Friday 27 November 2020

The Clerembeax Palace Hotel and Spa – Bookworms

The Clerembeax’s arrived in Downshire following the Norman conquests and stayed for a thousand years before the name died out following the death of the reclusive Marcus Clerembeax at the age of 96.

He had lived alone, apart from a butler and a cook, for 50 years after the tragic deaths of his two sons in the hedonistic sixties as a result of an excess of drugs and alcohol.

His wife chose to deal with the loss by taking her own life the day after the funeral while Marcus decided his best course of action was to turn his back on the world and hide himself away.  

Following his death in the autumn of 2015, with no direct heirs it took the Clerembeax solicitors, Beaumont, Villiers and Goodfellow, more than a year to find a legitimate Heir to inherit the estate, and that was 50 year old distant cousin Yvonne Labuschagne, and she took up residence in the January of 2017.

She was by profession a masseuse and had worked for many years along with her late husband at the Dancingdean Spa Hotel in Childean.

But with her inheritance she had the means and the venue to open her own Spa at the Clerembeax Palace but the house needed work.

The exterior was fine as the reclusive Marcus had been sensible enough to keep the fabric of the building well maintained.

She wasn’t sure about keeping the word “Palace” in the name because the building didn’t really look very palatial, mainly due to the fact that the original Clerembeax Palace burned down in the 19th century so the present manifestation was in fact a rather gaudy Victorian monstrosity in comparison, though it was not without its charms.

The interior had stood the test of time far less well and needed at the very least a lot of TLC.

The 19th century plumbing certainly wouldn’t stand the rigors of a 21st century Spa and the electrics needed a complete rewire.

While the Library was both a blessing and a curse, the latter because it took up so much space and the former because it was full of valuable old books, which was where Jennifer Bardsley and Paige Turners came in.

Her skill at seeking out the illusive and the obscure meant that Paige Turners were the “go to” people if you wanted something different, special or that which had eluded you.

So it was in her role as book expert extraordinaire that she was the first guest to stay at the Clerembeax, albeit a nonpaying one, while she catalogued the books and documents in the Library.  

When she had completed her cataloguing and appraisal of the Library she gave Yvonne a ball park figure of what she might expect at auction from the rarest volumes and she nearly fainted.

The understanding when Paige Turners undertook the appraisal was that they would have first refusal on the contents at the market value but they recommended O’Sullivan and Springthorpe to sell the really valuable items at auction and Paige Turners would take a small commission.

 

Fifty-year-old Yvonne was a small dark-haired woman who had maintained her figure well over the years, and was widely considered to be attractive, but despite that she was on her own since her husband’s early death, and it was the one regret she had in her life, however she hoped that would change when the Spa was up and running.

But as part of the process Jennifer Bardsley introduced her to Account Manager, Gareth Fackrell from Paige Turners, who was handling the sale of the books through O’Sullivan and Springthorpe, and they got to spend quite a lot of time with each other, which suited Yvonne down to the ground.

The initial meetings took place at Paige Turners offices in Mornington, which Yvonne referred to as the “Bookworms”, but most of the times they met subsequently they were in coffee shops or pub restaurants, but she for one always looked forward to those meetings.

But as pleasant as those occasions were, there was never any breakdown of the client/account manager relationship.

However their final meeting was at the “Palace” on the eve of World Book Day, it was an impromptu meeting, called at short notice by Gareth, and despite the fact that their relationship had never been anything other than professional she still dressed up for the meeting.

 

“Gareth” Yvonne said and kissed his cheek “Come through to the kitchen”

“Hello Yvonne, sorry for the hastily arranged meeting but I have something I think you’ll be really happy to see”

“Really? I’m intrigued” she said and turned to face him.

“I have here” he said opening his brief case and taking out a document and putting it on the table, “the latest balance sheet including all of February sales, which equates to 80 percent of the contents of your library to date”

“What am I looking at?” she asked as she perused the balance sheet

“Well this is the crucial number” he said pointing it out.

“Ok, but what does it mean?”

“That is the total figure for book sales, less auctioneers fees and Paige Turners commission, that’s what it means”

“What?” she exclaimed “That’s… mine?”

“Yes every penny” he replied

“My God I didn’t realise there were so many Book Worms in the World” she said and then she began to jump up and down, squealing with delight, and then she threw her arms around Gareth and kissed him.

Which initially took him by surprise but he soon gathered himself and joined in, and as it was the first time she’d kissed a man other than her husband since she was at University, as well as being the first since her husbands died, it was one hell of a kiss.

Snippets of Downshire Life – Out of Left Field

George had been away on an outward-bound course, one of those team building kind of affairs, and the first thing he did on returning home was to sit on his sofa and wade through the emails that had accumulated.

Most of them were of no importance so they went straight into trash, the rest comprised of a number from Gayle Lindon, from the office, gently reminding him that he hadn’t submitted his expenses lately.

He had always found her to be an attractive woman but a bit too forceful and a bit bossy.

