Wednesday, 30 June 2021

Those Memories Made on Teardrop Lake – (18) Recipe for Love

Jane Cooper was 7 years old before she knew she had two Grandfathers.

She knew she had a Grandpa Colin, he and Nanny Laura had been in her life from the day she was born.

But Granddad Harry she had never heard of, and so she was deeply suspicious of him and she was a bit miffed with him because of all the birthday and Christmas presents she’d missed out on.

 

Harry Cooper came into her life after her baby sister Karen was taken ill with Meningitis.

While her father Paul was waiting in the anxiously in the corridor for news his father Harry appeared and they spoke for the first in more than twenty years.

Although there were hugs and apologies it wasn’t a complete reconciliation, but it was an important first step.

Over the following twelve months bridges were painstakingly built and sins gradually forgiven.

And in the spring of 1998 Paul Cooper returned to his old family home, at Coopers Villa, and he took his new family with him.

It wasn’t a simple transition but because there was a willingness to succeed on both sides they made it work.

Harry proved to be far more comfortable as a grandfather than he had ever been as a father and the girls loved him, even Jane who overcame her initial suspicions, which may have had something to do with the size of her new bedroom.

She’d had her own bedroom in the old house but it was tiny, her new room was enormous, or at least it seemed so to a little girl.

 

The house was amazing and she had a great view of Teardrop Lake from her bedroom, which had two windows.

The biggest one overlooked the lake which was shaped like a teardrop, which was where it got its name, and it was surrounded by the ancient woodland of the Dancingdean Forest.

It wasn’t a huge body of water, just over two miles long and almost a mile at its widest point but Jane thought it was just beautiful and a little magical.

And certainly over the years the Lake worked its magic and the Cooper family thrived and Jane lived a very happy life in Coopers Villa.

Her father, Paul, was still in the local police and rose slowly up the ranks and could maybe have climbed higher and faster, if he had specialised or moved to Abbotsford.

But he preferred to be a big fish in a small pond.

Her Mum Lynn who was the glue that held everyone together, returned to full time work at the surgery when her youngest daughter Karen started school at St Mary’s.

 

If there were any remaining tension between Paul and Harry they were undiscernible.

They both consigned the past to the past and the deeds and words of so long before were thought of only as water under the bridge.

As far as the girls were concerned Granddad Harry was just the kindly white haired old man who gave them sweets and walked them to school.

 

Jane thought that life had certainly taken a turn for the better when they moved to the lake and that good fortune had smiled on them all.

The only fly in the ointment was Terry O’Neil, whom she considered to be and annoying boy who lived next door at Lakeside Villa and from the moment they moved in he was besotted by her and he followed her everywhere.

Jane was only 8 years old and she had her own personal puppy dog.

 

Jane had always considered herself to be lucky and never took anything for granted, she was always very much a grounded girl.

She was also very single minded and knew from the age of six precisely what she wanted to do with her life.

Grandma Laura worked at Addison’s bakery in Shallowfield for all of her working life.

And one day when Jane was six years old St Mary’s school was being used as a polling station so she couldn’t go in that day.

So grandma took her to work with her and Jane helped her and old Elsie Addison, who was well into her eighties, making pastries for the shop and café.

Auntie Elsie was a lovely jovial old lady, she was quite rotund and she was always laughing.  

Jane enjoyed her day so much at Addison’s that she declared right there and then that when she grew up she was going to be a bakist.


Jane may have decided that she was going to be a bakist but she didn’t want to limit herself just to baking she wanted to do everything so she would help her mum at home or go to Grandma’s house whenever she could so that she could learn more.

 

When she wasn’t cooking or reading about cooking or thinking about cooking she was trying to avoid Terry O’Neil who was very persistent without the slightest encouragement from her.

The only escape she had was when she was at school because he went to St Jude’s but that all changed when they started at Secondary School and they were in the same form at Shallowfield High School.

 

Much to her disgust Terry was even in the same class as her for Food Tech (Domestic Science for those readers over thirty) and to add insult onto injury he was on the bench next to hers.

