Wednesday, 5 May 2021

I WANT, I NEED

 

I want, I need, a woman to look at me

Just a glance

The way Sha’uri looked at Jackson

In “Stargate”

A look of passion

Of want and desire

Telling me all

In that one look

 

I want, I need, a woman to smile at me

Her face to light up

The way Donna Reed smiled at Jimmy Stewart

In “it’s a wonderful life”

A smile of passion

Of want and desire

Telling me all

In that one smile

 

I want, I need, a woman to love me

Come what may

The way Greer Garson loved Coleman

In “Random Harvest”

A deep enduring love

Wanting and desiring

Answering all my doubts

In that all-consuming love

 

I want, I need, to be in love with a woman

But no ordinary love

Special like Bogey and Bacall

Tracy and Hepburn in life and on screen

I want to see my love

Reflected back in her face

Reflecting want and desire

Telling all

In that requited love

THE DAWN PASSING

Sun light pierced the darkness

Through unmet curtains

Spilling gentle early morning sun

On her quiet restful countenance

Facing the dawn

She lay on her side

Her hand supporting her pail cheek

She was at peace

Her three-score year and ten served

Age and weariness had left her

And the pain, which hardens our features, was no more

As I held her cold hand

I remembered her warmth

And my mind was at once filled

With a lifetime’s memories

Good memories

Warm and rich beyond price

Memories So vivid they might have been yesterday

My lips quivered

And my eyes filled with the sting of tears

Happy for the memories

But so sad for the loss

Then Suddenly The peace was broken

With the doctor’s heavy footfall on the stairs

So, I kissed her gentle hand

And said my last goodbye to mum. 

EVERYTHING BUT A POSSESSION TO ME

 

My partner and lover

My significant other

My best friend and gal 

My confidante and pal

The love of my life

Happily, you’re my wife

Tuesday, 4 May 2021

Snippets of Downshire Life – Infidelity Hurts – The Ultimatum

 

The Dulcets were a collection of villages and hamlets comprising of Dulcet Meadow, Dulcet St Mary, Dulcet Green and Dulcet-on-Brooke, to name but a few, and of course Dulcet-on-Willow which was a large sprawling village beside the gentle shallow River Willow, which ran unhurriedly from the Pepperstock Hills to the more vibrant River Brooke.

It was in Willow where Gary Smith lived, and he was one of that group of men, who relationship wise, punched above his weight, in the form of Karen Filey, who was five feet eight, short bobbed brown hair, seductive hazel eyes and a stunning figure suitably proportioned and all underpinned, by the most amazing legs, who was five years his junior to boot.

Over their relatively short time together, lust soon turned to love and that led inevitably to an engagement.

But there was a fly in the ointment and that was that he was unfaithful, very unfaithful, he just couldn’t get enough, and he did any woman he could get his hands of any age, and anywhere, even though he had a real hottie on tap, who was as good as she looked, and who had a voracious sexual appetite for him, but still he strayed.

But things came to a head one day when they were cuddled up on the sofa, and Karen suddenly said

“Do you remember when we started dating and I said that I didn’t mind if you were unfaithful to me as long as you loved only me?”

“Yes” he said cautiously “but…”

“And I know you’re not faithful so don’t bother trying to deny it” she said sternly, and he was about to speak, but she stopped him

“I don’t know who, though I have my suspicions”, she said flatly

“And I don’t think I want to know but I know you’re sleeping with other women” she paused

“And as I said last time I don’t mind”

She paused again

“For now, but there will come a time in the not too distant future when I will”

“I love you and I’m certain sure of that, and I know that you say you love me but I’m not so sure of that”

“But I do love you” he said taking her hand

“But you don’t love me as completely as I love you” she retorted taking her hand away “you are enough for me, but clearly I’m not enough for you”

Gary tried to speak again but again she stopped him, so he got up and paced the room

“So, you have until December to sow your wild oats or to curb your appetites or whatever it is you do”

“But by my 21st birthday I need to feel your commitment” she said and again he tried to speak

“And no that’s not a euphemism” she said without humour “you need to want me and me alone, and that’s all I have to say”

Gary was now cleared to speak but he didn’t know what to say, he wanted to say don’t be silly you’re the only one for me, but he knew that he was a dog.

Gary knew that he was getting plenty, and he was liking that, but if he wanted to keep the girl he loved, it was obvious he would have to change.

“Is that why you don’t use the door key?” he asked as Karen was on her knees removing a DVD from the machine and he perched on the arm of the sofa just watching her, almost in a daze.

“Yes” she replied without turning around

“Because…” she began but couldn’t finish

“You don’t want to catch me with another woman” Gary said finishing her sentence while she carried on what she was doing slowly and deliberately.

Gary was a little shocked, firstly because it never occurred to him for a moment that he couldn’t have his cake and eat it, and secondly although he knew he loved Karen more than he had ever loved anyone he didn’t realise quite how much that was until that moment when he realised he could lose her.

The prospect of losing her stunned him and he knew he had to make changes in his life.

 

Karen finished putting the DVD in its box and switched off the TV

“Don’t look so glum” she said as she stood up, having finished what she was doing

“I’m not giving up on you yet, we’ve dealt with the serious stuff, now we get to do the fun bit”

She took hold of his hand and led him into the bedroom.

 

Over the following six months he tried to reform but it soon became obvious to him that he was incapable of keeping it in his pants and the inevitability of Karen losing patience with him and dumping him was so overwhelming that he began to think that the best course of action as for him to break up with her, thus saving both of them pain in the long run.

Which was what he did, quoting his abject failure to fulfil her ultimatum.

 

Seven years later and Gary was married to a woman he didn’t love because of a child they made together in a sweaty loveless coupling in a bus shelter in Appleby.

It was inevitable that his inability to control his urges would land him in trouble one day.

Karen was also married, in her case to a man, fifteen years her senior, whom she also didn’t love.

She had found it hard after she split up with Gary to commit totally to another man because he broke her heart and ended up marrying Eric for security.

However, they did both have a love interest in their lives, namely each other, and they met up wherever and whenever they could and were never happier than when they were together.

FROM THE SHADOWS

 

I stood in the shadows

As I had often done before

Out of sight, to see yet be unseen

To look upon that vision of loveliness

She talks with friends in the gardens

Unaware of me

Her skirt was long and green

From high waste to ankle low

Her crisp blouse of white

Enhanced to elegance of her neck

The long sleeves encasing her slender arms

Covered her fine boned wrists

Her hair was red

Red like burnished copper

Thick and full bodied tied back at her nape

Her eyes were the hue of polished emeralds

In a setting of perfect pale skin

No jeweller could ever hope to equal

Her mouth pale lipped, strong yet sensitive

When transformed into a smile

Illuminated her countenance

As if a light had been switched on

Perusal of every inch of her delicate frame

Returned echoes of a cultured creature

Dressed in the finest Edwardian elegance

More than a class above me

I step from the shadows

Returning unseen to my duties

NEW LOVE

A New love, young love,

Fresh and in bud,

Exciting, Heart racingly so,

Though uncertain, exciting still

A Breathless love Full of longing

Eagerness to be together

Reluctance to part

 

Hand touching hand, Pulse raising

Heart full of love, Head full of doubt

“Do they feel as I?” “Am I just a fool?”

Will our love last?

Will it blossom and grow

Will it bear fruit?

Or wither on the vine 

WHEN DID THE LOVE DIE

When did the love die?

At what moment did it turn

It was that, once too often,

Hint of ardours odour upon her

The smell of another man

On her clothes, her skin, her hair,

That made him snap

Making him lose control

And strike her down

Snuffing out the life

Of his unfaithful wife