Luckily before leaving for the Pepperstock National Park, “for team bonding”, he managed to get ahead of the curve and got most of his receipts entered so it only took some little time for him to get them up to date and fire them off to her, which he hoped, would keep her quiet for a week or two at least.

 

Once he had finished all his correspondence, his thoughts returned to Geraldine, as they had for most of his time away.

During his enforced isolation, with no access to technology or communication devices, he had a lot of time to think, and most of those thoughts were about Geraldine, and on his return to civilization he was eager to speak with her but he wasn’t getting any response on her mobile so he phoned her office the next morning and asked to speak with her and was informed by Miranda, an unhelpful receptionist, that she was not available, so he was about to leave a message for her to call him but instead he asked

“Is her brother Danny available?”

It turned out that he was, as his was the next voice he heard 

“Danny speaking”

“Hi Dan, its George” he said

“Hi George, how are things?” he asked

“Not bad” he replied “Listen I’m trying to get hold of Gerry”

“She unexpectedly had to fly to the States on Saturday morning” he responded “And she’s staying over there for Thanksgiving”

“Damn” he cursed

“Anything I can help with?” he asked

“Not really” he said, “It’s a question only she can answer”

“Well I’m sure she will if she can,” he said “I’ll get her to call you”

And he had to leave it at that.

 

It was much later that day when he received a call.

“George” she said brightly “Sorry it’s taken so long to get back to you, but the time difference really messes with my head”

“That’s ok” he lied, but it was so good to hear her voice

“I was just hoping we could get together”

“I would like that”

“Ok great” he said “when?”

“Well I get back in late on Friday which means on Saturday I’m going to be an absolute cabbage so how about Sunday” she suggested

“How about lunch maybe, but just you and me”

“Definitely” he replied “phone me with the where and when”

 

He was disappointed initially with not being able to say all the things that he wanted to say to her, all the things that he had been dying to say since the team bonding exercise when it dawned on him that he was in love with her, and that came right out of left field.

But that upset was more than offset by her proviso in reference to lunch when she added “But just you and me”

So, he was elated, but the only downside was that he had to wait a for a week before he could see her, but at least they could skype, so he had something to be thankful for.

Snippets of Downshire Life – The Old Flame

Owen Conway had been in Abbottsford for a business meeting and after a fruitful meeting and an exceptionally nice meal, and it was about six o’clock when he decided to make a move, so he said his goodbyes and headed off to catch his train.

It was snowing heavily and when he reached the station he found that no trains were running, so he tried the taxi rank but there were no cabs to be found.

After checking the bus terminal, he decided to abandon any hope of transport and turned his attention to finding a bed for the night and rushed off in the direction of the nearest hotel.

The snow was falling faster than ever as he pressed on into the teeth of the blizzard with his head down and was concentrating hard to keep his feet when he was hit on his left side hard enough to put him on the ground. 

He was winded by the fall and ended up on his back looking up at a small figure wrapped up against the weather.

“Are you ok?” the figure said, her voice muffled by her scarf “Are you hurt?”

“Just my pride” he said as he scrambled ungainly to his feet

“I’m so sorry” the muffled voice said

“That’s ok, no harm done” he said as he brushed the snow off himself and his small assailant assisted him in the cleanup and generally fussed around him.

 

When his assailant was content that he was presentable again they continued their previous paths and found that they were bound for the same destination, as the two of them were both had their hands on front door of the Unicorn Inn Express.       

Once they were inside he looked closely at the small figure wrapped up against the weather with melting snow on their shoulders.

Only their eyes and nose were visible between the wool hat and matching scarf and given their stature and their dazzling eyes he was sure it was a woman and his suspicions were soon confirmed when she loosened the scarf and exposed her smiling face, and it was no ordinary smiling face, and no ordinary woman, it was Yvonne Carpenter, who was not only one of the participants of the fruitful meeting he had had earlier, she was also an old flame and seeing her again was one of the most fruitful moments of his life since they broke up, and judging by her smile it seemed as if it had been for her too.

“Hello” he said and returned her smile and then they went to the reception desk.

“Good evening” the receptionist said, “Do you have a reservation?”

“No, I’m afraid not” he said

“Then I’m afraid it’s a case of Hobsons Choice” the receptionist said “As there is only one room available”

This announcement left him in something of a quandary, should he claim the room because he got there first, or should he do the noble thing, the gallant thing, and let her take the room, because he was a gentleman.

“We’ll take it” she announced and that night while the snow fell heavily on Abbottsford Owen and Carrie felt the warmth of the glowing embers of their former love and rekindled the old flame that had never died.

