Those eyes, those eyes
Of saucer size
Those eyes, those eyes
That hypnotize
Those eyes, those eyes
So worldly wise
Those eyes, those eyes
That bring me sighs
Those eyes, those eyes
Cause of my demise
Those eyes, those eyes
I’m lost, so no
surprise
Those eyes, those eyes
Of saucer size
Those eyes, those eyes
That hypnotize
Those eyes, those eyes
So worldly wise
Those eyes, those eyes
That bring me sighs
Those eyes, those eyes
Cause of my demise
Those eyes, those eyes
I’m lost, so no
surprise
When the Mornington Estate exercised its
option to purchase Mornington Field from the MOD it also acquired all the
buildings and infrastructure on the airfield
itself as well as 29 houses in the village formally used as quarters for
military personnel.
The buildings on the airfield itself were to be converted in commercial
premised while the former married quarters were soon available to rent.
30 year old single mother Kirsty Martin moved into number 2, Military
Row, with her six year old daughter Sasha on the 18th of July, to
live with her older sister Lianne.
After she and her boyfriend split up she and her daughter moved in with
Lianne in Finchbottom but it was a bit cramped in her flat so when the
opportunity of a house in Mornington presented itself Lianne snapped it
up.
Lianne worked in Finchbottom for Downshire Denticare and divided her
time between there and Mornington she had always loved the village and had
often dreamed of living there but never dared hope that it might actually
happen.
She couldn’t imagine why no one else was prepared to work there but she
didn’t think about it often after all their loss was very much her gain.
So a three bedroom house in Mornington was manna from heaven and they
all loved living there and Kirsty was thrilled to be away from Finchbottom and
Sasha loved having her own room.
Sasha was also looking forward to starting at the village school in
September and Kirsty hoped to get part time work up at Mornington Field once
the premises were let.
As it turned out she didn’t need to wait that long as she managed to get
a part time job as a classroom assistant at the village school which suited her
down to the ground.
The only downside for Lianne living in Mornington was having to journey
to Finchbottom three days a week and battle through the rush hour traffic on
the Expressway.
She would have liked to work all week in Mornington but there just
wasn’t enough dentistry required for that.
But her tortuous journeys turned out to be relatively short lived as at
the beginning of November she was asked to work at the Highfinch practice for
three days a week instead of Finchbottom and she didn’t need asking twice.
It was further to drive than Finchbottom but it was a much easier one
and because of the greater distance the company had agreed to provide bed and
breakfast accommodation in Highfinch which meant for Lianne that for her three
days she would be able to stay over for two nights on expenses, so she thought
she had really landed on her feet.
This turn of events was also welcomed by Kirsty as it meant that she and
Sasha had the house to themselves for the best part of three days a week and
that circumstance led rather serendipitously to a chain of events that would
change her life for ever.
Kirsty Martin was a 30
year old single mother who differed from her older sister in almost every way,
she was tall
while Lianne stood 4ft 10 in her socks, Kirsty’s hair was dark and luscious and
her sisters was mousy and wayward, she had penetrating green eyes while
Lianne’s were grey and a bit squinty, Kirsty had a strong jawline and perfect
cheekbones, and her sister had a pointy chin with a mole on it.
She had perfect skin and a marvellous smile and Lianne had a face full
of freckles and her smile was lopsided.
Kirsty had a perfect figure and was quite athletic, Lianne on the other
hand did not, she was slim though and despite her imperfections she was not
unattractive but she was not sporty by any stretch of the imagination.
Kirsty could get herself ready in no time flat and not have a single
hair out of place while her sister would spend an age getting ready and still
managed to look like she’d been dragged through a hedge backwards.
The result of her appearance, despite having a daughter, meant that she
was widely regarded in the village as a
bit of a milf, but she had her doubts about that because if any of the red
bloodied men in Mornington truly thought of her in that way then they were not
banging on her door to tell her so.
She would have liked
to meet someone as there hadn’t been anyone in her life since she split up with
her boyfriend in Finchbottom, but little did she know that she was about to
blossom into a brunette haired cougar.
She had a job at the
village school working part time as a classroom assistant which fitted in well
with her because her daughter Sasha was of school age.
Kirsty was always home
by 2.30pm which gave her an hour of sanity time before she had to go out and
pick Sasha up.
If there were days
when she had to work outside of school hours, and Lianne was in Highfinch, one
of her neighbours, Susan Newbold, at number 13, would
babysit for her.
It wasn’t often and it
wasn’t usually for long but one day in May Sasha was at home all day for an
inset day and Kirsty had to go to school.
Susan, not for the
first time, stepped into the breach and looked after her daughter for her.
Unfortunately things
at the school didn’t go as well as planned, so as a result she was half an hour
late getting home and when she walked through her front door she was instantly
greeted by her excited daughter.
