Wednesday 1 December 2021

CHRISTMAS LINDA PART 3 - FROM EVE TO EVE

 

Christmas Eve

 

It was Christmas Eve and the house was decorated for the season

A large fresh cut tree stood in the corner and perfumed the room

Adorned by a myriad of assorted baubles and lights 

Christmas cards of all shapes and sizes adorned every surface

And more hung on bright red and green ribbons from the picture rails

Bright colored Christmas garlands hung gaily criss-crossing the sealing

While outside through a break in the dark clouds

A shaft of week winter sunlight shone through the window

Reflecting off the garlands and painting random patterns on the walls

I sat watching TV in my favorite armchair in the front room

Of the house I shared with my wife and soul mate Linda

The woman I loved more then life itself

Both of us had been married before but Linda was the love of my life

We had spent 30 years apart before we found each other again

When our own Christmas miracle happened 20 years ago

And we have had 20 years of incredible happiness together

We had made good use of the years we had together

To make up for the lost time we were apart

And together we had had the fullest of lives

Christmas had always had particular significance for us

It was our favorite time of year and had always been so

Our most meaningful moments together happened at Christmas time

Finding love together, losing each other, finding each other, marrying each other

That’s why I called her Christmas Linda

We did Christmas big and we relished every moment

We would pack away all the ornaments and pictures

Replacing them with festive decorations we had collected over the years

There would be a houseful on Christmas day and Boxing Day

Sharing the celebration with family and friends

Then we would fly off to the sun for a few weeks

Neither of us could abide the New Years holiday

So we took ourselves away to enjoy each others company

But this year the season held no joy for me

Even James Stewart in “It’s a wonderful life” could not lift my spirits

And the reason for my gloomy disposition

Lay in the next room, where the dining table used to stand

Where we had so many wonderful Christmas dinners

The room full of the happy chatter of good company

The table heaving under the weight of Christmas fare

But in its place now stood a stark and clinical a hospital bed

And laying upon it the most precious thing in my life, Linda

Surrounded by all the paraphernalia of terminal illness

Her once vibrant body riddled with inoperable tumors

Their evil spread consuming her from within

The cancer was to far advanced when it was discovered

And she refused what little treatment there was on offer

She also stubbornly refused to die in hospital or a hospice

Saying she wished to die in our home where she had known such happiness

How could I refuse her that simple wish?

We had a private nurse who sat with her at night and I tended her by day

And I watched her dieing by inches every single day

The cruelest punishment for being so happy

My first wife was taken by cancer

And that was hard enough to bare

It’s always so hard when someone you love suffers

But as much as I loved my first wife and as hard as it was to watch her die

It was nothing compared to the intolerable despair I felt losing Linda

She was not only my wife she was my love, my life,

My soul mate, she was the one

I would sit with her and read to her

Sometimes Dickens, Stephen King or Tom Sharpe

Depending on her frame of mind

On her brighter days she would have me tell her jokes

She always said I was the only one who could make her laugh

Her brown hair with its soft curls had long since turned silver

And the sparkle was only rarely present in her eyes

The laughter that used to play around them replaced by pain

And it was on the morning of that Christmas Eve 

When she told me what she wanted for Christmas

She was always at her best in the morning

But on that morning she was having a good day

After she had eaten breakfast she asked me to pass her jewelry box

It was the very first Christmas gift I gave her

She often told me it was her most precious possession, after me

As I handed it to her she smiled and just for a second

There was a glimpse of her loveliness shinning through the pain

She patted the bed and bad me sit next to her

I sat on the bed next to her and she took my hand

“I have to say this to you today because I’m having a good day and

I don’t know how many good days I’ve got left”

I protested that she was being silly, she squeezed my hand

Then gave me a look which said that I knew she wasn’t

She opened her jewelry box and from a draw within

Took out a neatly folded handkerchief which she carefully unfolded

And inside were a dozen capsules containing her medication

She looked at me with her soulful eyes pleading with me

As the realization of what she was asking sank in I shook my head

On her good days she had salted away some of her medication

Until she now had enough to hasten the end 

She squeezed my hand again and said “Please do this for me”

She didn’t want me to do it there and then

She just wanted me to agree to do it when the time came

But the time would be very soon

“It’s the only gift you can give me this Christmas”

She looked in to my eyes and said

“I love you more than anything in the world

And I know with all my heart that you love me”