 

 

Thursday 7 March 2019

Moments of Love

IN THE COMPANY OF ANGELS

If I am the first to go
I will wait for you in the place
Where the crowns of Angels glow

If I go first because I lost the fight
I will be waiting with the Father
Where the tunnel opens into light

If I am the first one there
I will await you in lush meadows
Where heady perfume fills the air

If I go first and leave you lonely
We will meet again in paradise
In our loved ones company

If I am the first to go, allay your fears
I will be waiting in the place
Where there are no more tears

If I go before you and we must part
I will wait for you in heaven
Where sweet music soothes the heart

If I am first to go we will meet again
In a far better place than this
Where God has banished pain

If I go first through the eternal door
You will find me with the angels
Where suffering is no more

If I am first to go by days or years
You will find me waiting there
Far beyond this vale of tears

TOUGH LOVE

If you fall in love
And get your fingers burnt
If you give all of yourself
And end up broken hearted
Don’t withdraw from life
Get back in the saddle
Dip your toe once more into the mire
Don’t deny yourself the chance
To swim again in an ocean of desire
You must be immersed
In an ocean of emotional tempest
To feel alive, to be alive
You must take off your vest
Before May is out
Take a risk, take a gamble
If you don’t buy a ticket
You can never win the jackpot
Its better to open up to danger
Take the knocks and live

ANNE

Anne stood on a still riverbank at peace
A silent and untroubled location
She knew well that then was the very last time
She would stand in that special place alone
A joining of hearts in the days to come
Meant her life would be forever altered
Remembrances filled her young head
Of when her own council was all she had
No more, since he entered her life
A soul mate and kindred spirit, lover
A friend and yet so much more besides
The other half of her found at long last
And with this new stranger reunited
They will share the love that is requited

UNAFFECTED

She was beautiful, elegant, graceful
She held herself with dignity and poise
Yet was unaware of her own attraction
At school, boys of her age, for want of her
Cried themselves to sleep, she was unaware
She turned heads and yet did not notice
This was not arrogance or even aloofness
She did not see herself as others did
It had always been so, Her innocence
Not that she did not date boys or even men
She was neither virginal nor chaste
She was chased and pursued but not caught
Her heart when given went to the one man
Who saw beneath as only a soul mate can

UNDER THE CLOCK

Suited and booted he sat waiting there
Perched on the edge of his seat, restless
He sat watching the great clock hands moving
Slowly as they ticked off the minutes
His palms sweated and his heart pounded
As he waited beneath the great clock face
He asked himself “what was he doing”?
A blind date what was he thinking, madness
He was too old for blind dates far too old
Why did he agree, what would they talk about
He wasn’t young, he wasn’t cool, he was
More Wilson Philips than Wilson picket
But there she was not too young and lovely
His mouth was dry and he felt a bit faint
“I was terribly nervous about tonight”
She said putting him straight at his ease
She slipped off her coat effortlessly
With an easy grace and elegance
When he took off his coat, he hit his arm
On the wall, hit a woman on the back
And knocked over a lamp, she laughed
Sympathetically and she bad him sit

EVERY CORNER OF THE WORLD (1)

I have stood in view of the far pavilions
I have stood upon the great lakes shore
I have stood in the heat of the hottest desert
I have stood at Niagara and looked in awe
I have seen many things in my long life
It is my plan to live to see many more
But I know I will never see more beauty
Now I stand beside you of that I’m sure

EVERY CORNER OF THE WORLD (2)

From the land of the long white cloud
To the land of the midnight sun
I will follow you to the ends of the earth
Because for me you’re the only one

A STRANGER THAT I KNOW

I approached a stranger, a woman
Though not a stranger, some how familiar
In some way, In her pale eyes I saw what?
Recognition? There was something but what
We held each other’s gaze and then she stood
We faced each other in silence, watching
She offered her hand to me smiling
I took it and smiled back, in silence
Her hand soft and gentle lay on my own
Then her fine delicate fingers fitted
Between mine like pieces of a puzzle
Placed to fit perfectly, completing
A picture of lost moments found once more
She spoke and opened an eternal door

DREAM LAKE

The dark lake at midnight reflected back
Her own image, she knew this to be her
Bu why was she at the lake at midnight
Why did she not know how she got there?
And why was she naked one the lake shore
A cool breeze blew off the quiet water
It played gently with her auburn curls
Caressing her velvet skin, arousing her
She felt her nipples erect then shivered
But not from the cold, she felt a passion
Welling up within her, a heat she had
Not felt before and may never feel again
Was everything as it appeared to seem
Or was it in fact just a vivid dream

SHE FILLS MY THOUGHTS

She fills my thoughts before I sleep
And she’s there again when I awake

I have given my heart without regret
I gave it to her for my hearts sake

We have found an all-embracing love
If I lost her now my heart would break

THE BREATH OF LIFE

The most wonderful girl
To ever draw the breath of life
How honored I would be
If she agreed to be my wife
We will navigate together
Through adversity and strife
To be parted from her love
Would cut me like a knife
I will take my place beside her
And we will make ourselves a life

The most wonderful woman
To draw the breath of life
How honored I was that she
Agreed to be my wife
We did navigate together
Through adversity and strife
To be parted from her love
Would cut me like a knife
I took my place beside her
And we have made ourselves a life