“Mummy, mummy” Sasha
called “I’m playing with Alan”
“Are you darling?” she
said not knowing who the hell Alan was.
“Come on, you can play
too” Sasha added
Kirsty was led by her
excited daughter into the lounge where she found Alan Newbold sitting on the
floor in the middle of an assortment of toys, Alan was Susan’s eldest son, just
back from
University after
completing his second year.
He was tall, broad and
muscular with a sportsman’s
physique, brown curly hair that fell on his face,
brown eyes, a
square jaw and a dimple, in short Kirsty thought he was gorgeous.
“Oh hi Alan” Kirsty
said
Kirsty was led by her
excited daughter into the lounge where she found Alan Newbold sitting on the
floor in the middle of an assortment of toys, Alan was Susan’s eldest son, just
back from
University after
completing his second year.
He was tall, broad and
muscular with a sportsman’s
physique, brown curly hair that fell on his face, brown eyes, a square jaw
and a dimple, in short Kirsty thought he was gorgeous.
“Oh hi Alan” Kirsty
said
“Hello Mrs Martin” he
said “Mum asked me to take over as she had to get to the Doctors”
“I’m not a Mrs” she
said “Please call me Kirsty”
“Ok Kirsty”
“Is she behaving?” she
asked
“Oh yes we’re having
great fun” he said
“Come on mum you can
play with Alan too” Sasha said
And she took a moment
or two to consider what it might be like to play with Alan on the floor, but
then she said
“I think Alan probably wants to go home”
“I’m in no rush” he said “if there’s stuff
you need to do”
“Well if you could just entertain Sasha while
I get her tea” she said “I would be very grateful”
“No problem” he said amiably
Alan continued to play with the Sasha for
another 45 minutes while Kirsty cooked her tea and when she called her to the
table Sasha thanked him for looking after her and then kissed and hugged Alan
goodbye.
“I wouldn’t mind doing that myself” Kirsty
thought as she watched the well-toned 20 year old hug her daughter.
As Sasha ran past her into the kitchen he
brushed his brown curly hair off his face and smiled.
“You can brush my hair with that hand anytime
you want” she said in her head, but out loud she said
“Thank you so much Alan”
“My pleasure” he remarked as he stepped out
the door
“You could be my pleasure” she thought as she
closed it behind him.
As May drifted into June Alan frequently
babysat for Sasha and Kirsty looked forward to the days she would walk in the
house and he would be there playing with her daughter.
Then one night after Kirsty had put Sasha to
bed she had a long relaxing bath and was on the way downstairs to a well-earned
glass of wine when there was a knock on the front door.
“Damn” she exclaimed
She was wearing her white fluffy bathrobe and
a towel wrapped around her head like a turban and was hoping if she opened the
door like that it would deter whoever it was from disturbing her for long.
“Hello” Alan said as she opened the door
“Oh hello” Kirsty replied but inside her head
she was screaming in her head “I look like a washer woman and I’m not wearing
makeup, so I look like an old haggard washer woman”
“I left my phone here earlier” he explained
“Would you mind if I look for it?”
“Not at all” she said wishing she had gotten
dressed “Come in”
“Where do you think it might be?” Kirsty
asked
“Down the right hand side of the seat pad on
the sofa” he replied and she walked over to the sofa and bent over and delved
between the seat pad and the arm.
“You were right” she said producing his phone
As Kirsty answered the was wearing her white
fluffy bathrobe and a towel wrapped around her head like a turban and was
hoping if she opened the door like that it would deter whoever it was from
disturbing her for long.
“Hello” Alan said as she opened the door
“Oh hello” Kirsty replied but inside her head
she was screaming in her head “I look like a washer woman and I’m not wearing
makeup, so I look like an old haggard washer woman”
“I left my phone here earlier” he explained
“Would you mind if I look for it?”
“Not at all” she said wishing she had gotten
dressed “Come in”
“Where do you think it might be?” Kirsty
asked
“Down the right hand side of the seat pad on
the sofa” he replied and she walked over to the sofa and bent over and delved
between the seat pad and the arm.
“You were right” she said producing his phone
“I know” he responded “Because I put it there”
“Oh I see” she said and smiled and then she
processed what he’d said and corrected herself
“No I don’t see”
“I put it there so I would have a reason to
come back” he enlightened her
“Why would you do that?” she asked
“So I could do this” he replied and leant in
and kissed her
lips softly and she instantly responded.
As the kiss continued it grew quickly in intensity, it was a moment he
had dreamed of since she first arrived in the village, he had at first admired
her and then he wanted her and she featured prominently in his dreams.
