Wednesday, 21 July 2021

A PORT IN A STORM

Is it too much to ask

For my love to be returned

Just one simple gesture of warmth

That is all I’ve yearned

 

A burning passion is hoped for

Though in truth not expected

A heartfelt acknowledgement

But no heart has been detected

 

Drifting in and out of my life

As if I’m a convenient respite

Then when interest wanes

I am again alone in the night

 

Each bland uncaring rebuff,

Is another dagger to my heart

My love is treated with apathy

But I miss it when we’re apart

 

I chastise my self for my weakness

For accepting it and making do

I deserve better than this

I deserve a love that’s honest and true

 

I have paid all my dues

I have paid in like an endowment

Never made a withdrawal

Still there is no return on my investment

 

Now my will to continue is gone

As I am left once more Forlorn

I pray for my anguish to be at an end

Like a bird impaled upon a thorn

GONE ARE THOSE JOYFUL DAYS

Gone is that joyful day

When we stood before God

Humble in his blessed presence

And we were joined as one

Everything ahead of us

 

Gone are those joyful days

Full of love and laughter

Days of tender moments

And heady nights of passion

Everything ahead of us

 

Gone are those joyful days

When we walked along the shore line

Sunlight glinting on the water

The sea breeze blowing through our hair

Happy and carefree, hand in hand

Everything ahead of us

 

Gone are those joyful days

When God blessed our union

And delivered perfect joy into our lives

As our little family grew

And we had everything we desired

 

Gone are those joyful days

When your smile lit up my life

And my heart brimmed over with love for you

Before it was broken in two

And you were still here with us

 

Gone are the joyful days

Since you have gone ahead of me

Now God has you by his side

And I will miss you deeply until that day

When God has reunited us

 

I look forward to that joyful day

When we stand once more together

But though my heart is broken

I must delay our reunion

Our sweet children need me

And I must love them double now 

Tuesday, 20 July 2021

Snippets of Downshire Life – Sharpington Sundae

 

The traditional seaside resort of Sharpington-by-Sea with its Victorian Pier, seafront hotels, crazy golf, The Palladium ballroom, well maintained gardens, promenade, theatre and illuminations, has all the usual things to have a great time by the seaside, as well as amusement arcades and of course the Sharpington Fun Park and sisters Rachel and Kay Wilkinson live together in the house they grew up in, in the grand neighbourhood of Granite Hill, which in a nod to San Francisco, the locals had nicknamed Nob Hill.

They were both in their early thirties, and were only 13 months apart and they were very close in every other way and did everything together, and as they were both single, one of the things they did on a regular basis was to look for someone to change their single status.

But they were thwarted in their efforts time and time again and invariably ended up with their friends Penny Van Der Zelden and  Sarah Whitmarsh either at the Pier Pancake Palace located by the entrance of the Pier or in  Bizzoni's Ice Cream Parlour, which was opposite, and it was in the latter where they first laid eyes on Peter and Paul Cooper, who were in town on holiday for two weeks, and  they were perfect, good looking, funny, the same ages, and more importantly, single, and they seemed to be interested, but after ten days they hadn’t progressed any further than hanging out at the Fun Park, and eating a lot of ice cream at Bizzoni’s.

 

The sisters were very frustrated by their inability to land their catch so on the boys last night in Sharpington they planned to up their game and get them on the dance floor at the Palladium Ballroom and induce a little bodily contact.

They arranged to meet at the entrance to the Pier at eight o’clock and Kay and the boys were on time but Rachel wasn’t.

She worked at the Chandlers beyond Whitecliffe Head and the dunes and she had to stay much later than she planned as there was a problem with the alarm when she was locking up.

When she eventually got away she made a beeline for the Pier following the path that led firstly past the dunes and then a row of brightly coloured beach huts.

If she continued on the path it would lead to the end of the promenade but she took decisive action and decided to take the more direct route across the beach and was in constant touch with her sister via text message as she walked.

However her decision to cross the beach proved to be problematic firstly because, although it was indeed the shorter route in would have been much easier to walk on the paved promenade rather than the inconsistent terrain of the beach, and that coupled with the fact that the light was fading fast beneath and an overcast sky which hampered her progress further.

She did have the lights of the Pier to aim at and the light from her phone offered her some form of illumination, but she was still going to be very late, and then the phone rang.