NO MORE MONOCHROME

Color lives where once was only monochrome
A symphony resounding instead of monotone
Tranquility resides where once the tempest raged
A life both rich and warm like a fine wine aged
A light illuminating what was darkly shrouded
Blue skies prevail when once they were clouded
A world with no more madness as I return to sanity
A life with no more uncertainty only simple clarity
Abiding warmth replacing the chill winters cold
Dormant senses come alive when your hand I hold
Happiness has banished anguish pain and sorrow
Happiness with you yesterday today and tomorrow

UNWELCOME NEWS

At once she understood
When she heard the words
Their meaning clear
And in that instant
Her voice broke
And then in her throat
A lump formed
Behind her eyes
She felt the stinging
And a tear formed
Then rolled down her cheek
Followed by another
Then another
The salt taste was in her mouth
Her shoulders shook
Uncontrollably
And her mouth opened wide
But know sound escaped
Tears continued down her cheeks
And her nose
Then her legs buckled
And she fell to her knees
In total despair
Now the sound came
Uncontrollable
With her love lost
Her heart was broken
With her love betrayed
Her heart was discarded
But with all the weeping
She knew inside
That all her tears
Would never extinguish her love

IN THE FIRST LIGHT OF DAWN

I lie in the first light of dawn
Alone, thinking of her
Wishing her next to me
Feeling her breath
Against my skin
Her breasts
Pressed against me
In the quiet of the new day
Hearing her breathing
I ache for her touch
I long for her soft body
Against mine
In the dawns pale light
And in the darkness
I want her
But she is gone
She is mine no more
Never again will my hands
Caress her form
Never again will I hear
Her murmur and sigh in pleasure
She is mine no more
My angel of the night
Has left my side
And dwells now
With others of her kind

REFRESHED

Laughter rings now
In the once empty caverns
Of my heart
Sweet wine now
Replaces the bitter brew
Which once coursed
Through narrow streams
My senses once dulled by time
Are now sharp, concise
Vision like an eagle soaring
Able to hear the beat
Of a humming birds wings
Nostrils filled with exotic scent
Heady and cloying
Exquisite tastes tantalize
An unsophisticated palate
And the reason
For my transformation
My metamorphosis
Is an angel
Earthbound
Who has energized an old man
Invigorated my senses
She has re-awakened me
Stirred my soul
But she will never know
Must never know
How she has affected me
I will view her from a distance
And exchange polite greetings
A warm smile, A familiar nod
I will keep my own council
And I will feel contentment
My love unrequited

I LOVE HER

I love her with every fibre of me
I love her so much it hurts
I love her in baggy trousers
And I love her in short skirts
I love her when we’re alone
And when we’re with friends
I love her when the day begins
And I love her when it ends
I love her when we’re together
I love her when we’re apart
I love her when we hold hands
And when love making starts
I love her when she’s sexy
I love her when she’s coy
I love her when she makes me mad
And when she brings me joy
I love her at the first caress
And in the afterglow
I love her when we say goodbye
And when we say hello
I love her when she laughs
I love her when she cries
I love her now that I’m alive
And I’ll love her till I die

ONCE MORE

A new beginning
A brand new start
Starting afresh
With a mended heart
Tentative steps
Best foot forward
Opening myself up
Wondering if I should
But I go anyway
Out into the world
Taking a chance again
On another girl
If my heart gets broken
Maybe this time it will die
Even with that at stake
Still I know I must try

THERE’S SOMETHING ABOUT A CELLIST

There’s something about a cellist
That really turns me on
A female cellist obviously
In a low cut evening dress
Of emerald green velvet
The great polished instrument
Between her long black stockined legs
Her long brunette hair
Dancing across her naked shoulders
Brushing her alabaster skin
In frantic rhythm to her playing
Sat in the lavish surroundings
Of a grand hotel lobby
A pale willowy figure called Deidre
Purposefully thrashing out a piece by Elgar
Or music to slash your wrists by
To a disinterested audience
Ok its not cellists that turns me on
But there’s something about Deidre
That definitely does
When she’s playing the cello

Friday 10 August 2018

Another Love Collection

VALENTINES # 1

Lover you still do it for me,
You are still my object of desire
Your qualities are plain to see
And you still light my fire

WIND BLOWN PETALS

Like wind-blown petals
Of spring blossom
The snow fell in gentle swirls
Quickly settling
On the frozen landscape
To delight the boys and girls
Then I kissed a snowflake
Off her wrinkled nose
As more settled on her curls

THE GREATEST LOVE OF ALL WAS OURS

The greatest love of all was ours
I felt I could reach up and touch the stars
As my love was return by my sweetheart
And I knew we would never be apart

VALENTINES # 2

Lover you still do it for me,
With that wiggle when you walk
Your qualities are plain to see
And you still pop my cork

FROM A BOY TO A MAN

I knew I had grown
From a boy to a man
When playing in the snow
With boisterous mates
Held less attraction
Than making snow angels
With a pretty girl