For her part Kirsty was just enjoying the attentions of a man, the first
such attention she had received in a very long time, and she hoped it wouldn’t
end with a kiss and she was not disappointed, because he made love to her on
the floor in the very spot where he had played with Sasha and she had been so
envious as she watched.
So as she had hoped it didn’t end with a kiss, and she was not
disappointed at that either.
“That was very unexpected” she exclaimed as
they cuddled on the sofa and drank a glass of wine “and very nice”
After a little while of reflective silence
and half a bottle of wine she broke the silence and said to him.
“I think as you’re home for the summer we
should try to do something to keep you occupied, which might also help to turn very nice into bloody
marvellous”
She giggled at her brazen behavior while he
just smiled at the prospect of enjoying her again.
As a result of that first evening together
they began an affair that filled their every waking thought during the summer,
they would meet at her house when she got home from work in that precious time
before Sasha came home from school or if she wasn’t working they would spend
the whole day together.
All summer long they
spent precious time together but it became increasingly more difficult to find
the time for intimacy as the school holidays wiped out their regular afternoon
delights and with the long summer evenings Sasha was taking longer and longer
to settle.
So rather than getting
together 5 afternoons a week they struggled to do one, but that said they still
managed to make the most of what little time they had to themselves.
However as the summer
days slipped slowly and inexorably towards Autumn Kirsty thought their
passionate love affair would come to an end when the summer did and he returned
to University.
On the last day of his
summer break he wanted to say goodbye so he showered, dressed and went
downstairs and slipped out the door, but someone else got to Kirsty’s house
first, the washing machine engineer.
He knew it would probably
be an hour before he was done so he decided he would try going for a walk first
and after traipsing around the village for over an hour he headed to Kirsty’s
again.
The engineer’s van passed him as he walked back towards the house so he
was feeling hopeful as he used the spare key and let himself in and he found
Kirsty standing at the kitchen sink watching Sasha playing in the garden.
“Hello gorgeous” he said as he crept up behind her, but she didn’t say
anything in response because she was crying but she turned around and buried
her face in his chest instead.
“Why are you crying?” he asked as he wrapped his arms around her.
“Because I’m really
going to miss you” she sobbed “and because it’s over”
“What’s over?” he
asked
“Us” she replied
snottily
“What makes you think
it’s over?” Alan asked
“Because you’re going
away” she retorted “and you’ll be with all the pretty girls your own age”
“This isn’t the end”
he assured her “it’s the beginning”
“What?” she asked as
she looked up at him through tear filled eyes.
“I don’t want it to
end” he said “and I don’t want one of the “pretty” girls my own age, I want you
because I’m in love with you”
“You are?” she asked in disbelief
“Yes and I thought you were in love with me” he said
“I am” she confessed
“Then why should it be over?” he asked but she didn’t reply because her
mouth was over his.
The affair continued in secret during his last year at University,
although it was more emotional than physical for the most part although they
still had their moments when the opportunity presented itself.
They didn’t make their relationship public until after he had finished
his third year and the announcement caused more than a few ripples in
Mornington.
Her sister Lianne was delighted as was her daughter Sasha but the reception
was more lukewarm from many in the village and the ripple took on tsunami sized
proportions in his mum Susan’s eyes.
However after the dust settled and it became clear that the relationship
was not a mere infatuation and a year after their coming out they were married
at St Winifred’s.
Where do I begin to say?
Exactly what you mean
to me
It would surely end my
world
If you were to set me
free
Where do I begin to
say?
How happy it would
make me
If I could find the
perfect words
To express my feelings
with clarity
When we are separated
I feel half a person,
empty and incomplete
But when we are
together
I am whole and I am
replete
Where do I begin to
say?
How blessed I am to
have you in my life
As my lover, and best
friend
My partner and my wife
The Varney’s lived in the small country village of
Mornington-By-Mere in the Finchbottom Vale nestled between the Ancient
Dancingdean Forest and the rolling Pepperstock Hills.
Which was a quaint picturesque village, a
proper chocolate box picturesque idyll, with a Manor House, 12th
Century Church, a Coaching Inn, Windmills, an Old Forge, a Schoolhouse, a River
and a Mere.
He lived and worked up at Mornington Field which had once been an RAF
base but had been converted into a mixture of commercial and residential units.
They lived in one of the Cottages in Dulcet Mill Lane, number 5, in the part of the Village known
as Manorside and they had lived there together all of the married life.
70 year old George was employed at the Mornington Brewery before he
retired while his wife Tracey was a stay at home mum, raising their six
children.
They were obviously all grown up now and most of them had children of
their own and were now in every corner of Downshire.
In the summer of 2016 it was to be their fiftieth wedding anniversary and
as a special surprise for his wife he had booked the Finchbottom Flyer, a renovated steam engine and coaches, which
ran from Sharping St Mary along a section of preserved
track that was very significant to them both and the whole family were going to
be aboard for the celebration.