“Hello”

“Where are you?” Kay asked

“I’m coming as fast as I can” Rachel replied

“Yes but where are you? We’re looking down the prom and there’s no sign of you” Kay said

“I’m on the beach”

“What are you doing on the beach?” Kay asked incredulously

“I thought it would be quicker” Rachel retorted

“How’s that working out for you?” Kay asked

“Shut up” Rachel snapped “I’m nearly there”

 

Kay, Peter and Paul were waiting at the Pier entrance but after finding out she was crossing the beach they went to the top of the steps that led down to the sand and after a few minutes an anxious Peter said

“I’ll go down and see if I can spot her”

And after a few minutes Kay and Paul started to descend as well.

“Can you see her yet” Kay shouted but Peter didn’t respond as he had wandered out of view.

 

Rachel’s eyes had become accustomed to the gloom and she was making steady progress as the sand beneath her feet was of a firmer nature as she got closer to the seawall.

As she passed under the Pier she was within easy reach of her destination but then she collided with something or someone in the darkness and she was knocked backwards against one of the supports but rebounded and fell against the figure in the dark.

“Excellent” she thought to herself as gravity took control of her, first the burglar alarm, then the shortcut followed by a mugging.

She finished up straddling the prone figure of her assailant, fortunately she still had her phone in hand so she shone it in the face of the mugger and was surprised to see, illuminated in the eerie blue light, the handsome face of Peter Cooper and not for the first time that evening she took decisive action and kissed him, and with that vigorous and passionate kiss all the frustrations of the previous ten days were released.

Rachel and Peter were so engrossed in the long hoped for kiss that they didn’t notice Kay arriving to witness the action.

Kay retraced her steps where Paul was waiting

“Could you see them?” he asked

“Oh yes”

“And are they together?” he enquired

“Definitely”

“So they’re ok?” Paul asked

“I would say so” she replied

“So what’s keeping them?” Paul asked naively

“Erm, they’re busy” Kay replied

“Busy?”

“Oh yes”

“Doing what?” he asked

“What we should be doing” she replied

“I don’t understand”

“They’re snogging!” she snapped

“Oh” he exclaimed “I see, well yes I think we should very definitely be doing that”

“At last” she said as he took her in his arms.

 

 

 

 

LOVES METAPHOR REVISITED

 

Not even the angels above

Could make a better match

So please be with me

And I will make you happy

Such is the depth and breadth

Of my lasting love

Intense and profound

Broader than the horizon

And the measure of an ocean deep

Enduring till that watery abyss

Dries to sun baked desert

And its powdery form runs

Through your fingers

And loves metaphor is blown away

Like smoke on the wind

ADDICTED TO LOVE

 

I have given her only love

And tender affection

In return I get only contempt

In its equal measure

I cannot cut the bond

The unseen umbilical

That binds me to her

I am a slave to her will

Chained and imprisoned

By a dominating mistress

Cruel and controlling

In an invisible metaphor

Her words are like whips

That lash me with cruelty

Each word laced with

Bile and poison

That cuts into me deeply

But never scars my flesh

If only one word

Bore but a hint of kindness

I would be uplifted

But I remain down cast

My hopes and dreams

Have faded into ether

Enslavement has led

To a foul dependency

Now I am addicted

To her poisonous love

The stuff of nightmares

WILL MY PLEA ABOVE

 

Will my plea above

To gladden and cheer

My ardent call for love

Fall on deafened ear

 

Is there not but one

Who will hear my plea

And fill me with joy

Please, please hear me

 

Don’t leave me all alone

Let me share my love

Please have mercy

Oh hear my plea above

 

Take heed of my plea

Just another soul to love

Gentle and replete

And as precious as a dove

Monday, 19 July 2021

Those Memories Made on Teardrop Lake - (29) Family Ties

 Martha and Vikki were both “sweet sixteen and never been kissed” and the girls were the best of friends.

And to be perfectly honest they were not really interested in boys, their leisure time was spent sailing, mountain biking, orienteering, climbing, you name it and they did it.

Basically Martha and Vikki were the outdoorsy type.

They both lived in Dancingdean Hall, Martha in flat D with her widower father Andrew and Vikki in flat F with her divorced mother Alexandra and their primary aim in life was to get their respective parents interested in each other so they could become sisters.

 

Dancingdean Hall was once the residence of the Earls of Dancingdean but that line of aristocracy had long since died out and the hall was now divided into 6 spacious family apartments.

 

Alexandra Quarit was 38 years old and had raised Vikki on her own since she was 10 months old when her husband walked out on them.