THE BROKEN-HEARTED LONELY GIRL

“There’s a perfect mate for me
Somewhere in the world” she’d say
Having been let down by love
And she was a lonely girl
In between bouts of desperate love
That left her in a whirl
Until she is all consumed and is again
The broken-hearted lonely girl

PERFECT IMPERFECT LOVE

It was a perfect love,
But a secret love,
And it was also tainted,
By deceit and betrayal
Sneaking away for
Illicit rendezvous
In the dead of night
To lay with their lover
Til the break of day,
But neither were free
So that was not perfect
And they knew it was wrong
But they couldn’t stop
For that perfect love
Made them feel so alive
They had found their life’s love
And though they knew
Their love was doomed
And tears would be cried
And hearts broken
They held on to their
Perfect imperfect love
Until the bitter end

VALENTINES # 3

Lover you still do it for me,
Though you now have a fuller figure
Your qualities are plain to see
And you still pull my trigger

IT WAS A CLUMSY COMING TOGETHER

It was a clumsy coming together,
Not a very auspicious start
But no harm done, except to dignity,
As they prized themselves apart
And when they first looked
At their dishevelled counterpart
They liked what they saw
And had left a smile on the others heart

UNDER A BITTER SKY

Beneath the marbled skies
Of broken, fractured cloud
And the myriad of winter hues
Coloured with grays and blues
I waited in the bitter frosty air
Feeling the sting of winters bite
Until the moment I saw you
And warmed instantly by the view

VALENTINES # 4

Lover you still do it for me,
To me you’re lamb and not mutton
Your qualities are plain to see
And you still push my button

IT HAD HAPPENED ONE SUMMER NIGHT

We met at the beach party
On the wide ocean shore
And we danced by moonlight,
As the sea breeze caressed us
It was a magical night
The rapture of the music,
Feeling enraptured by you.
But as special as it was
Dancing with you
On that moonlit beach
It paled to insignificance
Compared to walking
Hand in hand with you
The next day in the sun

HE WAS GOING ON A BLIND DATE

He was going on a blind date
And was in a very nervous state
About meeting someone new
And was not sure what to do
What if he was out classed?
What if she left him aghast?

He panicked when he saw her
Because she was even lovelier
He found after he arrived there
She began talking about a Polar Bear
And she rambled on more and more
Which she eventually apologized for
And laughed at his reaction
And explained the reason for her action
Stating they were converse makers
As Polar Bears were real ice breakers

VALENTINES # 5

Lover you still do it for me,
I’m as ever under your spell
Your qualities are plain to see
And you still ring my bell

ON THE HILL TOP SHE CHOSE TO HIDE

On the hill top she chose to hide
In the home where her parents reside,
Whereas I live down the hillside,
Where my brother and his wife abide.
But though the gulf between us was wide
I still planned to make her my bride

THE DAY I SAID GOODBYE TO HER

The day I said goodbye to her,
Replays constantly in my mind
And it’s a familiar memory
Of the most destressing kind
I have tried to move on but I left
The love of my life behind

VALENTINES # 6

You fill my thoughts before I sleep
And you’re there again when I awake
I have given my heart without regret
I gave it to you for my hearts sake
I have found an all-embracing love
If I lost you my heart would break

FALLING IN LOVE WITH SOMEONE

Falling in love with someone
Can be a blessing and a curse
But when love is reciprocated
It is a prize beyond worth

VALENTINES # 7

Lover, you still do it for me,
Though you are no longer a dolly chick
Your qualities are plain to see
You still scratch my itch and flick my switch

BEYOND QUANTIFYABLE MEASURE

When someone you love
Beyond quantifiable measure
Becomes a memory,
That memory becomes a treasure

WHEN SOMEONE FALLS IN LOVE WITH YOU

When someone falls in love with you
And you with them it is a precious gift
Making every day like Valentine’s Day
Because the gift of love gives you a lift

I MET A LADY THAT LIT MY FIRE

I met a lady that lit my fire
Dressed in beautiful attire
Who I did instantly admire,
And whose heart I did desire,
But knew I would ever acquire

LOVE TIPS THE SCALE

Life is a question of balance
And love tips the scales
Some give a false accounting
But a steady love never fails

VALENTINES # 8

Since entering my life, a symphony plays
When before was only monotone
And colour now lives in every plane and facet
Where once was only monochrome


Friday 8 June 2018

Love Selection

LOVE TIPS THE SCALE

Life is a question of balance
And love tips the scales
Some give a false accounting
But a steady love never fails

UNDER THE CHRISTMAS MOON

Moonlight glinted
On the frozen land
Of the silent vale
Dressed crisply
In winters cloak.
A shooting star
Flashed across the sky
And I made a wish
Nothing profound
Just a simple thing
But immensely special
Because I wished
For a Christmas kiss
With the girl I loved

THE DAY I SAID GOODBYE TO HER

The day I said goodbye to her,
Replays constantly in my mind
And it’s a familiar memory
Of the most destressing kind
I have tried to move on but I left
The love of my life behind

MY PRETTY LITTLE MISS

The first time I met
My pretty little Miss
We needed mistletoe
To share a Christmas Kiss

Now when I meet
With my pretty Miss
We need no artificial aid
For us to share a kiss

And when we meet
And we share a kiss
Every day is Christmas
For me and my little Miss

HE WAS GOING ON A BLIND DATE

He was going on a blind date
And was in a very nervous state
About meeting someone new
And was not sure what to do
What if he was out classed?
What if she left him aghast?