Their story began far back in the previous
century in April 1965 when during the final days of the
age of steam, the Sharpington to Abbottsford train rattled its way through the
Finchbottom Vale late on a Monday night.
George Varney had
spent the Bank Holiday Monday with a couple of mates in the traditional seaside resort of Sharpington-by-Sea, where they inhabited
the Victorian Pier, and played crazy golf, frittered away their time in the
numerous amusement arcades and of course rode the rides in the Sharpington Fun
Park, like the Rotor and the Wild Mouse, The Cyclone and the Morehouse
Galloper.
But Harry and Len
didn’t leave when he did as they had pulled a couple of local girls so they
decided to get the milk train back the next morning.
George was nineteen
years old and had no hard feelings over his friends getting lucky he had had
his chance but he declined what was on offer, he wasn’t looking for knee
trembler in an alleyway or a bunk up under the pier, he was looking for something
or someone a little more wholesome.
So he left his friends
to their cheap thrills with their cheap slutty girls and got the train home.
When he reached the
station the train was already on the platform so he got aboard and slammed the
door behind him and walked down the corridor and went into the first
compartment he came to.
When he slid the door closed he sat down and
found himself seated opposite a girl sitting quietly in the corner.
Her name was Tracey
Garvey and she had long straight brown hair and was on
the plain side of pretty with a heavily freckled face, lovely blue eyes, a cute
nose and a thin-lipped smile, which she greeted him with.
George returned the smile and sat down and
slowly appraised the short quiet girl in the pale lemon dress and cream
cardigan.
Her legs were nice, he thought, sheathed in
tan coloured stockings and she had tiny feet, always a bonus for George, small
feet.
Although he didn’t know it she was the same
age as him and had also spent the day in Sharpington, but in her case she had
been visiting a maiden aunt.
They spent the next twenty minutes exchanging
glances, his of curiosity, mixed with desire, and hers of coquettishness.
But then the motion of the train began to
lull him off, and when the long blinks had set in he slept, and while he slept
he dreamt, and his dreams were all about the girl in the lemon dress.
George and Tracey spent their first twenty
minutes together exchanging glances, his of curiosity mixed with desire, and
hers of coquettishness.
But then the motion of the train began to
lull him off, and when the long blinks had set in he slept, and while he slept
he dreamt, and all his dreams were about the girl in the lemon dress.
He was following her, but she was just out of
reach and his friends Harry and Len were behind him and they were shouting
“Don’t let her get away, she’s the one”
But he couldn’t catch her, she was always
just out of reach, and the dream would have continued in the same vein
indefinitely had the sound of a train rattling by in the opposite direction not
brought him back and through half opened eyes he saw the girl seated diagonally
opposite him across the aisle was also dosing.
He was starting to close his eyes again but he
began to think that it may have been providence that had brought him wide
awake.
So he rubbed his eyes and forced himself to
stay awake and watched the quiet girl across the aisle with her legs drawn up
under her and her head resting against the seat back as a smile played about
her lips.
“She looks so angelic” he thought as he
watched her, and although he didn’t know it as he was watching her, she dreamed
a dream of him.
A dream of similar ilk to his own in which
her aunt urged her on
“Don’t make the same mistake as I”
The train was just approaching Childean when
she suddenly awoke with a look of alarm on her face, she looked out of the
window to get her bearings and he said
“We’re just pulling into Childean”
“Oh good” she said and quickly crossed the aisle
and sat beside him, smiled coyly and then she kissed him
The kissing came to a halt at the same moment
that the train did
“That was very nice….” he began
“Tracey” she said “My name is Tracey”
“That was very nice Tracey” he continued
“I’m George” he said and kissed her on the
lips as the guards whistle echoed shrilly
“Is this you’re your station?” he asked
“No” she replied “I’m going to Abbottsford”
“Good, so am I” he said and kissed her again
as the train pulled out of the station.
By the time they reached Abbottsford they
were no longer strangers as he and the quiet girl in the corner chattered all
the way and they only paused in order to kiss again.
Not only were they not strangers anymore but
they were also no longer singletons looking for their perfect fit and by the
following Easter they were no longer singletons.
My heart will say
Every day
Why am I empty?
So empty
My heart will say
Every day
Why am I so lonely?
So lonely
My heart will say
Every day
I can love someone
Anyone
My heart will say
Every day
Answer me please
Please answer me
My heart makes a plea
Please fill me
Give me some company
Hear my plea
My heart will say
Every day
Find me a kindred
spirit
Oh please permit
My heart despairs
I have so much to
share
I have so much to give
Please let me live
I would like to say
before I begin this narrative, that this is not intended to be a boastful tale of
conquest and I am not proud to have done what I did.