I could say nothing as tears welled up in my eyes

“Please do this thing for me” she pleaded

My heart was breaking at the choice I must make

Let her suffer or end her suffering and kill her

I said “I just can’t do it” and I got up and left the room

She didn’t call after me she knew I would be back

With tears streaming down my face I grabbed my coat

And went out the door and went for a walk

The day was cold, grey and damp

And clouds scudded across the December sky

Any hint of the promised sunny intervals was not in evidence

It was the kind of day that chilled you to the bone

But I didn’t feel it at all I just felt numb

You had to be alive to feel the cold and I was dieing inside

I walked for miles under the grey skies

Along the woodland paths we used to walk together

My mind in turmoil my eyes red with tears

If I did what she wanted I would lose her forever

The loss of her would be devastating

But not to let her go would just be selfish

My head was spinning I didn’t know which way to turn

Images of the happy moments together swam in and out of focus

Then as I walked into a clearing in the woods

Where once we had made love on a sultry afternoon

There was a sudden break in the clouds

And the woods were bathed in winter sunshine

And all at once I knew what I must do

When I returned to the house I went straight to her bedside

She was sleeping; so I sat on the chair beside her bed

And rested my head on the bed beside her

Then I felt her hand gently stroking my hair

I sat up and her hand moved to my cheek

I took it in my own and kissed it softly and said

“I’ll do what ever you want me to do”

 

New Years Eve

 

Christmas had past and I was glad of it

It was without doubt the worst Christmas of my life

Full of tears and sadness instead of happiness and laughter

There was no wondrous Christmas feast

No table laden with Christmas delights

No hearty laughter or light hearted banter

Just an endless stream of visitors, friends and family

As cheery as was possible, putting on a brave face

All coming with forced smiles to bring the seasons greetings

But all leaving with tears knowing she would not see the spring

I know I sound ungrateful and I’m not really

But every visit ate into the precious time Linda and I had left

I knew how important it was to Linda to see everyone

Even the doctor called in to make sure she was comfortable

And in between visits I would sit watching the needles dropping from the tree

As if each dropping needle symbolized Linda’s plight

And as I sat alone in my favorite armchair on New Years Eve

Staring at the pine needles scattered beneath the tree

I tried to come to terms with the fact that Linda would die with the old year

Since Christmas Eve when she made her request

Linda had been in good spirits

She had seen everyone in the world that mattered to her

And said all the things she needed to say

So Linda had decided that morning that enough was enough

I tried to remain cheerful for her but she could see through it

“I know you’re hurting too” she said the pain etched in her face

And with that we made our plans for our last day together

I phoned the nurse telling her she should have the night off

To enjoy the celebrations with her family

She was very grateful and accepted my explanation without question

I filled the room with lighted candles and in the flickering light

Linda and I spent the evening together looking at photographs

And reliving the great times of our life together

We played the music that formed the soundtrack of our lives

Then an hour before midnight she handed me the folded handkerchief

I opened it and inside were now close to twenty capsules

One by one I broke them open emptying the contents into a wine glass

I filled the glass with Port and gave it a stir

And I put the glass on the bedside table before sitting on the bed

Then I took her hand and kissed it and lent forward and kissed her mouth

I started to say good bye but she put her hand to my mouth

Then I reached over and picked up the glass

And held it up to her lips and she took a drink

Then a little more and a little more until the glass was empty

I wiped her mouth with the hanky and she burped

And she laughed that wonderful laugh

The candles sputtered and the flames flickered

Then she said “I love you so very much” squeezing my hand

“I love you too” I said as I sat holding her hand in mine

And then we just sat in silence looking at each other until her eyes closed

The Village clock began chiming the hour

Her hand went limp and her breathing became shallow

And then all the pain in her face was suddenly gone

The clock chimed twelve marking the passing of the old year

And also unknowingly marked Linda’s passing 

I don’t know how long I sat there holding her dead hand

With the tears streaming down my face

But as I sat there I knew what had to be done

I poured myself a large whisky and sat in my favorite armchair

Where I wrote a long letter explaining what I had done

And what I was about to do

With the letter written I put it into an envelope

And placed it on the mantelpiece where it would be easily found

Then I drank my whisky and reached into my pocket

And removed the contents placing them on my lap

Then I filled the syringe with the insulin I had stolen from the doctor’s bag

And injected myself with the full syringe

And as my eyes grew heavy I could feel Linda’s hand on my shoulder

And felt her fingers in my hair as I drifted into a coma

And she whispered “I love you” in my ear as my eyes closed

When my eyes opened again I couldn’t believe what I saw

It was a place that was familiar to me and it was snowing

And the street was full of happy smiling people

And there amongst them was Linda larger than life, vivacious and self assured

Covered with snowflakes and laughing

My snow angel, my Christmas Linda

With snow covering her like sugar on a doughnut

Wrapped up against the cold in a woolen hat and coat

And a long knitted scarf draped about her neck

She shook her head and her light brown hair danced about her shoulders

And the snowflakes fell away from her soft curls

Only to be replaced by fresh ones

There was a rosy redness on her cheeks and she was young again

We were both young again and we had gone back 50 years

She threw herself at me and hugged me tightly

I smelled her hair as I held her and was intoxicated by her scent

We were stood at the taxi stand and snow fell onto Linda’s soft curls

We took our place in the queue and we kissed

All too soon a taxi arrived but this time we both got in

And through the winter wonderland we departed this time never to be apart again

I WATCHED A SNOW FLAKE MELT

Chestnuts roasting in the fire

The smell of cinnamon in the air

I watched a snow flake melt

On her beautiful auburn hair

As we held hands in the soft light

Of the Christmas candle glow

And I kissed my first love

Beneath a sprig of mistletoe

WIND BLOWN PETALS

 