He panicked when he saw her
Because she was even lovelier
He found after he arrived there
She began talking about a Polar Bear
And she rambled on more and more
Which she eventually apologized for
And laughed at his reaction
And explained the reason for her action
Stating they were converse makers
As Polar Bears were real ice breakers

THE GRINCH AND THE ELF

When love was taken from him
He was left bereft, and his heart stopped
And his world was transformed
To a place of ice and snow
Where his cold heart,
Once over flowing with love,
Froze solid in his chest.
So he came to like the winter
With its long cold nights
And short dismal days
He found comfort in the season
And its bitter unfriendly ways
Only Christmas spoiled it for him,
Disrupting his misery,
With its joyous music,
Gaily decorated shops,
And of course its joviality
But then one day out of the blue
As he tried to avoid the jollity
It happened, his heart began to thaw
All because of an Elf
Or to be more precise
A girl in the green tights, pointy shoes,
Brightly coloured tunic and a cute hat
All it took was one smile
For the connection to be made
And she had him body and soul
Although he was unaware
It was a mutual attraction
Because she didn’t show her hand
And played hard to get
She wanted him, but she made him work
To win her, to pursue her
To prove that he was worthy
So it wasn’t until Christmas Eve
That the Elf yielded to the Grinch
And they kissed by the light of the moon
Before attending midnight mass

UNDER A BITTER SKY

Beneath the marbled skies
Of broken, fractured cloud
And the myriad of winter hues
Coloured with grays and blues
I waited in the bitter frosty air
Feeling the sting of winters bite
Until the moment I saw you
And warmed instantly by the view



THE ROOM WAS FULL OF CHRISTMAS

The room was full of Christmas,
Steeped in the essence of the season,
Fragranced with Apple and Cinnamon,
And decorated in festive livery
Fresh cut garlands of evergreens,
Tinsel, candles and coloured lights
And on the peaceful Holy night
With the velvet drapes pulled shut
Against the bitter cold of winter
A perfect couple held each other
In the soft warm glow of firelight
And the cozy room was full of love

FROM A BOY TO A MAN

I knew I had grown
From a boy to a man
When playing in the snow
With boisterous mates
Held less attraction
Than making snow angels
With a pretty girl

UNDER THE CHRISTMAS SKY

Under the Christmas sky
Their breath plumed
In the frost filled air
And the night sky
Sparkled with stars
Like diamonds sewn
To the curtain of night
And they both sighed
Beneath its majesty
And felt so blessed
To be in love beneath
Such a Christmas sky

WIND BLOWN PETALS

Like wind-blown petals
Of spring blossom
The snow fell in gentle swirls
Quickly settling
On the frozen landscape
To delight the boys and girls
Then I kissed a snowflake
Off her wrinkled nose
As more settled on her curls
HOLLY DEAREST

Icicles hang from the gutters
All on the landscape is still
Ice crystals pattern the glass
Snow stands deep on the sill
Curtains drawn against the dark
As a fire roars in the hearth
While my darling lays in my arms
And love burns hot in my heart

HIS COMPLETE POSSESSION WAS BEGUN

His complete possession was begun
With sensuous dreams erotically spun
Of the redhead with soft alabaster skin
And the silk she was contained within

BLACK CHRISTMAS

Now that the one I love is gone
The season has left me bitter
My heart has lost its soulmate
And Christmas has lost its glitter

GRIEVING FOR A LOVED ONE

Grieving for a loved one
Goes hand in glove
Because grief is the price
That you pay for love