The eventual outcome
was not even the intended one, in fact in the four year period of my life that the
story covers the thought never once crossed my mind that it might happen nor
was it ever desired.
It just happened and
this is a faithful account of how.
It was 1974 and it all
began when I was just 18 years old and I met Andrea Palfrey for the first time.
It was a cold grey
Monday morning, so grey and dismal it was clear rain wasn’t far away.
I was starting a new
job that morning and I had just stepped off the bus when the girl in front of
me dropped her umbrella.
I bent down and picked
it up and when I stood up again she had turned around and I was staring into
the eyes of an angel whose brunette hair framed the classical beauty of her
face.
“Thank you” She said
and smiled and I was instantly smitten.
But as taken with her
as I was, I was completely struck dumb and all I could do was return her smile
and hand her the umbrella.
And that would
probably have been that had it not been for the fact that she already worked for
Barrett Brothers which was the company where I was due to start my new job.
She hadn’t worked
there long herself and she was only planning on working there for a year, to
earn some money, before she started university.
Over the next few months
we became very close friends but sadly no more than that.
It turned out that we
had several mutual friends and we kind of fell into a sociable group of a dozen
or more friends who would go out either in one big group or smaller ones and go
bowling, barn dancing or to the seaside or any number of things, the pub quite
often.
And all of these many and
varied social activities we participated in but try as I may I never made any
inroads into her heart or anything else.
Another bi-product of
our socialising was my introduction to the Palfrey family.
Andrea’s father,
Ronald had a dry wit and if you were in the right frame of mind he could be hysterically
funny.
If on the other hand
you were not in the mood for it then he was just bloody annoying.
He was an accountant
by profession which is a humourless occupation at the best of times which is
why I think he over compensated.
Marjorie, her mother
was a real battle-axe who had a face that could warp wood.
She was a Sister at
the local hospital, I don’t recall what she did there but it was probably
something unpleasant.
Her eldest sibling was
Ken a twenty one year old cook, also at the local hospital, he inherited his
father’s liking for being a wit but sadly he didn’t possess any.
Then came the three
sisters and considering the fact they were sisters they couldn’t have been more
different from each other.
They all had something
around the eyes that bound them as kin, provided they were all together in a
small room and you could compare them.
In a crowd you would
never have picked them out as siblings.
And they had
absolutely nothing in common other than the same parentage and their shared beauty
and of course an unbreakable love for each other.
Andrea was the oldest
of the Palfrey girls at 18, the same age as me.
And the tallest by
several inches and she was blessed with stunning legs, in fact legs so stunning
that they have never been surpassed in my eyes.
But then I am biased.
She had long brunette hair
that fell over her slender shoulders.
Andie was very slim, a
size 12 in old money, I’m not sure what the modern equivalent is.
Not overly endowed in
the bust but perfectly in proportion.
Keenly intelligent and
delightfully funny.
But despite all of
that she didn’t have a clue how gorgeous she was and as a result she had a
succession of failed relationships with unsuitable men who used her, abused her
and then dumped her and managed to leave her thinking she deserved it.
I would never have
treated her that way I loved her and I would have cherished her.
If I’d had the
opportunity.
One of our wider social
group was Andrea’s sister Megan, she was the middle one of the three and was a
few months short of 17.
She was brunette as
well but she didn’t suffer from Andrea’s lack of self-confidence in fact her
problem was thought she was very attractive.
In fact Megan actually
thought she was more attractive than she really was.
She used to borrow
Andrea’s clothes which didn’t fit her.
She thought that if
she squeezed her size 14 arse into her sister’s size 12 knickers that she
actually had a size 12 arse.
I don’t know why she
did it, because as I said she was very attractive in her own right.
I think perhaps she
envied Andrea’s slim figure and so tried to be her, but she was very definitely
not.
Kelly was the youngest
at 15 and she was Blonde and full of self-confidence but she could afford to as
she had everything, a delicious figure, a bubbly personality and an infectious sense
of fun.
Oh yes Kelly was funny
and sexy and furthermore she had a crush on me, I was as flattered as hell and
had I been 3 years younger and not in love with Andrea I would have nailed her
in a heartbeat.
As the months went by
and Andrea went from one disastrous, ill-considered boyfriend to the next, I
sat on the side-lines watching.
Then one day when she
had just picked herself up from yet another car crash of a relationship I
decided I should just ask her out and be done with it.
What a mistake that
was,
I wasn’t her type
apparently.
“No I guess I’m not” I
said “that’s because I’m not an asshole that treats you like shit”
We didn’t talk for
three months.
When Andrea and I
began talking again I found that nothing had changed
I was still in love
with her but she still just wanted us to be friends.