Like wind-blown petals

Of spring blossom

The snow fell in gentle swirls

Quickly settling

On the frozen landscape

To delight the boys and girls

Then I kissed a snowflake

Off her wrinkled nose

As more settled on her curls

Tuesday 30 November 2021

Tales from the Finchbottom Vale – (41) You can take it with you

 

The Finchbottom Vale nestles comfortably between the Ancient Dancingdean Forest to the south and the rolling Pepperstock Hills in the north, those who are lucky enough to live there think of it as the rose between two thorns.

The Vale was once a great wetland that centuries earlier stretched from Mornington in the East to Childean in the west and from Shallowfield in the south to Purplemere in the north.

But over the many centuries the vast majority had been drained for agriculture, a feat achieved largely by the efforts of famous Mornington Mills, of which only three had survived to the present day and even those were no longer functional and were in various states of repair.  

There were only three small bodies of water left in the Vale now one in Mornington, one in Childean and third of course was Purplemere.

And in Purplemere 29 year old Nerissa Lopez worked behind the delicatessen counter at Stephenson’s Supermarket

She was quite a shy girl who had a gentle nature and almost always wore a warm open smile on her face and she was popular with staff and customers alike.

Nerissa was a very slim and attractive girl with beautiful long dark brown hair and dark skin, reflecting her heritage as did her brown eyes.

In her ancestry she had Filipino and Spanish blood but she was born and bred in Britain and had no family ties with either country or even in Britain for that matter.

She was the only child of parent who themselves were only children and both of them were gone now.

So she was all on her own and she lived alone in a small one bedroom flat about a mile from where she worked.

You might wonder why a lovely friendly girl with a slim figure blessed with a personality that was equally as lovely as her smile, living alone in a dingy one bedroom flat.

It was certainly something she often wondered.

She lived in a small block of flats called Gladstone Court in Flat 2b.

Her next door neighbour in flat 2a was 32 year old Harry Devonshire, he though had the luxury of a larger two bedroom flat in which to live alone in, courtesy of a failed relationship some eight years earlier.

Unlike Nerissa his heritage was strictly British and he did have living family, two brothers in fact, unfortunately they were both living in Australia so he hadn’t seen either of them for over 5 years.

Harry also worked at Stephenson’s where he was the warehouse manager.

 

Nerissa and Harry were best friends and did everything together, if either of them was invited anywhere the other was always their plus one.

Equally if one of them wanted to see a film or try out a new restaurant the other would accompany them, in fact they were so often seen together people assumed they were a couple.

It would not have been an exaggeration to say that they loved each other but their relationship was strictly platonic and their friendship had been since forever and they were close almost to the point of symbiosis.

Coworkers at the store used to think their relationship was almost comic, when they seemed to know what the other was thinking and even finished each other’s sentences, Harry and Nerissa just got each other and their thoughts and desires remained quite esoteric.

 

Harry and Nerissa’s all-consuming purpose in life, their primary objective, their ultimate goal, was finding life partners, in particularly a serious romantic relationship, soul mates if possible.

But their frantic search for love remained fruitless, though not for the want of trying.

They tried online dating, blind dates set up by friends or colleagues, they frequented clubs, virtually every pub in Purplemere and a number outside of it and out of sheer desperation, speed dating.

But all their efforts were to no avail and as a result of their considerable efforts they had both kissed more than their fair share of frogs along the way and neither of them knew why they hadn’t struck gold, in fact they couldn’t explain their lack of success.

Nerissa couldn’t understand why a good looking, gentle and kind man like Harry was unattached and he couldn’t fathom why on earth a gorgeous woman like her was still single, or why suitors weren’t cued around the block to ask her out.

But regardless of their continual failure the search for love went on.

 

On one particularly bitterly cold Friday night towards the end of October they were walking home from work but Nerissa was being unusually quiet as Harry prattled on endlessly about the arrival of the first of the Christmas stock into the warehouse.

“I might have to cancel Christmas this year” she said completely out of the blue

“Why?” Harry asked

“My rents gone up again” she said “and I’ve just got my Gas and Electric bills”

“Well look on the bright side” he said trying to cheer her up “You might have found Mr. Right by Christmas”

“I’m afraid I’ll have to put looking for him on hold as well” Nerissa said sadly as they arrived at the front doors of the flats “And I’ll have to break into my savings just to get through the winter”

Harry didn’t know what to say to that and they walked upstairs in silence and when they got to their floor he said

“Right you go and get changed and I’ll get the supper on”

“I think I’m just going to have a bath and get an early night” she replied 

“Are you sure?” Harry asked “Well at least come in and have a glass of wine and we can talk it through”

“That’s kind of you but yes I’m sure babe” She insisted “I’ll probably be fine after a good night’s sleep”

“Ok Hon” Harry said and kissed her cheek “I’ll see you in the morning then”

 

Nerissa stepped inside and closed the door behind her and took off her coat and shoes but once she was in her slippers she decided to skip the bath and went straight to bed instead where she cried herself to sleep.