He hadn’t contested the divorce and although he had not reneged on his financial obligations he had made no attempt over the years to see his daughter.

She was content however with her life, she loved Vikki and she had a successful business that she had built up from nothing.

And she now had a shop in Abbottsford’s Phoenix Centre called Crazy Chocolatiers and for the past seven years she and Vikki had lived on Teardrop Lake.

 

Alex was a no nonsense practical person, a “what you see, is what you get” type and she wasted no time on frills and fripperies.

Her normal apparel was a blue shirt, sleeves turned up, black skirt, blue wool tights and stout shoes.

And she wore her grey streaked dark hair short and low maintenance.

She was an attractive woman, clean and presentable but she didn’t tend toward the glamorous, she favoured the subdued look.

She wasn’t interested in attracting a partner because she didn’t think she could ever trust a man again.

 

Dancingdean House was situated on the highest point on the cliffs above the Lake and commanded a magnificent view.

Which was a great comfort to Andrew McShane as it was a much loved view of his wife Rachel which became all too familiar in the summer of her death.

 

Andrew was an accountant and had not long turned 40, an event he would have ignored entirely had it not been for his daughter who did her best to mark the milestone with party poppers, banners and helium filled balloons.

Although he humoured her and put on a brave face, for him it merely marked another year without the love of his life.

Martha knew her dad still missed her mum and she did too but she was determined to get him back into the world of the living if it was the last thing she did. 

But Andrew thought he would be betraying Rachel’s memory if he found someone else, if he even entertained the thought it would be a betrayal of her memory.

Martha was 10 when the cancer finally took her mum, and it was her friend Vikki who got her through it.

 

The girls were gregarious, bubbly and outgoing and everybody liked them.

Victoria was the ring leader and was the complete opposite of her mother in almost every respect apart from the fact they both stood five foot two inches tall and Vikki wasn’t looking for a guy either.

She wore her unruly chestnut brown hair tied in a kind of loose arrangement on top of her head which gave the impression she was taller than she was.

And when it came to her mode of dress there was nothing that could be in any way considered to be subdued.

Vikki generally went for the Tomboy appearance and as summer began to give way to autumn 

She wore a white top beneath a garishly bright multi-coloured striped shrug.

Red skinny trousers and orange converse shoes and she loved jewellery, lots and lots of jewellery.

She had lovely laughing hazel eyes which narrowed when she smiled, which was often, and her smile illuminated her face.

 

Like Vikki, Martha was also a tomboy but she was a little more subtle in her choices and favoured blue jeans, a white top and blue plaid shirt and on her feet she wore either baseball boots or just plain black leather boots.

Her hair was mousy hair and there was less of it than Vikki’s but like her friend she stood five foot two inches tall.

And Martha never wore jewellery but then Vikki wore enough for the two of them.

Her complexion wasn’t as clear as her friends and she had a number of what some people would have called blemishes which far from detracting from her beauty, enhanced it rather.

With her stunning green eyes she was by far the prettier of the two girls.

 

They had made the decision to intervene in their parents love lives the previous Christmas.

Although “love lives” wasn’t really an accurate description as they had no love in their lives save for what they held for their children.

The incident occurred after Christmas lunch which that year the girls had suggested they do together,

It had always seemed silly to them that they should have separate Christmas lunches when they lived in the same building, when they lived next door in the same building.

It was met with some resistance from both parties initially but the girls were very persistent.

After all it was not unusual for them to do shared events, they were both big BBQ fans and their children were the best of friends so they often used to eat together in the communal gardens during the summer.

So Alex reluctantly agreed to host Christmas dinner and Andrew said he would do the next one, quietly hoping that there wouldn’t be a next one.

But despite their misgivings the occasion was less onerous than either of them had expected.

The girls helped clear away and as they were exiting the kitchen the grownups were coming the opposite way, they paused to let the girls past and Vikki and Martha both blurted out in unison.

“You’re under the mistletoe”

“You have to kiss” Martha added “it’s the law”

“What law?” her father said

“Christmas law” Vikki replied

“Nonsense” Andrew said

“Poppycock” Alex agreed

“Kiss, kiss, kiss, kiss” the girls chanted

Eventually Andrew and Alex agreed to kiss, just to shut them up, but they made such a palaver about that one simple peck that the girls resolved to help them loosen up which in turn led to them to the task of trying to fix them up.

But it was not an easy task, they had set their target for something meaningful to have occurred between then by Christmas day, one year on from the mistletoe debacle.