One particular day they were making a béchamel sauce, which Jane could do in her sleep, and Terry managed to burn his which he thought was highly amusing.

“Why can’t you take things seriously” she said “Don’t you like food?”

“I like eating it” he said

 

Of course what he didn’t realise, being a callow youth and therefore immature, was that if he had taken cookery seriously or shown even the slightest interest in the subject he might have managed to achieve his goal which was to win her heart.

Instead he just alienated himself further.

He still continued to pursue her right through to her college years which Jane really couldn’t understand, after all she never encouraged him for a second.

Her sisters were much more attractive than her in fact they were very pretty, so why he didn’t go after one of them she just didn’t know.

Jane always considered herself to be plain, it’s true to say that she wasn’t as stunningly attractive as Kath and Karen, but in all honesty she was by no measure plain, but that was the way she saw herself.

She was a tall girl with auburn hair and an abundance of freckles which she thought detracted from her looks even further but to Terry O’Neil they merely enhanced them.

Which is why he had loved her since she was eight.

 

Whereas all the Cooper girls had Auburn hair and freckles all the O’Neil Boys, of which there were also three, had black hair and wild gypsy eyes.

 

On the day when Jane went into college to pick up her results she inadvertently ran into Terry, who was there for the same purpose and for the millionth time he asked her out and she was so thrilled with her results that Jane gave in and went to the pictures with him.

Much to her surprise she actually enjoyed it and though she saw something in Terry that she had never seen before.

 

But the next morning in the cold light of day her previous prejudices resurfaced and when he asked her out again she brushed him off.    

However the next day Jane returned home to find that Terry was in her dads study and he had been in there for about an hour.

Nobody in the house seemed to know why he was there and she was filled with a sudden dread that he was talking to her dad about them, even though there wasn’t a “them”.

All manner of fanciful thoughts raced around her head all of which she instantly dismissed, but one thought she just couldn’t shift.

Terry O’Neil was asking her dad for permission to marry her.

“How humiliating” she said to herself as she sat down on her bed.

 

When she heard the front door go she raced to the window and looked out and saw Terry walking towards his house.

She ran down the stairs and found her dad in the kitchen,

“Was that Terry O’Neil I just saw leaving?” she asked nonchalantly

“Yes” he replied

“What did he want?”

“He wanted to ask me something” Paul replied  

“Oh” she responded

“He’s a very nice lad” Paul said “and he spoke very highly of you”

“Did he?” She replied casually

“Is that why he was here? To talk about me” she asked

“No” Paul said “why would he be?” 

“No reason” Jane said suddenly feeling very foolish

“So what did he want then?” she persisted “was it anything important?”

“Blimey you’re really nosey”

“No not really I’m just curious is all” she said

“Well if you must know he wanted to know about the police graduate program”

He said

“He wants to join the Police after University”

“Really?” Jane said, not a little impressed


Jane was unfaltering on her chosen path all through her school years and again when she went to college, and even when she’d gained her qualifications she refused to rest on her laurels.

She worked whenever and wherever she could and when she wasn’t working she was attending more courses.

And that September Terry went off to University while Jane set about gaining practical experience, where ever she could.

In her spare time, what little there was of it she would cater for buffets for social events, christenings etc.

It was hard work but it was all grist to the mill, every penny she earned went into the Restaurant fund.

Because that was her goal, to be chef de cuisine in her own kitchen in her own restaurant.

It was a big goal, she had set the bar high, but she figured if you’re going to have a dream you might as well dream big.

During the period Terry was at University Jane saw very little of him when he was home because she was all about the work.

And her hard work was well rewarded when just after her 21st birthday she was lucky enough to get a job in the Brown Windsor Restaurant in Shallowfield and within six months she was the Sous Chef.

At the same time Terry’s reward for a first class degree was his acceptance, with Chief Superintendent Cooper’s recommendation, on to the fast track graduate program.

 

Jane didn’t see Terry at all over the following few years but she heard of him, through her father mainly, he was doing well.

In the meanwhile she was making a name for herself as an excellent Chef.