And while Nerissa sobbed uncontrollably into her pillow Harry had already decided to forgo supper and opened a bottle of red wine instead and by the time he was draining the last drop from his glass and the bottle was empty, he had thought of the solution to Nerissa’s financial problems.

 

The next morning he was up very early, and considerably brighter than he should have been after polishing off a bottle of Chianti on his own.

He showered and shaved and then he went out, his first port of call was Addison’s bakery in Convent Road where he picked up some fresh croissants and then on to Labuschagne in the high street for two expensive coffee’s.

 

As he returned to Gladstone Court he could see the lights were on in her flat so when he reached the door to flat 2b, he rang the bell confident that she was up and about.

After a minute or two she opened the door looking like she hadn’t slept in a week.

“Come on sleepy head, croissants and coffee” Harry said ignoring the fact that she looked like death.

“Not for me Harry” she said

“No to croissant?” he said and put his hand to his chest as if he was having a heart attack.

“Not today” she said

“I won’t take no for an answer, so get your dressing gown on and follow me” he ordered her realizing the instant he said it that he sounded really camp. 

Reluctantly, though and not with a happy heart, she did as he instructed and followed him into his flat.

“Do we have to do this this morning?” she asked “I really don’t feel up to it today”

“Yes we do need to do it now” Harry said firmly “and when you’ve heard what I have to say you’ll understand why”

“Ok give me some coffee” she said resignedly

After he had poured the Labuschagne coffee’s from the ghastly paper containers and into two proper mugs he sat down and began his spiel.

“I think I have a solution to your problem”

“Oh yes? And what might that be exactly” she said doubtfully

“I think you should give up your flat and move in here with me” he said

“What?” Nerissa asked scarcely believing her ears

“Give up your flat and move into my spare room” he elaborated

“But that’s a ridiculous idea” she said

“Is it?” Harry said

“Well isn’t it? Nerissa asked back

“Look we eat together most nights, we watch TV together most nights” he explained

“Most of the time you only use your flat as a bedroom and dressing room anyway”

“Yes but” she interrupted

“And my spare room is almost as big as your whole flat” Harry added

“Yes I know that, but” she persisted “But what will people think?”

“People won’t think anything” he said “This is the 21st century after all, and as I said you’re here more often than not as it is”

“I don’t know” she said doubtfully

“Look hon, it will be perfect, I’ll continue to pay the rent and we can split the bills for the utilities and food etc.” Harry concluded

“Well I…” she began

“And here’s the clincher, with the money we both save we might finally get that holiday we’ve always talked about” Harry said

“Greece?” she asked

“Greece” he replied

“Ok, you’ve convinced me” she agreed “now give me a croissant”

 

Harry and Nerissa had often talked about taking a holiday abroad, not that they ever thought that they’d actually achieve it, it was planned more in a fanciful way, a fantasy really.

The prospect of foreign travel occupied their thoughts quite a lot as neither of them had been abroad before or even owned a passport for that matter.

At first they spoke in general terms about just going away but over the years they had narrowed their search for an actual destination and had finally decided on Greece as the destination for their dream getaway, or more precisely a Greek Island.

The particular Greek island was at the time unspecified as of that moment when Harry invited Nerissa to move in with him, their only stipulation was that it mustn’t have its own airport.

The reasoning for that was that it would limit the number of binge drinking lager louts if the travel itinerary was more complicated.

 

Nerissa went back to her flat after coffee and croissants and had a little cry once the door closed behind her, but unlike the bitter tears of despair she shed the night before these were tears of happiness. 

After a hot shower and a quick tidy around her flat she went back to Harry’s.

So around midmorning they were sat in his flat looking through a stack of old holiday magazines.

When Nerissa asked out of the blue

“Are you sure?”

“Sure about what hon?” he replied

“Me moving in here” she said

“Never more so” Harry said and then he leant over and kissed her forehead before asking

“So have you seen anything you fancy?”

“Andros” she replied instantly and handed him the magazine.

“Well that was very definite” he said and after reading the full article in detail he replied

“Andros it is then”

Harry got up and switched on his laptop and went online, he typed in the address and navigated around until he found the relevant page.

“Here we go” he said and Nerissa moved closer.

“It will be cheaper if we go before the School summer holidays”

“June” Nerissa said “that will give us more time to save, and we’ll get our Easter bank holiday pay in May”

“Ok” he said “two weeks in June”

“Two weeks?” she asked “Are you sure we can we afford two weeks?”

