Wednesday 14 April 2021

WHERE, WHEN AND HOW?

 

Where did it go?
The sense of one
Feeling of togetherness
Of mutuality, symbiosis
Thinking each other’s thoughts
A consciousness shared
Breathing in unison
A single beating heart
Speaking in a single voice

When did it happen?
At what point?
Did we separate?
Torn asunder
Split like an atom
Dissected like conjoined twins
To Breath alone
Stop sharing one heart
Speak for ourselves

How could it be?
When I looked at her with love
A stranger looked back
Independent and solo
Individual and free
Thinking on a different plain
Breathing different air
Heart pulsing with a different beat
Speaking a foreign tongue

IN THE COMPANY OF ANGELS

 

If I am the first to go

I will wait for you in the place

Where the crowns of Angels glow

 

If I go first because I lost the fight

I will be waiting with the Father

Where the tunnel opens into light

 

If I am the first one there

I will await you in lush meadows

Where heady perfume fills the air

 

If I go first and leave you lonely

We will meet again in paradise

In our loved ones company

 

If I am the first to go, allay your fears

I will be waiting in the place

Where there are no more tears

 

If I go before you and we must part

I will wait for you in heaven

Where sweet music soothes the heart

 

If I am first to go we will meet again

In a far better place than this

Where God has banished pain

 

If I go first through the eternal door

You will find me with the angels

Where suffering is no more

 

If I am first to go by days or years

You will find me waiting there

Far beyond this vale of tears

Snippets of Downshire Life – Chance Meeting

 

Frank had planned to meet up with a friend in Purplemere at a restaurant called “La Florenza” but he cancelled at the eleventh hour.

He had already booked himself a room at the Lamb and Flag so as he had already made the journey into town he decided to stick with his plan and make his own amusement.

He began with a mediocre meal at the Chicken Shack and then headed towards the Penguin Bar, where he knew from past experience that he could get a game of darts or pool, but what he wasn’t expecting to see was a familiar face in the shape of an old flame.

 

It happened when he was halfway down his pint and he had to do a double take when he spotted her, she had long straight brown hair the last time he’d seen her and now she had a pixie cut, but her oval face and hazel eyes were unmistakable, and when they made eye contact he was greeted by a radiant smile.

She was short, and her nice little figure hadn’t diminished in the three years since he saw her last,

“Maya? Maya Green?”

“Frank” she said as she walked towards him.

“Hello” he said

“Hi Frank” she responded blushing slightly

“It’s so good to see you”

“You look great” he said “But you always did”

“You haven’t changed a bit” she remarked “you look the same as you did when we last said goodbye”

“You never did phone me” he pointed out

“I didn’t know what to say,” she said in a coy mousy voice.

““Hi Frank, we need to talk” would have sufficed” he said

“It wasn’t that simple” she replied, “And the more time passed by the harder it got”

“I understand” he said having gone through precisely the same thing himself

“I wish I had though” she said and looked at her watch “oh God! I have to go”

“Oh, that’s a shame” he said “Another time maybe”

“Yes maybe” she retorted “I’ve still got your number, bye”

 

He watched her leave and was surprised at how sad that made him feel, and he really hoped that he would see her again, and she was the only thing he thought about for the next 15 minutes until his phone rang.

“Frank Bailey” he said

“Hi Frank, its Maya, we need to talk” she said, and he drained his glass and stood up.

“Where are you?”

“I’m outside” she said and disconnected, so he quickly went to find her.

When he stepped out into the night air he spotted her immediately standing beneath a lamp post, where she was looking down and nervously shuffling her feet.

When he reached her, he lifted her chin, so he could see her eyes, and he noticed a blush on her cheeks and he smiled at her embarrassment as he towered over her diminutive figure and then he leant down and kissed her.

 

HEAVENS GATE

 

Teardrops stain my cheeks

Now my love you’ve gone

Gone to join the angel’s throng

As sad and lonely I live on

 

I am comforted to know

In my sadness and despair

I’m alone but you are with me

As I feel you everywhere

 

With my faith for strength

I wipe my teary eyes

Safe in the knowledge

That no one really dies

 

We will be together again

If my beloved you will wait

Beyond the golden portal

Just through heaven’s gate

 

IN THE FIRST LIGHT OF DAWN

 

I lie in the first light of dawn

Alone, thinking of her

Wishing her next to me

Feeling her breath

Against my skin

Her breasts

Pressed against me

In the quiet of the new day

Hearing her breathing

I ache for her touch

I long for her soft body

Against mine

In the dawns pale light

And in the darkness

I want her

But she is gone

She is mine no more

Never again will my hands

Caress her form

Never again will I hear

Her murmur and sigh in pleasure

She is mine no more

My angel of the night

Has left my side

And dwells now

With others of her kind

TIME ON MY HANDS

 

Time on my hands, so much time on my hands

Remorse and sorrow fill my days

Since she returned the golden band

Time to reflect, so much time to reflect

On the bitter words spoken

Causing tears, I now regret

Long lonely hours, Such long lonely hours

Spent alone with my thoughts

About a sweet love turned sour

Long empty days, such long empty days

Seeing people and places

We had seen in happier ways

Long lonely nights, such long lonely nights

Sadly, waking cold and alone

In the dawns unfriendly light

Time on my hands, so much time on my hands

Spending the hours of my solitude

Trying hard to understand

 


Snippets of Downshire Life – ANZAC Day

 

Donna Harding had enjoyed a successful career in the Downshire Constabulary, due to her diligence and hard work she had reached the rank of Detective Constable.

And had done so largely without regrets but she had arrived in her early thirties with her integrity, looks and figure intact, but she still lived the existence of a singleton.

