited up for you”
“You didn’t have to” he said
“I did”
“Why?”
“Because I’m feeling fruity” she replied
“Are you?” he asked and kissed her
“Hmmm” she responded “I’ve missed you”
“I missed you too” he replied and with his sexy girl roused and
aroused he took her in his arms and carried her to bed.
I want you every day
In each and everyway
With every breath I
take
I want to inhale you
I want to consume you
I want to undress you
Slow and controlled
I want to peel you
Like a piece of fruit
Whose consumption
Is to be anticipated
Each layer more
revealing
Exposing the sumptuous
flesh
Ripe in its perfection
A sight to be savoured
A delight to be
relished
I want to touch you
Feel the warmth of you
flesh
Sense it tremble
beneath my fingers
Feel the beating of
your heart
Beneath your perfect
skin
Listen to your breath
sounds
Altering with each
touch
I want to caress the
shape of you
Touch the heat of your
passion
Feel your moistness
I want you every day
In each and everyway
With every breath I
take
But to you I don’t
exist
Paige Rawlins had
worked in the same bookshop in Finchbottom for twenty years, but it wasn’t one
of those trendy and clinical impersonal places that seemed to spring up
everywhere during the eighties, O’Brien’s was a proper old fashioned book shop,
full of tall wooden book cases crammed with dusty well-loved second hand
books.
Paige had started
working at the book shop straight from school and now it was hers lock, stock
and barrel.
It wasn’t her chosen
path, what she actually wanted was college and University and to write books of
her own.
But on the eve of her
bright future, as quite often happens, life got in the way of her well laid plans.
Firstly her father was
killed aboard the RFA Sir Galahad during the Falklands War when she was only 15
and then on the day of her 16th birthday her mother was diagnosed with
pancreatic cancer.
In the beginning Paige
just worked part time at the shop, in between grieving for her dead father and
caring for her terminally ill mum at home in Finchbottom while also limping her
way through two years of college.
She had no siblings to
share the burden and no cousins or aunts, uncles, grandparents or even a boyfriend
to turn to for support, she was completely and utterly alone and had to cope
with the whole painful mess all on her own.
In 1984 when she
finished college she watched all her friends excitedly planning for the future
and then one by one they went off to University and that drew a line firmly
under those friendships and she took the only course that was left open to her
and she went to work full time at O’Brien’s.
Her mum subsequently
underwent surgery to remove the tumor followed by a course of radiation, but it
came back, so she had rounds of Chemotherapy together with radiation which kept
it at bay but the treatment was almost as bad as the disease.
Each passing year, full
of days spent in the shop and evenings and weekends at home caring for her
dying mother, drained the very life from her.
Eventually her mum’s
cancer metastasized, and she was told the average life expectancy after a
diagnosis with metastatic disease was just three to six months, her mum lasted
two years, and by the time her mum finally succumbed Paige was as dry as the
pages of the books she tended.
After the funeral, in
order to fill the void in her life, Paige gave herself totally to the shop, she
became its life blood, which was why five years later on her death, Maureen
O’Brien left the shop to Paige shop, stock and vellum, which she decided to
rename Paige Turner’s.
Year by year her life
consisted of the shop, book auctions and house clearances, book fairs and car
boot sales and other than that she had no human interactions outside the book
trade at all which was why as a result, at the age of thirty six Paige was a
cold grey dowdy frump.
However she was not
for all that, an unattractive woman, the blue eyes behind the spectacles were
striking and the trim figure beneath the tweed suit were more than agreeable,
if anyone chose to look that closely, but they didn’t, and were she to have
worn her brunette hair down instead of scrapped back they would have looked
harder.
When she first took
over the running of it, the shop was struggling to stay afloat, in a sea of
apathy in which the world had seemingly fallen out of love with quality
literature and it took all of Paige’s wit and guile to make the shop pay.
Generally she was
quite old fashioned in her outlook but she did make one concession to the
modern world and the modern publication by giving over one window and a whole
corner of the shop to new titles.