“Absolutely” he said pointing at the figure on the screen.

“Oh” she said as he “Two weeks in June for us then”

He entered his details in the form and picked up his wallet from the table, entered his credit card number and hit the button.

“Booked” he said

“We’re really going then aren’t we?” she said and giggled.

“Yes Indeed” Harry concurred “We are taking our search for love and romance on the road, so to speak”

It was actually more like a train, a plane, a coach, two ferries and a bus but “Romance on the road” was near enough.

“Hooray” Nerissa yelled and danced around.

“Let’s open a bottle to celebrate” Harry suggested

“Let’s not” she said “Lets save the money and open one in Andros instead”

“Damn you’re so sensible” Harry said

 

On Monday morning Nerissa gave notice on flat 2b and over the following month she completed the move into Harry’s flat.

This involved helping him clear the spare room and redecorating it to her taste.

They then had to decide what she would take from the old flat and what would have to be dumped or sold.

She and Harry then gave her flat a thorough clean and they were rewarded for all their hard work by the return of her deposit in full which meant she could clear her bills and put the remainder straight into the holiday fund.

 

As of the 30th of November she was properly moved into the spare room and there was no turning back because the day after a new tenant moved in to her old flat.

 

As a result of the holiday being booked the pair of them had to become quite boring and put on hold any hopes or expectations of finding Mr. or Miss Right as their focus was one hundred percent on the holiday and saving every penny towards it.

 

The decorations went up promptly on the first of December which was Nerissa’s first official day as a tenant and that Christmas they had twice the decorations to put up so they went mad.

The run up to Christmas was very profitable for them and added extra money to the holiday coffers as they picked up extra shifts due to the age old tradition of seasonal panic buying by the Purplemere residents.

They also restricted their spending on entertainment by only attending certain festivities, like staff parties and such like, and by cutting back on buying Christmas gifts.

This was a difficult decision as they were both huge Christmas fans and liked to make the most of the season but their new maxim was “needs must”.

What they didn’t stint on during the festive season though were the festive services at St John’s Church from the first Sunday of advent to Christmas morning.

 

After attending St Johns for the morning service on Christmas day they really pushed the boat out when they got back to the flat, despite having spent a pittance.

They bought the damaged or reduced items wherever possible and used their staff discounts on the rest and as a result they had a sumptuous feast for virtually nothing.

“Well that was very indulgent” Harry said as they sat on the sofa after dinner.

“Very” Nerissa said and burped

They both laughed and Harry patted his stomach and said

“I don’t know why I’m laughing this belly isn’t going to look great with my speedos on the beach”

“Damn I hadn’t thought of that” Nerissa said and patted her own tummy and burped again.

When they exchanged presents they both had novelty chocolates and one main present each.

Harry bought Nerissa a small Gold crucifix and she bought him a Gold tie pin engraved with his name.

 

On New Year’s Eve, which was normally a night when they would hit the town hard, they spent that New Year’s Eve at home where they saw in the New Year quietly watching the meagre offerings that the television had to offer and when Big Ben chimed they toasted the New Year with a glass of cheap fizz.

But on New Year’s Day they were fit to work and did a shift and a half at double time which mightily swelled the holiday fund.

 

The remainder of January was a hard and depressing month, the decorations were packed away and as a result of them having double the amount of decorations up in the first place the flat looked exceptionally bare.

Then the weather turned bitter cold and prolonged periods of snow followed and it was a long 5 weeks until payday.

The January depression was made all the worse by not being able to go out and enjoy themselves but staying in meant no expensive treats like takeaways and alcohol.

 

However Nerissa came up with a plan to enable them to out without them spending a penny and furthermore her plan would add money to the pot.

They picked up the odd evening and weekend shift at the Worsted Viper Hotel.

Nerissa waited tables in the restaurant and Harry worked behind the bar.

And every hour they worked there meant more money to spend on their holiday or to buy clothes for it and it helped them to get through a difficult month.

When their January pay day did eventually arrive they paid the bills and applied for their passports and totted up their savings.

 

February brought yet more bitter cold and more snow but no valentine cards save for the joke ones they gave each other, it also brought more shifts at Worsted Viper and more importantly a much quicker payday.

 

March followed which brought an end to the cold and the snow and the produced the first hints of spring.

It also brought Easter and the long holiday weekend which was another chance for them to earn extra money which would be in their pockets in time for the holiday.

But following the spring like March, April brought nothing but rain, rain and more rain in fact the only bright spot of the month was the arrival of the passports.

 

May however was a horse of a different colour, the weather was milder and the days were sunnier and they were only one payday away from their holiday and when they had their pay slips it was time to do a final tally.

Harry got his laptop and opened the spreadsheet and entered the figures and totaled up the columns while Nerissa looked on nervously.

“Well?” she asked “is it enough?”