Wednesday 28 February 2018

Loving Christmas Linda – The Final Embrace

It was Christmas Eve and the Hartley household in the village of Clerembeax St Giles was decorated for the season.
A large fresh cut tree stood in the corner, perfuming the room and was festooned by a myriad of assorted baubles, ornaments, tinsel and lights.
Christmas cards of all shapes and sizes adorned every surface and more hung on bright red and green ribbons suspended from the picture rails and bright colored Christmas garlands hung gaily, crisscrossing the ceiling.
Outside, through a break in the dark clouds, a shaft of week winter sunlight shone through the window reflecting off the garlands and painted random patterns on the walls and ceiling.
76-year-old Paul Hartley sat watching TV in his favorite armchair in the front room of the house he shared with his wife and soul mate Linda, the woman he loved more than life itself.
Both of them had been married before, but Linda was the love of his life and they had spent 30 years apart before they found each other again, when their own Christmas miracle happened 25 years before.
And as a result of that Christmas miracle they had had 25 years of incredible happiness.
Paul and Linda had made good use of the years they had together to make up for the lost time when they were apart and as a couple they had had the fullest of lives.
Christmas had always held particular significance for them, it was their favorite time of year and had always been so, because their most meaningful moments together happened at Christmas time, finding love together, losing each other, finding each other again, and marrying each other, that’s why Paul called her Christmas Linda.
And because Christmas was so significant to them they did Christmas big and they relished every moment, they would pack away all the ornaments and pictures, and replace them with the festive decorations they had collected over the years, then there would be a houseful on Christmas day and Boxing Day where they shared the celebration with family and friends, and when the festivities were over they would fly off to the sun for a few weeks, just the two of them.
Neither of them could abide the New Year’s holiday so they took themselves away to enjoy each other’s company.
But alas on their 26th Christmas together the season held no joy for Paul, even James Stewart in “It’s a wonderful life” could not lift his spirits and the reason for his gloomy disposition lay in the next room, where the dining table used to stand.
Where they had so many wonderful Christmas dinners, the room full of the happy chatter of good company, the table heaving under the weight of Christmas fare.
But in its place now stood a stark and clinical hospital bed and laying upon it the most precious thing in his life, Linda, surrounded by all the paraphernalia of terminal illness.
Her once vibrant body riddled with inoperable tumors, their evil spread consuming her from within and as the cancer was so far advanced, when it was discovered she refused what little treatment there was on offer and she also stubbornly refused to die in hospital or a hospice.
Linda said she wished to die in the home where she had known such great happiness, so how could he refuse her such a simple wish?
He employed a private nurse who sat with her at night and Paul tended her himself by day and he watched her dying by inches every single day, it seemed to him to be the cruelest of punishments for being so happy.
Paul’s first wife was taken by cancer and that was hard enough to bare.
It was always so hard when someone you love suffers before your eyes, but as much as he loved his first wife and as hard as it was to watch her die, it was nothing compared to the intolerable despair that he felt losing Linda.
She was not only his wife she was his love, his life, his soul mate, she was the one, the love of his life, his Christmas Linda.
He would sit with her and read to her, sometimes Dickens, Stephen King or Tom Sharpe, depending on her frame of mind.
On her brighter days she would have him tell her jokes, she always said he was the only one who could make her laugh.
Her brown hair with its soft curls had long since turned silver and the sparkle was only rarely present in her eyes and the laughter that used to play around them replaced by pain and it was on the morning of that Christmas Eve when Linda told him what she wanted for Christmas.

She was always at her best in the morning but on that morning, she was having a good day so after she had eaten breakfast she asked Paul to pass her the Mahogany filigree jewelry box.
It was a very precious object to her, not valuable in monetary terms, but precious nonetheless, it was the very first Christmas gift he gave her, and she treasured it, and she often told Paul it was her most prized possession, after him.
As he handed it to her she smiled and just for a second there was a glimpse of her loveliness shining through the pain and she patted the bed and bad him sit next to her and as he sat on the bed next to her she took his hand and said quietly.
“I have to say this to you today because I’m having a good day and I don’t know how many good days I’ve got left”
“Don’t be silly” he protested, and she squeezed his hand and then gave him a look which said that he knew very well that she wasn’t.
Linda carefully opened her jewelry box and from a draw within it she took out a neatly folded embroidered handkerchief which she placed on her lap and carefully unfolded it to reveal that inside were a dozen capsules containing her medication.
Linda looked at him with her soulful eyes pleading with him and as the realization of what she was asking sank in Paul violently shook his head.
On her good days she had salted away some of her medication until she now had enough to hasten the end and she squeezed his hand again and said
“Please do this for me”
She explained that she didn’t want him to do it right there and then she just wanted him to agree to do it when the time came, but that that time would be very soon.
“It’s the only gift you can give me this Christmas” Linda asked looking in to his eyes and then he added
“I love you more than anything in the world and I know with all my heart that you love me”
Paul could say nothing as the tears welled up in his eyes.
“Please do this thing for me” she pleaded, and his heart was breaking at the choice he had to make, let her suffer an agonizing conclusion to her life or end her suffering and kill her.
“I just can’t do it” he said through the tears and got up and left the room, she didn’t call after him because she knew he would be back, so with tears streaming down his face he grabbed his coat and went out the front door and went for a walk.
The day was cold, grey and damp and clouds scudded across the December sky and any hint of the promised sunny intervals in the forecast were not in evidence, it was the kind of day that chilled you to the bone, but he didn’t feel the cold at all, he just felt numb.
You had to be alive to feel the cold and he was dying inside, and he walked for miles under the grey skies along the woodland paths they used to walk together, his mind in turmoil his eyes red with tears.
If he did what she wanted he would lose her forever, the loss of her would be devastating, but not to let her go would just be selfish.
Paul’s head was spinning, and he didn’t know which way to turn, images of their happy moments together swam in and out of focus, then as he walked into a clearing in the woods where they once made love on a sultry afternoon, there was a sudden break in the clouds and the woods were bathed in winter sunshine and all at once he knew what he must do and hurried homeward.
When he returned to the house Paul went straight to her bedside where she was sleeping, so he sat in the chair at her bedside and rested his head on the bed beside her then he felt her hand gently stroking his hair.
Paul sat up and her hand moved to his cheek, so he took it in his own paw and kissed it softly and then said
“I’ll do whatever you want me to do”