That was the moment I realised
that it was never going to happen for us, and I should have walked away then
but I didn’t.
Instead I asked out
her sister Megan who was then 17, I suppose initially I went out with Megan
because it was a way for me to be close to Andrea but still have a life.
It was a dangerous
enterprise to undertake on several levels and perhaps the most hazardous was
the fact that with Megan’s facial features she had the most chance of ending up
looking like her hatchet faced mother which was a scary thought.
That summer Megan gave
me her virginity in a tent in Perthshire not perhaps the most romantic of ways but
it seemed as good a place as any at the time.
Two months later we
were engaged and Andrea left for university.
Everything seemed to
be working out for the best I loved Meg and we were planning our future
together and Andrea was getting on with her life and working hard towards her
degree.
But every time Andie
came home from university the wound would open up again and she filled my every
waking thought.
One Christmas when she
was home I was making love to Meg in her room and I actually imagined it was
Andrea.
I broke up with her on
New Year’s Eve.
The New Year began
with Megan in tears in one room and Andrea demanding to know what the hell was
going on in another.
“Why are you breaking
up with her?” she demanded for the third time.
“Because I’m in love
with someone else” I finally replied
“Who?” she asked
“You really have to
ask” I replied
She looked blankly for
a moment and then it dawned on her
“You can’t still be in
love with me”
“Well I am” I retorted
She sat down and lit a
cigarette
“I thought you’d
gotten over me” she said
“Oh yes you would
think so wouldn’t you” I snapped
“Well you should have”
she barked “I’ve given you no encouragement”
“Yes I should have” I
said “then I wouldn’t see your face when I’m making love to Megan”
I went home before she
could respond.
Two days later I
received a letter, hand written envelope, in a familiar hand smelling of her
perfume.
Andrea had written me
a letter, my heart soared, and it took me half an hour to work up the courage
to open it and another thirty seconds to throw it in the bin.
Three hand written
pages in her elegant hand, extolling the virtues of her younger sister and begging
me to change my mind.
Three pages and not
one word of love for me.
I resolved then and
there to break the chain that bound me to her and run for the hills.
After a week I had
almost gone a whole day without having a drink but my determination was strong.
Until one cold wet
night when there was a knock on the door and Megan stood there soaked to the
skin and crying.
And I was trapped
again.
For the next year or
so everything seemed to have settled down mainly because Andrea and I largely
avoided each other.
I was working a lot of
extra hours trying to stash some money in the savings for our impending
nuptials and Andrea was busy working on her dissertation.
I thought perhaps I
had finally turned a corner.
Which is why I lowered
my guard, and from Easter of that year onwards Andrea and I were back on
speaking terms again.
And as there had been
no repeat of picturing of her siblings face while making love I was in a
positive frame of mind.
Megan had been working
for a big Armaments Company for over a year they probably employed a third of
the town’s available workforce and she earned good money.
But better than that
they had a huge sports and social club, and better still it was heavily
subsidised.
That summer there was
a big fancy dress party and Megan got us tickets and she had a spare one which
without asking me first, she gave to Andie who was back from University, having
graduated with a first.
I was cross at first
when I found out, but Meg was so proud of her sister for graduating.
Also Meg said she
needed cheering up because she had just broken up with her boyfriend.
The latest pig, in a
long line of pigs, so no surprise there.
On the night of the
party it was a warm dry night and as it was only about a mile from where the
girls lived we decided to walk, in costume.
I walked to the
Palfreys in my street clothes and changed in Megan’s room.
Megan was dressed as a
flapper in a dress she’d made herself and she looked really hot.
I went as a Roman,
wearing sandals and a toga.
Andrea though was dressed
as a toddler, in a smock top and a nappie, which showed off her gorgeous long
legs to great effect, and her brunette hair was tied up in little bunches and
she had a dummy on a ribbon around her neck.
For the walk to the
club she wore a long wrap around skirt to protect her modesty.
When we got there we
found the fancy dress party was already in full swing and was very well
attended and the hall was packed.
I noted I was not the
only Roman at the forum by long way and Megan was not the only Flapper, Andrea
however was unique as always.
With the heavily
subsidised bar the drink was flowing freely and the crowd
Were exuberant in the
extreme.
As the evening wore on
much alcohol was consumed and it was a very enjoyable night out indeed and I
felt at last I was able to enjoy being in Andrea’s company without the old
feelings came to the fore.
Megan was close to
having had one Bacardi and coke too many but insisted she was fine
“Have a dance with
Andie” she said and tottered off to the ladies.
“Great idea” Andrea said and grabbed my hand
and dragged me off to the middle of the dance floor just as Fleetwood Mac’s,
Albatross began.