“You tell me” he said and showed her the screen “this is what’s left after the holiday is paid for”

“It can’t be that much” she said “Check it again”

“I’ve checked it three times already”

“Does that mean we can go shopping then?” she asked

“That’s precisely what it means” he replied and two days later Harry and Nerissa went on an all-day shopping trip to Abbottsford including a long leisurely lunch in the Phoenix Shopping Centre.  

And a couple of weeks later they packed their cases and they were all set for Andros.

 

The first week of June was tortuously long but the day finally arrived and they got a cab to the station at the crack of dawn and got on the first train out of Purplemere.

They were so eager to get on their way that they arrived at the airport two hours earlier than they needed to.

Harry had only been to the airport before to either drop someone off or pick someone up, Nerissa on the other hand had never been to an airport before in her life.

They were so excited about actually going on holiday, and to Greece of all places, that they didn’t care that they had two extra hours to kill, so the pair of them just wandered around and soaked up the vibe.

Harry and Nerissa didn’t care about the crowds or the queue’s the extortionate prices in the cafes, they were determined to enjoy every minute of it as they had no idea when or if they would do it again.

 

When they eventually got on the plane and stowed their bags they settled themselves into their seats and then both of them sat very quietly and for the first time that day their overwhelming feeling was not of excitement.

Neither Harry nor Nerissa had flown before and as a result the two of them were quite scared but neither of them wanted to mention it to the other.

It was basically a fear of the unexpected rather than of impending doom but as the plane raced down the runway they held hands.

Once the plane was airborne they soon relaxed and enjoyed the rest of the flight to Athens and the nervousness was once again replaced by excitement.

 

The anxiety did return briefly when the seat belt light went on and the captain began his decent but it was short lived but they did hold hands again just in case and as the wheels touched down Nerissa said

“We have arrived” and then she giggled.

However even once they had landed in Athens and disembarked, they were still a long time and a long way from their final destination.

Firstly they had to wait half an hour for their luggage and after they had claimed their bags then when they had rendezvoused with the holiday rep there was a further 30 minute wait for a coach.

The coach trip then took a similar duration to drive them to the docks where they boarded a ferry.

On board the boat they had to wait a further 40 minutes before the ferry departed on a journey which took two hours to carry them across the Aegean to the Island of Andros in the Cyclades.

To the seasoned travelers among the passengers, the journey would have been very tedious indeed but to Harry and Nerissa being novices at foreign travel, they didn’t mind it a bit as they saw everything about the journey as a great adventure that they would remember forever and on the journey they were rewarded for their patience by the appearance of a pod of porpoises who escorted them across the azure blue Aegean sea.

This bonus they took as a good omen for the holiday ahead.

When the ferry docked on the Island they were met by another holiday rep and another bus that took them on a 20 minute journey to the village of Batsi.

 

As Nerissa and Harry walked into their apartments they had travelled for a total of 12 hours door to door but they thought it would all be worth it when they met the person of their dreams.

 

On the afternoon of their first day they had an orientation meeting with their tour rep who gave them all the spiel about the resort and handed out information on places of interest, transport timetables, day trips and local entertainment.    

However the two of them were less interested in the talk than they were in their fellow tourists as they were looking for suitable candidates for romance in the sun.

But as they scanned each and every face in the assembly they noticed that there appeared to be no singles present.

Although Harry and Nerissa both noticed independently they chose to keep their discoveries to themselves.

However over the next 24 hours they both came to the conclusion that they had come to the wrong resort for romance because the other visitors, without exception, were already paired up and presumably loved up.

 

Over an Al fresco breakfast on the waterfront the next morning, as they sat in the fresh morning air at a quayside café it was Nerissa who broached the subject.

“Have you noticed they’re all couples?” she asked

“Yes I have” he replied

“We’re not going to find them here are we?” she asked

By “Them” she meant their soul mates, their perfect other halves, Mr. or Miss Right.

“I’m afraid not” he agreed

“So what do we do now?” Nerissa asked

“Now we just have fun and enjoy our hard earned holiday” Harry said and so they resigned themselves to the fact that they were not going to find who they were looking for and decided they should just enjoy every minute of their holiday instead, they had after all worked hard enough for it.

 

With their search for love over, they spent a lot of time on the beach or in the water, or alternatively on a boat and when they weren’t close to the sea they were in the bars and Taverna’s.

So they filled every possible moment of the holiday with fun and laughter, walking along the beach together playing in the waves and having fun, before finding a quiet sheltered spot or a shady tree to siesta under.

They also took day trips to Tinos and the Church of Panagia Evangelistria and visited the monastery of Agia Zoodochos Pighi and to Andros town of course.

Evening entertainments included cocktails at the Koala bar,
Nightcaps at the Paradise Club, Greek dancing, Beach BBQ’s and a Greek night of local cuisine and drink.

 

But most of all they spent their time in or near the water and one of their favourite spots was a narrow stretch of beach, north of Batsi at Agia Marina with its own beach side Taverna run by a colourful old character called Stavros where they often had lunch.