She figured that if
she could lure the magpies into the shop with the bait of shiny new books she
could actually get them hooked on the old classics.
Also, over the years
she developed the internet side of the business, which Maureen had dismissed as
a fad, but Paige rather liked it as trading that way she didn’t have to deal
face to face with human beings.
It wasn’t so much that
she wasn’t a people person it was just that happy smiling people were a
constant reminder of what life might have been for her had things been
different.
It was on a rainy
Friday afternoon in May when, Harry Edwards, a rather tall gaunt looking
middle-aged man in an ill-fitting rain coat entered Paige Turner’s and stood dripping
on the doormat.
The raincoat was ill
fitting because he had to borrow it from a colleague when he realized it was
raining so hard.
He stood on the mat
for about a minute with the rain dripping off him before venturing further.
He was immediately struck
by the fact that, although it was 2003 the overall ambiance of the place felt
much, much older.
When he moved he took
no more than three steps and then stopped again as he looked around at the rows
of shelves full of old musty old tomes and sighed with resignation at the
enormity of the task ahead of him.
“Oh hell” he muttered
“Can I help?” Paige
said flatly accompanied by a weak smile
“I do hope so” Harry
replied brightly
“I’m looking for a
leather bound copy of “The Coral Island” by R M. Ballantyne”
“We have several
copies of that” She said “Did you have any particular date of publication in
mind?”
“Anything from the 19th
century” He replied
“I have a nice clean
late Victorian copy that might suit” Paige said and went off to retrieve it.
“Here we are 1890, red
leather binding, very good condition”
“Excellent” he said
handling the book “How much?”
“£150” She said
without emotion.
He thought she was
probably overcharging him but he didn’t care, it was exactly what he was
looking for and it was well within his means.
And it was his Uncle’s
birthday the very next day and given the inclement weather he didn’t really
fancy going in search of another bookshop.
Also there was
something about her that he liked behind the mannish spectacles and frumpy
tweeds, he wasn’t sure what it was but he thought there was more to her than
the dust jacket suggested.
“Great I’ll take it”
he said
Harry Edwards had
lived and worked in Finchbottom all of his life and after getting his Law
degree he started working at his Uncle Henrys firm of solicitors, where he was
now a partner.
It was fairly
unexciting work, involving quite a lot of conveyancing, wills and minor
boundary disputes but he liked it well enough.
Incidentally
Barrowman, Clarke, Braithwaite and Edwards were the executors of Maureen
O’Brien’s will and although that has no relevance to the story it does add a certain
symmetry to it.
Harry was forty five
years old and had himself suffered tragedy in his life, his father died
suddenly when he was at University, his mother was struck with early onset
Alzheimer’s and was now in a care home and the previous year he had lost his
wife Celia to breast cancer, but unlike Paige he didn’t lock himself away from
the world, but then he did have a network of family and friends to draw comfort
from.
On the Monday morning
after a big family weekend to celebrate Uncle Henrys seventieth birthday Harry
was feeling a little jaded and in truth was almost relieved to get back to work
for a rest.
By lunchtime however
he was feeling a little more human so as it was a bright warm spring day and as
his office was only a ten minute walk from Paige Turner’s, the notion popped
into his head to call in and tell the proprietor how delighted his uncle had
been with his gift.
He wasn’t quite sure
why the notion entered his head nor where it came from but he still thought it
a good idea.
The shop door opened
and sunlight spilled deep into the shop, Paige was at the back cataloguing some
new acquisitions while Karen and Iris, students from Finchbottom College, were
putting the new stock on the appropriate shelves.
She had to rely
heavily on students to staff the shop as there was only her and Graham in the shop
on a permanent basis.
She had inherited
Graham from Maureen’s time but now he was slowly cutting down his hours as he
headed towards retirement.
While she was
cataloguing, Graham was out the back packing some books for delivery.