She stopped and turned
around to face me and wrapped her skinny arms around my neck and then inexplicably
she kissed me.
When Andrea kissed me
out of the blue it was not a sisterly smack or a friendly peck, this was an
open mouthed penetrating tongue kind of kiss which took me by surprise and took
my breath away.
It took me a moment to
realise what was happening and that I needed to be joining in.
Once I had cottoned on
I went about it with relish and my hands which had been resting in the small of
her back quickly encroached inside her smock top and were caressing the naked skin
of her back.
As the music went from
Fleetwood Mac to 10cc to Harry Nilsson and still we kissed.
It was only when the
dulcet tones of Jeff Beck’s Hi Ho Silver Lining broke the spell that we
suddenly realised we were not alone and Andrea giggled.
And as she giggled I
realised I was fully aroused beneath my toga which made it difficult to walk
any way but gingerly.
Andrea looked at me
curiously before looking down at the protrusion and giggling again.
We walked back
sheepishly to our table just a Megan came stumbling back towards us.
She was laughing like
a drain as she tottered along and when she reached us she slurred
“I fell over” and
roared with laughter again
“I think we’d better
get you home” Andie said
Megan was still laughing
as we gathered our stuff together and steered a drunk and giggling Megan
towards the door.
Once outside Andrea
said
“Hold on”
And began rummaging
inside her bag and eventually fished out her skirt.
I watched her intently
as she wrapped the skirt around her slender pins and when she caught me
watching her she blushed and then smiled.
We set off down the
road with Megan sandwiched between the two of us and I fully expected us to
continue the whole way home but after about half a mile Meg seemed to suddenly
sober up and got it into her head that we weren’t walking fast enough and
yomped off ahead of us at pace.
We set off after her
but she built up a good head of steam, then Andrea took hold of my hand
“Let her go” she said
“she’ll be alright” and pulled me towards a convenient bus shelter and then
dragged me inside.
“She’s almost home
anyway” she said and kissed me, her hot darting tongue exploring my mouth while
her hands tried to get inside my toga and my arousal tried to get out.
When it suddenly occurred
to me that my drunken fiancé was somewhere ahead of us in the dark and I was in
a bus shelter snogging her sister so I stopped things before we went too
far and said
“We need to find Megan,
Come on let’s get you home”
She was reluctant to
leave but she nodded her ascent and followed me and we walked the rest of the
way holding hands.
We got to the house
and she unlocked the door
“Come in for coffee”
she said
My head was swimming
with the evenings events, I needed to think so I shook my head.
“Please” she begged
“just coffee”
I agreed and Andrea
took my hand and took me inside.
Thinking about it now
I had no choice but to go in as my clothes were in a bag in Meg’s room.
At the bottom of the
stairs she whispered
“Put the kettle on and
I’ll go and check on Meg”
I went through to the
kitchen and filled the kettle and flicked the switch before walking back to the
lounge just as Andrea walked lightly down the stairs, she was barefoot and
wearing a full length white cotton Kaftan.
“Meg is spark out” she
said as she closed the distance between us.
I got a sudden whiff of
freshly applied perfume and I was intoxicated by it.
I was also aroused as
I believed that was the only other thing she was wearing apart from the kaftan.
She smiled and in an
instant her mouth was over mine
Hot and urgent kisses
more eager than on the dance floor more intense than in the bus shelter.
I broke away and asked
“What about your
parents”
“Dads in Southampton,
Mum and Ken are both on nights and Kelly sleeps like the dead” she replied
“What about Meg”
She responded to my
question by pressing her mouth against mine again and tried to get inside my
toga and unlike in the bus shelter this time she succeeded.
And we made love on
the sofa as my fiancé slept above us and it was the perfect culmination of my
years of longing.
Afterwards we lay
panting on the sofa loosely covered by her Kaftan
Before she took me to
her room and we made love again.
It was almost dawn
when Andrea woke me with a kiss.
“It’s time to go sweetheart”
I returned her kiss
with interest.
Andrea had slipped her
Kaftan back on and retrieved my bag from Megan’s room and I quietly got dressed
as she watched.
We tiptoed down the
stairs and stood on the doorstep and kissed
Then she said
“I love you” and my
heart soared and we kissed again
I quite
reasonably believed it was a new beginning
What I was not thinking
was that it was the end.
I turned around and
waved to her from across the road and she blew me a kiss.
“I never did get a
coffee” I said and she giggled
The dawn had fully
broken as I turned and waved again and the birds sung their morning song that
echoed my joy.
As I left Andrea on
that morning I thought that the bright dawn heralded a bright new beginning.
A new dawn for a new
start.
How wrong I was.
When I went to the
house the next day Andrea was conspicuous by her absence.
And my new beginning
turned out to be the same old same old.