She had friends a plenty and an abundance of family whom by and large she adored, and she had a romantic interest in her life but she still lived alone and that was because her lover was a woman called Claire, and after a year they had not yet had the courage to announce it to the world, and it was thoughts of Claire that filled her head when she was on the road to Millmoor in late April.

 

Millmoor was in the northeast corner of Downshire and was once a Military town, well actually it was always an army town, until the defence cuts tore out its heart.

Now the quarters had been refurbished and sold to eager would be homeowner’s, the old parade grounds had been dug up and replaced with new shoe-box like dwellings in the modern style and the garages, workshops, barracks and stores buildings were now occupied by small business’s.

Millmoor had however retained the Aerospace Britannia Company which was a huge employer in the area, but the town missed the peripheral business which a military establishment brings to a town so consequently the town of Millmoor was not as prosperous as it had once been, their former Football League club had gone bankrupt and now languished two divisions below their former rivals Abbottsford Town.

Having said all that it was not an unpleasant place to be and the people did not live in abject poverty and it had attracted an influx of newcomers including a sizable community of Australians, and that was why Emma was headed there because she and the rest of the Harding clan were from Australia and it was a big clan.

But seeing Claire was only part of the reason she was on the road to Millmoor with a car full of relatives, one was family and another being ANZAC Day.

 

Donna was a small slim blonde and looked like a breath of wind could blow her over, but despite her diminutive stature she was extremely strong and had whippet like speed and subsequently there was more than one criminal now enjoying “her majesties pleasure” because they underestimated her.

She was travelling in the car with her sister Emma and they were as different as chalk and cheese, Donna was quiet, thoughtful and passive whereas Emma was a fiery character, tall slender and redhaired.

Emma was driving, and her driving style was at best described as exhilarating but to most people it was more terrifying than exhilarating.

In fact, it was too terrifying for most people and Donna was the only person who wasn’t bothered by it but then she was immune to her sisters driving because she was actually worse.

Emma turned the wheel violently to the left and shot across both lanes of the dual carriage way and onto the slip road, sign posted Millmoor; it was a dangerous manoeuvre to attempt at the best of times but when she did it, it was lashing down, and visibility was poor.

After several more stomach-churning manoeuvres Emma indicated and turned into Montgomery road and then right into Churchill Court, where the small, neat houses were arranged in tidy formations like platoons of soldiers on a parade ground and then she screeched the car to a halt, half on the pavement, in front of a small parade of seven shops the middle one being an Indian takeaway

“Ok Donna!” Emma said, “where’s your girlfriend?”

“She’s not my girlfriend she’s just my friend” Donna insisted, and Emma smiled because she knew they were more than just friends, she just wished she’d finally come out of the closet.

From Donna’s point of view there was the added complication of the fact that Claire was a Kiwi and Donna wasn’t sure which thing her family would find more unpalatable the fact that she was Gay or that the girl she was in love with was from New Zealand.

 

Since her divorce Claire lived in a small flat above the Indian, and access was via a door between the takeaway and the betting shop.

“I thought she was going to be ready and waiting”

“She was” Donna said “Something must be wrong”

“Go and get her then” Emma said and turned the engine off

Donna exited the car and hurried across the pavement and when she reached the door, she ran headlong up the stairs which was Emma’s cue to get out of the car.

When Donna reached the top of the stairs, she could see the door was open and there was a lot of shouting and commotion, she couldn’t make out everything that was being said, but it was angry, she recognized that.

She resisted the urge to charge right in and instead she paused to look through the crack in the door and what she saw horrified her, a scruffy unkempt man picked Claire up and threw her across the room, she was a small skinny woman and weighed next to nothing, so it looked like he had just thrown a rag doll, then as she lay on the floor, he kicked her in the ribcage.

Donna took a breath and made her move, fortunately she and Emma had driven to Millmoor straight after their shift ended so she still had her batten in her pocket, so with a swish of her arm it deployed to its full length.

As she entered the room the man was holding Claire by the hair with one hand and punching her with the other and shouting as he did so and with his constant shouting and the sickening sound of his fist on her face, he didn’t hear Donna enter the room.  

When she stood behind him, she struck him hard on the side of his knee which got him down to her level and then she struck him on the side of the head as he turned to look at his assailant and then she punched him square in the face and breaking his nose just as Emma burst through the door.

“Jesus” she said, and Donna signalled to her with her eyes, so she read the assailant his rights and put handcuffs on him while Donna tended to her beaten and bloodied girlfriend.

“Oh my God” Emma said, “is she ok?”

“Can you call for an ambulance?” Donna said

And as Emma ran down the stairs, she heard Donna say

“I’ve got you now babe”

 

The Ambulance and Police arrived together, and the paramedics quickly dealt with Claire and got her on board and Donna went along with her lover, while Emma stayed and gave a statement, and handed over the prisoner to the local officers before making her way to the hospital.

 

Donna was sat in reception at the emergency department when Emma arrived and when she sat down next to her sister and put her arm around her to comfort her, she completely broke down.

“I really love her” she sobbed

“I know” Emma said

“How could you know?”

“Everybody knows” Emma said

“Everybody? But I never told anyone” Donna sobbed

“Not even Claire”

“She knows” Emma responded

“But I’ve never told her” she admitted

“But she still knows”

 

When the police arrived to take Donna’s statements, it was the same two PC’s who Emma had already given her statement to.

“Did you know the man who attacked your friend?” one of the PC’s asked

“My girlfriend” Donna corrected him

“Excuse me?” he asked

“She’s my girlfriend” Donna said, and Emma squeezed her hand, Donna had come out of the closet at last.