She looked up from what
she was doing and briefly studied the new arrival.
Paige recognized the
man instantly as the man who paid over the odds for a copy of “The Coral
Island”
The ill-fitting
(borrowed) raincoat of Friday had gone and he was now sporting a well-tailored
double breasted blue suit.
She had thought about
him a lot over the weekend and had felt more than a little guilty at fleecing
the dripping wet untidy looking man, but now she saw him in his handmade suit
that guilt soon melted away.
“He’s quite a handsome
man though” she thought to herself, shaking her head at such an unaccustomed
thought.
He walked further into
the shop and was surprised at just how big it was, it had seemed much smaller
in the gloom of Friday afternoon but on that day with the sun streaming through
the windows it looked huge.
He could see there
were three or four other customers milling around and a couple of young girls
stacking shelves and then he caught sight of the young frumpy woman at the back
of the shop so he strode off in her direction.
“Oh God he’s coming
this way” she thought to herself. “He’s going to complain about the book, he’s
probably checked on line and knows I over charged him”
She hurriedly replaced
the book she was holding and tried to slip away but she had inadvertently
trapped her foot and as she tried to extricate herself he was on her.
“Hello again” he said
“Oh hello” she said
abandoning her escape attempt.
“I just wanted to say
that my Uncle loved the book” he said
“Well that’s what we
do” she responded flippantly and then inexplicably giggled
“In fact he was so
impressed with it, he has a request” Harry said fishing in his jacket pocket
and removing a piece of note paper which he handed to Paige.
“My Uncle collects
book from his past, they are like special memories to him”
On the paper was
written The Pathfinder by James Fennimore Cooper. (Third book of the Leatherstocking
Tales pentalogy)
“That shouldn’t be too
much of a problem” she said “I know we don’t have one in stock but if you come
back tomorrow I should have it”
“Excellent” Harry
replied “I’ll see you tomorrow then”
“What name should I
reserve it under?” Paige asked
“Harry Edwards” he replied
“Miss…?”
“Rawlins” she replied
“Paige Rawlins”
After he left the shop
she chastised herself for lying, she knew very well that she had a copy of “The
Pathfinder”, and it would definitely have suited.
Why on earth had she
lied,
“What on earth has gotten
into you” she said to herself
As Harry walked back
to the office he had an unaccountable spring in his step and he was actually
glad she didn’t have that book in stock as it meant he didn’t have to make an
excuse to go back the next day.
On Tuesday he found
the morning passed by interminably slowly in fact at one point he thought the
clock had stopped.
But despite that, eventually
the morning passed and the moment the clock struck twelve he was out the door.
“I’m taking an early
lunch” he said
“Ok Mr. Edwards” his
PA said
He walked briskly
along the street towards Paige Turner’s and was surprised by the presence of
butterflies in his stomach.
“How ridiculous” he
muttered to himself
Paige had been kept
very busy all morning as she was alone in the shop on a Tuesday but she was
well aware that lunchtime was approaching.
She had her back to
the door and when she heard it open she took a deep breath and turned around with
a smile.
“What are you looking
so pleased about?” Graham asked
“Oh no reason” Paige
replied “it’s just such a lovely day”
“You don’t normally
smile when the sun shine’s” Graham said “come to think of it you don’t normally
smile”
“I smile” Paige said defensively
“Not often” he
answered as he went to the back of the shop
“I do smile” she said
to herself crossly as she turned and watched him.
“I know” Harry said
Paige was speechless
when she turned around and saw Harry standing there and for a moment felt like
she was fifteen again.
Before she stuttered
and stammered her way through a sentence.
Harry laughed at her
discomfiture before saying
“I’m sorry if I
startled you”
“No its fine, really”
she said
Harry left the shop half
an hour later minus the book that he’d gone in for but he didn’t care, he was
just pleased to have seen her again.
It was the first time
since his wife’s death that he had even noticed another woman and as he enjoyed
the spring sunshine he was blissfully unaware just how significant that
was.