She had gone to
Manchester to stay with friends and I was left in limbo
I didn’t know how
to behave around Meg, was it over between us or not,
Were Andrea and I a
couple or not?
If Megan ever knew
about what happened between Andrea and me that night she never mentioned it and
her behaviour towards me was unaltered.
It was a month after
the fancy dress party when Andrea reappeared.
But it was another
week after that before I got her on her own because she was avoiding me.
I took a day off work
and phoned in sick, and waited in the ally across from the house until everyone
had left for the day.
The weather had been
very hot the past few weeks and that day was no different even that early the
heat was building.
I gave it another half
an hour just to make sure no one returned and then I crossed the road and let
myself in the side gate and crossed the patio to the open French windows.
I looked in and I
could see her at the kitchen sink.
As she stopped what
she was doing she dried her hands and turned around just as I reached the
kitchen door.
Andrea gasped when she
saw me then she dissolved into tears and ran in to my arms.
After some consoling I
asked her
“Why have you been
avoiding me?”
“Because I love you”
she replied “but I also love Megan”
She sobbed again
“Didn’t that night
mean anything to you?” I asked coldly and pushed her away
“It meant everything
to me” she screamed “that’s why I feel so guilty, so wretched”
She turned away from
me but I took hold of her arm and pulled her into my arms.
After I calmed her
down and dried her tears we talked calmly and then she took me to her parent’s
bed and we stayed there all day.
When I kissed her
goodbye that day it was the last time and furthermore it was the last time I
ever saw her.
Andrea couldn’t live
with the guilt of what she had done and even though she loved me desperately we
could never be together.
So after our brief
affair Andrea went back to Manchester to do her masters.
Megan and I split up
soon afterwards I told everyone it was because I wanted a family and she didn’t
but the truth was my heart wasn’t in it anymore if indeed it ever had been.
In truth after
sleeping with Andrea making love to Megan always felt like second best.
I knew it would hurt
her when I broke off the engagement but Megan was a lovely girl and she
deserved better than me.
After parting with
Andrea and breaking up with Megan I quit my job and moved to another town about
15 miles away and started a new life with a new job and I washed my hands of
the Palfreys once and for all.
Or so I thought.
A new friend of mine
had a mobile disco, he had transport, he had all the gear, all the gigs and all
the gab but he didn’t have a driving licence.
So Dave persuaded me
to be his roadie, I would drive him to the gigs and help him set up, then at
the end of the night, pack away and drive him home. Simple.
One night a little
under a year after I broke Megan’s heart we were doing a gig at the local
college.
In between set up and
break down my time was my own.
Sometimes I would stay
in the venue for the evening, other times I might have a kip in the van or as I
did on this occasion I went down the road for a pint.
When I returned I
discarded my cigarette end as I walked up the steps to the front door and I
noticed a blonde girl to one side of the door obviously crying.
“Are you alright?” I
asked
As she turned around
she was wiping her eyes
“Yes thank you” she
replied and then she smiled at me in recognition.
It was Kelly Palfrey
and when she saw it was me she burst into tears again
And ran to me.
“Here we go again” I
thought another crying Palfrey girl
But I was not the same
sympathetic man I was when I held a sobbing Andrea in my arms in the Palfreys
kitchen.
Nor was I the same
person Kelly had a crush on when she was 15.
That man was gone
forever.
My heart had hardened
since then and I am ashamed to say I took advantage of her vulnerability and
made love to her in the back of the van.
Well more precisely we
had sex, there was no love involved at least not on my side.
We met up a few more
times after that, purely for the sex.
Then I dumped her and
there were more tears.
The significance of
that meeting with a crying Kelly didn’t strike me at the time.
But it facilitated my
having slept with all three of Ronald Palfrey’s daughters.
But I felt no pride in
that dubious accomplishment.
It however amuse me to
wonder if Ronald would have seen any wit in the fact that I had bedded all
three of his daughters.
The last I heard of
the Palfreys was that Andrea had a Professorship in Manchester she had never
married and consoled herself in the halls of academe.
The year after we
split up Megan gained four stones and married a ginger haired accountant, she
never had any children.
Kelly on the other hand
married three times and had a child from each, all of them girls.
As for me I have a
wife and four children and I even found love of a sort I suppose though even
now after all these years only Andrea truly occupies my heart.
Was it really two weeks ago
When we cried and said
hello
And now as we stand in
the rain
It’s the time for us
to part again
Holding you close
again we cry
As the time has come
to say goodbye
Only a few more weeks
to go
When we will say our
last hello
And our goodbyes will
be done
As before God we join
as one
And never again will
we part
Or feel the longing in
our hearts
I hold you close as
again we cry
Then I kiss you and
say goodbye