He was an elderly man with deeply wrinkled skin the colour of tanned leather and when Harry introduced him to Nerissa he said,

“Oh what a lovely name, Nerissa means goddess of the sea you know?”

Harry thought that might make her big headed but Nerissa blushed.

Mind you when Harry watched Nerissa walk out of the water wearing her yellow one piece swimsuit he could see what Stavros meant.

 

As the holiday drifted amiable into the second week they continued in the same vein and any casual onlookers could have been forgiven for thinking that Harry and Nerissa were in fact a couple, they behaved like a couple in almost every respect and a happily married couple at that.

Every evening the pair dined together happy in each other’s company but unknown to everyone around them, they slept alone.

 

One day the beaches on their side of the island was covered in dead jelly fish, each translucent disk was roughly the size of a dinner plate.

Apparently June was the spawning season for jelly fish and having spawned out at sea, they promptly died and drifted in to shore and then two days later drifted back out to sea on the tide never to be seen again.

One afternoon Harry was lying on his stomach on the beach snoozing off his lunch and Nerissa picked up a dead jelly fish from the lapping waves and from a height of four feet, dropped it squarely in the middle of Harry’s back.

“What the hell” he yelled and looked over his shoulder to see Nerissa wearing a pink bikini, almost wetting herself with laughter.

“Oh” he said “I suppose you think that was funny?”

“Oh yes” she confirmed and laughed even harder

“Right that’s it” Harry said scrambling to his feet

Nerissa, still laughing like a drain turned and ran down the beach with Harry hot on her heals holding a jelly fish freshly plucked from the waves.

Her laughter quickly turned to squeals as he chased her and she ran about a hundred yards before she fell over in the lapping water and as she lay on her back in the wet sand. 

Harry, with great delight, dropped the jelly fish on her exposed belly.

Nerissa screamed in disgust and it was Harrys turn to laugh.

 

Later that evening as the sun was setting, the sultry air was heavy with the scent of oregano as they sat on the terrace of the Medusa Taverna accompanied by the familiar symphony of evening birdsong Nerissa said

“It’s been another lovely day”

They had ordered their dinner and were just enjoying an aperitif, the cracking of ice cubes was clearly audible in their Gin and tonics.

“It really has” he said and they chinked glasses

 

After dinner and the best part of two bottles of wine and a hilarious reliving of the afternoons jelly fish escapades the subject of the conversation took a familiar turn.

“Of course there is one thing that could have made today even better” Nerissa said

“And what’s that?” Harry asked before draining his glass

“Our perfect partners” she replied

“Oh yes, I’d forgotten about that” he said

“Of course it would help if we could recognize them if we saw them”

“Well yes that would help” Nerissa concurred “But I don’t think they’re on the Island anyway”

“If they were I don’t think I would have noticed” Harry said “I’ve been having too much fun”

 

As they sat on the terrace of the Medusa Taverna after having had a lovely meal and perhaps too much wine Harry thought Nerissa looked lovely.

And on that night he was particularly pleased to see she was wearing the gold crucifix he had bought her for Christmas.

After a short while the perennial subject of their perfect partners had come up again in their conversation. 

“Ok then” he said “do you have pen?”

He already knew the answer, Nerissa always had at least three pens in her bag.

She fished in her bag and produced one.

“So what is your ideal?” he asked

“What do you mean?” she replied with a puzzled expression

“What would you want in a partner?” he elaborated

“Tell me what qualities you are looking for and we’ll make a check list”

“Oh I see, ok” she said “Well the usual I suppose”

“Let’s write them down then” Harry said and using a napkin he headed the list “The perfect other half”

“Someone I can trust” she said

“Dependable” he wrote followed by “trustworthy”

“Someone who shares my values and my faith” she added

Harry wrote “Christian” and “Moral compass”

“Someone who makes me laugh and laughs with me” Nerissa said

“Good sense of humour” he wrote

“Someone who loves me, and will cherish me” she said

He wrote “Caring” and “Romantic”

“Someone who will be there for me” she said “whenever I need them”

“A friend” he put

“Someone who listens to me and understands me” she added

“And who values me”

Harry thought for a moment before writing

“A confidant, kindred spirit” and for good measure “Open and honest”

“Someone I can grow old with” she said “who will want to grow old with me”

Harry wrote “Soul mate”

Nerissa was silent for a moment as she gave it some more thought and then said

“That will do I think”

Harry took another drink and then read down the list and his brow furrowed.

He read each item and mused over it, added the occasional word to it, and muttered under his breath as he studied it and in the end, after what seemed to Nerissa like an age, he nodded his assent. 

“Are you ok?” she asked with concern

“I agree with every single one of those” he said

“Good” she replied

“And furthermore I know the person who has all of those qualities and more” he added

“Really?” she said open mouthed

“Who?”

“You Nerissa” Harry said

“What?” she asked

“It’s you” he said “you tick every single box on this list, you are my perfect other half”

“Don’t be daft” she said

He didn’t say anymore but handed her the napkin.