When she was 24 she catered a number of events around the Shallowfield and the Lake but the most significant of her culinary events was Olivia Adamson’s birthday dinner at Dr Andrews up at Folly cottages.

Which was the first of her home dining experiences.

The first of many as it turned out and it wasn’t the last one on the lake either.

In November she was booked for a dinner party for 12 people at Lakeside Villa for Kay O’Neil’s 50th Birthday.

It was the biggest job she had ever done and there was quite a lot of work involved so she had her mum Lynn and a local girl Emily Goff helping her.

Emily lived in Shallowfield and was doing the same college course that Jane had done herself and so she felt an affinity with her. 

 

The evening was a tremendous success, and after all the clearing away was done, Emily and Lynn were taking things to the car and Jane was in the kitchen packing away the rest of her equipment when Terry walked in.

“That was a lovely meal” he said

“I’m glad you enjoyed it” Jane replied 

“So what do you get up to on your nights off?”

“Well officially Saturday is my night off” Jane said

“So I guess I do this”

“What about when you’re not doing this?” he said changing tack

“I’m working at the Brown Windsor” she answered

“Well let me take you to dinner on your next night off” he requested

“Blimey that’s like a busman’s holiday for a Chef” she said with a snort

“On my nights off I prefer to avoid restaurants and gastro pubs”

“Oh” he said and looked somewhat deflated

“But I like bowling” she said surprising herself at the suggestion,

The truth was she didn’t really do time off and she certainly didn’t do dating which was why at the age of 24 she was still a virgin.

“Great” he replied “I love bowling”

 

Jane wasn’t sure why she had agreed to go out with him, maybe it was his crushed expression, whatever it was a few days later they went ten pin bowling and laser questing in Abbeyvale and then they even had a slice of pizza and a beer afterwards.

In spite of herself Jane really enjoyed it and when Terry dropped her home that night she said

“That was fun”

“Maybe we could do it again next time I’m home” he suggested

“Yes I’d like that” she said and meant it

An awkward goodnight kiss scenario followed which ended with a peck on her cheek.


Terry didn’t go home again for any significant amount of time for the rest of the year buy they spoke on the phone a few times and they did meet briefly at St Mary’s Church on Christmas morning.

So as the year came to an end she reflected on the events of the year and congratulated herself quite smugly on her achievements, and the growing restaurant fund and she looked forward to the future.

 

The next morning when she got up and went downstairs she was met with grave expressions.

“Blimey! How much did you lot drink last night?” Jane asked

Just then her father walked in wearing his uniform

“I thought you were off today” she said

“I was” he replied then he kissed Lynn

“I’ll see you later love”

“What’s happened?” Jane asked but no one spoke

“What’s happened?” she repeated “Where’s dad gone?”

“Someone’s been hurt” Lynn replied

Jane knew by the atmosphere that it was someone they knew, but she didn’t know who it could be.

And as if to pre-empt Jane’s next question Lynn said 

“It’s Terry O’Neil”

And Jane felt like she’d been punched in the stomach.

And the next thing she knew she was being helped up from the floor.

 

PC Terry O’Neil was on duty on New Year’s Eve with another PC, Georgina Devereaux, when there was an armed robbery at a wholesale jewellers in Finchbottom.

Georgina was driving when they took the call and spun the car around as Terry responded on the radio.

Two other cars were in pursuit from Finchbottom and O’Neil and Devereaux were heading straight for them to intercept.

As Georgina took the roundabout, the bandit car went the wrong side of the island as a shortcut to the motorway and hit them head on.

Devereaux and two of the bandits died at the scene and a third in the ambulance, only Terry survived and he was only hanging on.

  

“Oh my darling” Lynn said as she helped Jane onto a chair

“I didn’t know”

“What am going to do mum?” she said and wept

 

Jane was like a zombie in the days following the bad news.

Her mum and dad kept her updated on his progress, Lynn through her contacts in the medical profession and her father as a high ranking police officer.

But all she really knew was that he was off the critical list and his police career was over.

And that wasn’t enough, so she had to adopt unconventional methods.