Paige had told him the
book wouldn’t be in until the next day and didn’t even feel guilty for lying to
him this time as it meant she would see him again.
Then she realized
she’d have to give him the book eventually or he’d stop coming anyway.
For Harry the rest of
the afternoon was spent very unproductively as he tried to reason in his mind
why he was so drawn to a dowdy young bookworm.
“Well younger than me
anyway” he said out loud
She wasn’t even his
type at all and she had cheated him on that copy of “The Coral Island”.
The next day Harry
couldn’t make it to the shop as he was at the magistrate’s courts in the
morning and had two funerals in the afternoon.
Paige however was
unaware of the reason for his failure to appear and thought herself a fool and
chastised herself for lowering her guard, she didn’t smile at all that day.
On Thursday morning
Harry left his office about 10 o’clock and ran through the rain in his borrowed
ill-fitting raincoat to the shop.
He had not mentioned
his movements the last time he was in the shop and had no reason to think his
absence would be noticed.
But strangely it meant
something to him that he had missed seeing her.
At Paige Turner’s,
Karen, Iris and Graham were bemoaning the return of the unsmiling Paige who had
awoken that morning with fresh resolve to return her life back to its previous
unadventurous course and not allow herself to be disappointed again.
Having reached the shop
Harry just stood outside and stared at the rain streaked windows wondering what
the hell he was thinking.
Why would this young
woman see him as anything more than just another customer?
“You’re being
ridiculous” he said to himself and turned around and started back towards work.
But he only took a few
paces before he stopped and returned to the shop.
He stood again looking
at the shop and taking a deep breath he said
“Nothing ventured
nothing gained” and pushed open the door
Paige was feeling
wretched and made everyone’s morning miserable.
She had placed the
copy of “The Pathfinder” by the till and resolved that should he come in again
she would give him the book and that would be an end to it, after all he was
just another customer.
Paige sighed and
headed towards the back of the shop, Karen and Iris kept their heads down as
she passed them and when Graham appeared from the store room and saw her coming
his way he performed an immediate U-turn, then she heard the door open behind
her and she sighed again and prepared to deliver a withering look upon the
person responsible for the intrusion.
“Harry” she said when
she saw him and instantly her sternness melted away “er Mr. Edwards I mean”
“No please Harry is
fine” he replied and returned her smile
“I have your book”
Paige said producing it like an exhibit in a court case.
“Oh great” he said
“I’m only sorry I couldn’t come in for it yesterday Miss Rawlins”
“Please call me
Paige,” she said coyly
He then went on to
explain in depth all the ins and outs of his previous day and why he hadn’t
come to the shop.
Which was all done in
the inner sanctum of her office over a mug of coffee.
“She’s never had a
guest in her office before” Iris whispered as she and Karen listened through
the door.
“And she’s laughing”
Karen said in disbelief
An hour after he
arrived he left the shop and walked back towards his office with the book tucked
under his arm and more importantly than that, a date with Paige for the
following evening.
So it was on a bright
Friday evening in May, just one short week after his first rain soaked visit to
the antiquated bookshop that was Paige Turner’s.
When inside the
bookshop he had found the dusty tome that was Paige Rawlins, just like any
other dusty tome amidst many others on the shelf
But she had been
rebound and the dowdy bookish young woman was transformed.
Harry took her hand
and led her from the shop and she stepped out from the narrow confines of her
stale and musty domain and rejoined the world of infinite possibilities with
her heart full of hope and not a little trepidation.
Thanks to Harry it was
now her turn to live life rather than to read about other peoples.
My skin yearns
For your gentle touch
That silken caress
Of velvet joy
My body yearns
For the warmth
Of your tender embrace
Enveloping me
My heart pleads
For you presence
To be replenished
To be refilled
My lips beg
To be softly kissed
By petal pink mouth
Of honey sweetness
My essence craves
That other entity
Which makes me whole
My soul mate