Nerissa took it from him, and started reading down the list of her suggestions and his additions and was very thoughtful for a few moments and then she went down the list in front of her again.

“You’re right” she said finally “you are the perfect other half of me”

Knowing smiles were exchanged and then they sat in silence as a confused turmoil raged inside them and thoughts raced in and out of focus.

 

Harry and Nerissa sat in silence on the terrace of the Medusa Taverna after the startling revelation that they were each other’s “perfect other half” and as they sat in silence a confused turmoil raged inside them and thoughts raced in and out of focus.

“More wine sir?” the waiter asked breaking in on their silent deliberations.

“Absolutely” Nerissa said and returned to her thoughts.

Both of them shared the same thoughts and were afraid, afraid to take a chance, afraid of being wrong, afraid of getting hurt but most of all afraid of losing their best friend in the whole world.

The wine came and they drank in silence as they continued their internal struggle, until in a moment of perfect clarity Nerissa looked at Harry and smiled as it dawned on her that they had come to Andros looking for love but the romance they had searched for wasn’t on the island at all, they had brought it with them.

And when Harry saw her smiling countenance he was immediately entranced and all his doubts melted away and the deep passion for her, that he had always harbored subconsciously, stirred within him and rose to the surface.

Her inner beauty exposed Harry reached his hand across the table and Nerissa took it.

“All this time I was looking for Miss Right and she was there right under my nose”

Harry mused

“Living next door” She added

“Living in my spare room even” Harry corrected her

It was a miracle finding their heart’s desire so close at hand.

“How could we have been so blind?” Nerissa asked as she caressed his hand.

“Love is blind” Harry replied

“Yes” she agreed “yes it is”

Neither of them could comprehend how it was possible that they were both so short sighted.

He had always thought she was lovely but now Harry’s feelings for her were of love for his soul mate who lived in his spare room.

 

On the moonlight walk back to the apartment’s they were holding hands and drinking in the heady atmosphere of the night, not wishing to forget a single second of it and when they reached her door they kissed for the first time and it was a kiss that made the hairs stand up on the back of their necks and their skin tingle from head to toe.

“That was a first kiss to remember” Nerissa said and giggled

“Let’s try number two” Harry suggested and she obliged

“Wow” Nerissa said after kiss number two

“I think we should sit down for a minute”

“I think so too” Harry said

Nerissa walked a few feet and sat on the wall and Harry sat next her, she immediately leant in to him and rested her head on his shoulder and he put his arm around her.

So they sat there quietly in the moonlight, their hearts filled with a new found love and their minds awash with previously undreamt of possibilities.

Nerissa kissed Harry once more and it was the equal of its predecessors.

But as much as they wanted each other in that moment they resisted the desire until their minds were clear and their desires not fueled by cheap wine and Gin and tonics.

So they reluctantly said goodnight and slept alone.

Though neither of them actually slept.

 

Harry and Nerissa were both up and about early the next morning all though in truth they hadn’t really gone to bed.

However both of them had made independent decisions on their futures.

The quandary was, had they both made the same one.

There were three possibilities, and two of which could cost them their friendship forever.

Harry was sitting on the terrace drinking his coffee when Nerissa appeared looking beautiful.

Harry smiled and stood up to greet her but remained frozen to the spot so she returned his smile and said 

“Hello soul mate”

The relief Harry felt in that moment was palpable.

He found he was able to move again and he stepped forward and scooped her up in his arms and said.

“Hello, my perfect other half” 

And then he kissed her as he had the night before, without the aid of alcohol, and the feeling was just the same, no that wasn’t true it was actually better.

 

Their complete and utter surrender to each other came later that afternoon when they made love for the very first time when loves consummated passions reached the ecstatic heights of fulfillment.

 

To the untrained eye the remainder of the holiday appeared to go much the same way as the days before their epiphany.

Harry and Nerissa still appeared as if they were a couple, as they behaved like a couple, a happily married couple.

Every evening the pair dined together happy in each other’s company but now unknown to everyone they did sleep together.

Harry and Nerissa had gone to the Cyclades in search of love and romance and it turned out they had actually taken it with them.

 

All too soon they were on the ferry heading away from the northern most isle in the Cyclades, and looked back at Andros, bathing in warm sunshine, the hills and valleys, the groves and vines and painting the hillsides in differing hues.

They would miss the place and its warm hearted people, the scent of herbs on the warm night air, the culture, the food, the warm sun, the blue sea and the golden sand and the soft sea breezes.

But most of all they would miss it because it would forever be the place where they fell in love.

Harry and Nerissa stood at the stern of the ferry, for one last look across the Aegean as Andros faded from view.

“Will we ever come back” Nerissa asked with a tear in her eye

“Oh yes definitely” Harry replied “On our honeymoon”

And in response Nerissa turned and she kissed him.