She borrowed granddad Harrys binoculars and from a suitable vantage point, her sister Karen’s Bedroom window, spied on the comings and goings at Lakeside Villa.

Although it might have seemed unorthodox, or even creepy to the untrained eye, but she wanted to be sure Kay O’Neil was at home when she called round.

So it was all in a good cause and after all she didn’t spy on them all the time, she still had to work for a living.

 

It was twenty minutes into her third morning of espionage when she got her reward, she saw Kay’s car pull onto the drive.

Kay worked at a nursing home in Childean and was obviously returning home after a night shift.

Kay O’Neil was a kindly woman and a good neighbour.

Jane waited until she was sure Mrs O’Neil was in the house before she raced downstairs and out the front door.

And then a few minutes later she was knocking on the O'Neil’s front door.

“Hello Kay” Jane said when the door opened

“Jane! How lovely” she said still wearing her nursing uniform “Come in dear”

“How is Terry?” she asked as she stepped over the threshold.

“He’s stable, but they have him in a medical induced coma” she said “I’m off to sit with him for a couple of hours”

Jane was thoughtful in response and then asked

“Are you going on your own?”

“Yes I’m afraid so” she replied “The others are at work”

“I could keep you company if you like” Jane said

“Would you? That would be nice” Kay replied “I’m leaving in half an hour” 


As she drove them to the Winston Churchill Hospital Kay broke the silence 

“Terry has loved you since primary school you know?”

“I know” she replied “And I only realised quite recently that the feeling was mutual”

Kay reached across and squeezed her hand.

 

When they reached the hospital they went straight up in the lift.

They went into Terry’s room in High Dependency and Jane was shocked.

He was a mass of bruises and abrasions and there were tubes coming out of every orifice.

And there was a frame keeping the covers from where his leg would have been.

“Hi Baby” Kay called “Mums here, and I’ve brought Jane too”

Kay kissed his forehead and added  

“Sit down and talk to him while I’ll get us a coffee”

“What should I say?” Jane asked

“Just chat to him” Kay said

“Let him hear your voice dear”

Jane nodded and sat on the chair by the bed as Kay left and after a few moments she said

“Well Terry O’Neil, You finally got my full attention”

And she took hold of his hand and cried.

 

Jane visited him whenever she could after that, sometimes with Kay, sometimes with his brothers and sometimes on her own, it depended on when or whether she was working.

Her visiting went on like that for more than a week with her sat by his bed holding his hand and baring her soul.

But that came to an end one lunchtime when she was working at the Brown Windsor Restaurant.   

It was just after the last of the mains had gone to the pass that she received a text from Kay.

“He’s awake x”

 

As soon as the service was concluded and the kitchen cleaned down she went across the road to the surgery.

“Hello love” Lynn said “everything ok?”

“Can I borrow the car mum?” Jane asked

“Any particular reason?” Lynn asked

“Terry’s awake” she said

Lynn just smiled and tossed her the car keys.

 

Although Jane had held a full licence since she was 18 she was not an experienced driver by any stretch of the imagination, which was perhaps fortunate as it forced her to be more cautious than she otherwise might have been under the circumstances.

And it was as a consequence of her caution that she reached the hospital in safety.

So she parked the car and then rode up in the lift, when the lift doors opened she paused and took a deep breath before stepping out.

She had only taken a few steps before she heard a familiar voice.

“Jane dear!” Kay said and hugged her.

“Hello Kay” she said and hugged her back

“Come and sit” she instructed “The doctors are with him at the moment”

So they sat in the visitor’s room and held hands as Kay explained the details of his reawakening.

 

“You can go back in now Mrs O’Neil” A doctor said

“Thanks Doctor” Kay said

“You’d better go in first” she said to Jane

“Me?” she replied

“Yes, I told him you were coming” Kay said

“Oh goodness” Jane said “I don’t know what to say”

“You say exactly what you’ve been saying dear” she replied and squeezed her hand.

 

As she approached his bed his eyes were closed so she sat in her normal chair and waited.

But she didn’t have to wait for long, however she was looking the other way at the time, and didn’t see his eyes open.