A week later Christmas had past and he was glad of it, it was without doubt the worst Christmas of his life, full of tears and sadness instead of happiness and laughter
There was no wondrous Christmas feast, no table laden with Christmas delights, no hearty laughter or light-hearted banter, just an endless stream of visitors, friends and family, as cheery as was possible, putting on a brave face as they all came with forced smiles to bring the season’s greetings, but all leaving with tears, knowing that Linda would not see the spring.
Paul tried not to be ungrateful, but every visit ate into the precious time Linda and he had left but he knew how important it was to Linda to see everyone and say goodbye.
Even the doctor called in to make sure she was comfortable and in between visits Paul would sit watching the needles dropping from the tree as if each dropping needle symbolized Linda’s plight.
And as he sat alone in his favorite armchair on New Year’s Eve staring at the pine needles scattered beneath the tree he tried to come to terms with the fact that Linda would die with the old year.
Since Christmas Eve when she made her request of him, Linda had been in good spirits, she had seen everyone in the world that mattered to her and said all the things she needed to say so Linda had decided that morning, that enough was enough.
Paul tried to remain cheerful for her, but she could see through it
“I know you’re hurting too” she said, the pain etched in her face and with that they made their plans for their last day together.

Firstly, Paul phoned the nurse and told her she should have the night off to enjoy the New Year’s Eve celebrations with her family and she was very grateful and accepted his explanation without question.
After that he filled the room with lighted candles and in the flickering light Linda and he spent the evening together looking at photographs and reliving the great times of their life together and played the music that formed the soundtrack of their shared life then an hour before midnight she handed him the folded handkerchief.
He opened it and inside were now close to twenty capsules, and one by one he broke them open and emptied the contents into a wine glass and when he was finished he filled the glass with Port and gave it a stir and put the glass on the bedside table before sitting on the bed.
Paul took her hand and kissed it and leant forward and kissed her mouth and started to say good bye, but she put her hand to his mouth, so he reached over and picked up the glass and held it up to her lips and she took a drink, then a little more and a little more until the glass was empty and he wiped her mouth with the hanky and she burped and then she laughed that wonderful laugh that he loved so much.
The candles sputtered, and the flames flickered and then squeezing his hand she said
“I love you so very much”
“I love you too” Paul said as he sat holding her hand in his and then they just sat in silence looking at each other in the candle light until her eyes closed.
The Village clock began chiming the hour and her hand went limp and her breathing became shallow and then all the pain in her face was suddenly gone as the clock chimed twelve, marking the passing of the old year and unknowingly marked Linda’s passing.
He couldn’t have said how long he sat there holding her dead hand with the tears streaming down his face, but as he sat there he knew what had to be done.
Paul poured himself a large whisky and sat in his favorite armchair where he wrote a long letter explaining what he had done, and what he was about to do.
With the letter written he put it into an envelope and placed it on the mantelpiece where it would be easily found, then he drank his whisky and reached into his pocket and removed the contents, placing them on his lap.
He filled the syringe with the insulin he had stolen from the doctor’s bag the day before and injected himself with the full syringe and as his eyes grew heavy he could feel Linda’s hand on his shoulder and felt her fingers in his hair and as he drifted into a coma she whispered
“I love you” in his ear as his eyes closed.
When they opened again he couldn’t believe what he saw, it was a place that was familiar to him, it was Millmoor as it was more than 50 years earlier and it was snowing, and the street was full of happy smiling people and there among them was Linda, larger than life, vivacious and self-assured covered with snowflakes and laughing.
It was his snow angel, his Christmas Linda with snow covering her like sugar on a doughnut, a delicious confection he would have gladly consumed, wrapped up against the cold in a red woolen hat and coat and a long-knitted scarf draped about her neck.
Still laughing, she shook her head and the light brown hair that hung beneath her hat danced about her shoulders and the snowflakes fell away from her soft curls only to be replaced by fresh ones.
There was a rosy redness on her cheeks almost matching the hue of her coat and she was young again, they were both young again and they had gone back 55 years to the scene of their first embrace.
Linda threw herself at him and she hugged him so tightly and he smelled her hair as he held onto her and was intoxicated by her scent which over whelmed him.
They were stood at the taxi rank and snow fell onto Linda’s soft curls as they took their place in the queue and they kissed.
All too soon a taxi arrived, as it had done 55 years earlier, but this time they both got in and through the winter wonderland they departed, this time never to be parted again.