 

Alex and Andrew got on very well together they were both very hardworking and they were both devoted to their children.

And that wasn’t their only common ground they were also avid readers so literature was always a popular subject for them to converse in, as well having a love of classical music.

So they got on well, had shared interests and liked each other’s company,

But despite all of that neither of them had any designs on progressing to another level, they were quite comfortable with the way things were.

 

Between Lynn Cooper’s birthday bash in May and Rob and Sheryl Brown’s anniversary party in September they had had a dozen BBQs at least, and half a dozen day trips, cinema, bowling, tree walking you name it they had done it, including getting them both out on the lake sailing but by the end of September they hadn’t made an ounce of progress.

 

Alexandra wasn’t stupid and she knew exactly what the girls were up to, and although she hadn’t discussed it with him she assumed Andrew must have been aware of it as well.

She was happy enough to play along the shared meals and the days out were fun but she wasn’t interested in anything other than friendship and judging by his reluctance to kiss her the previous Christmas she was certain sure Andrew shared her disinterest in the romantic.

 

Andrew was also well aware of his daughters plot to hook him up with Alex, whom he liked very much, but only as a friend.

And regarding the Christmas kiss incident he remembered it slightly differently to her in as much as he thought she was the reluctant one.

But he had enjoyed her friendship and their combined social life, and he had actually begun to feel alive again.

 

For Alex, October began her busy period at the shop, firstly because the novelty stock had to be displayed in preparation for Halloween and then at the beginning of November the Halloween stock had to be removed over the weekend and replaced with the Christmas stock.

The shop also had to be decorated and the window dressed for the season.

And because Crazy Chocolatier’s sold the best handmade chocolates in Downshire they were also beginning to take orders for Christmas.  

 

Andrew was himself burning the midnight oil during that period preparing the year end accounts for his biggest client.

As a result of them both being exceptionally busy they hadn’t done anything as a foursome for a couple of months.

So when Vikki and Martha suggested going bowling one Saturday night in December, Alex and Andrew both jumped at the chance and furthermore surprised themselves by how much the idea appealed to them.

From the girl’s perspective as it was already December time was running out for them to hit their target of having their parents involved, in some way, by Christmas Day.

Bowling was, they would have to admit not the most original idea and even a little lame, but they were getting desperate.

 

In the week preceding the bowling Alex found herself looking forward to it considerably more than she had anticipated and even treated herself to a colourful new blouse and a pair of slacks.  

On the day before the outing Andrew decided he needed a haircut.

 

It was a bitter cold day when the night of the bowling came around, and snow had been predicted so as Andrew had a 4x4 he drove them.

After queuing to get their shoes they made their way to lane 10 and took their coats off.

 

It was at that point that they lost Vikki and Martha who were totally distracted by the devastatingly good looking Addison twins on the next lane.

They weren’t identical twins but they were clearly brothers and the girls thought they were absolutely gorgeous.

 

As Alex slipped off her coat to reveal her new outfit Andrew was moved to comment

“Wow you look lovely”

“Thank you” she replied and blushed a little at the compliment and then began entering the names on the screen.

 

The girls struggled to focus on the game as they were totally smitten by the boys on the neighbouring lane.

Andrew was a good bowler but his game had gone to pieces which left Alex in the unfamiliar position of leading after nine frames.

She knocked down 7 with the first ball of frame 10 and she was waiting for her ball to return.

Andrew was manipulating the unwanted balls on the carrier and when Alex reached down to retrieve her ball their hands touched.

Neither of them moved and their hands remained in contact,

It was like electricity was passing between them, then after a moment they made eye contact and smiled

“Gosh” she said and took a proper hold of his hand.

“Indeed” he said and squeezed hers and then they kissed 

“What will the girls think?” she said

“They’ve been throwing us together all year, so they’ll be delighted” he said and they kissed again

 

Which was when the Addison twin’s pointed out to the girls what was going on behind them

“It’s about time” Martha said after turning around

“Absolutely” Vikki agreed and they high fived

Neither Alex nor Andrew could pinpoint the moment their feelings changed from friendship to something more, they surmised it must have happened by osmosis.

 

Martha and Vikki had achieved their target for something meaningful to have occurred between their respective parents by Christmas day, one year on from the mistletoe debacle with over two weeks to spare.

And that Christmas beneath the mistletoe in Andrews’s apartment there was no hesitancy on eithers part, in fact it went on a little longer than the girls were really comfortable with.