He focused on the figure in the chair and licked his lips before he spoke.

“Now I know what I have to do to get you to come and see me”

“Well text time just ask, you have my number” she said “And my heart” 


IF I KNEW THEN WHAT I KNOW NOW – SHARON K

 

If I knew then what I know now

I would have taken my chance

And I would have asked out Sharon

She was at the college where I worked

Sharon with the freckles and Auburn hair

And that lovely smile that could light up a room

She wanted me I knew that

It was obvious that Saturday in the Longship

But I let her slip through my fingers

What a summer we could have had

Exploring every freckled inch of her

In the long summer grass

But instead, I went in vain pursuit of Theresa

Her best friend

And I broke her heart

If only I’d known, then what I know now of life

A TANGLED WEB

 

A tangled web of

Lies, woven of jealous spite

Brought you solitude

WHY DO I LOVE YOU HON? # 2

 

Why do I love you hon?

I love you most because you

Don’t realize why I do

I HAVE FOUND THE ONE # 2

 

I have found the one

So divinely designed

In flawed perfection

THE WISDOM OF MY MIDDLE YEARS # 1

 

In life there are people

Who love you dearly

But just don't know how

To show it clearly

Those Memories Made on Teardrop Lake – (17) Parenthood

Paul Cooper proposed to Lynn Fletcher in a quiet corner of a new Beefeater Restaurant, The Mallard, in Childean and after Lynn accepted they got on his Yamaha and went off so Lynn could chose a ring.

There just happened to be one that she particularly liked in a shop in Abbottsford so he left his bike at the station and they got the train.

While they were there Paul took his fiancé into the Downshire and District Building Society and changed his savings account in a joint account and then when they left the shop he presented the pass book to Lynn.

“Right you’re in charge of the coffers” he said “That’s our nest egg”

“What do you mean?” she asked

“You’re in charge of our future” he said and she hugged him.

As they walked towards the jewellers Lynn had tears in her eyes.

She could not express what Paul’s gesture with the savings meant to her but it felt like he had proposed all over again.

 

Before he left Shallowfield for Police College he transferred all of his personal property from the house into the Fletchers Garden Shed, the plan being when he was home he would sort through it all and sell what he could.

 

At the same time Paul went off to the Police College Lynn decided to apply for a job at the Shallowfield Doctors Practice.

She had been told by one of her regular customers that there would be a vacancy opening up and that it hadn’t been advertised as of that moment in time.

The position was for a receptionist, for which she had no experience, but then she had no experience when she started at Addison’s.

Her boss Elsie Addison wrote her a wonderful recommendation, so Lynn applied for it and she got it.

She was so pleased, but she wasn’t leaving Addison’s because she was unhappy it was just that now she was engaged and the keeper of the nest egg she needed every penny they could scrape together which was why she went for the receptionist’s job.

And she also carried on working at the Addison’s Tea Rooms on the weekends.

 

Ironically as a probationer Paul was posted to Nettlefield which was the garrison town of his Fathers Regiment, the Downshire Light Infantry and he spent much of his time arresting squaddies.

He didn’t get to see a lot of Lynn during that time but they were both well versed at writing love letters, after all they had been doing it for years. 

 

One night when Lynn was missing him terribly so she went outside to the shed and opened one of his many boxes and she could immediately smell him and when she picked up one of his sweaters and hugged it, she thought it was almost like hugging him.

Then as she was repacking the box she came across something that made her cry, tied up in ribbons were her love letters to him going right back to the very first one when he was at Boarding School.

 

When Paul’s probation was over he put in for a transfer to Childean, he did consider trying for Shallowfield but he calculated he would probably have to wait longer for a suitable opening there as it was a smaller station.

In the meantime he put his time in Nettlefield to good use and got as much experience as possible and equally as much overtime.

It was 1979 when his transfer finally came through.

His start date was in the same week as Lynn’s 21st birthday so there was a considerable amount of celebration.

In addition they also set a date for the wedding, August the 3rd.

The hardest part was finding somewhere to live, that they could afford.

So Lynn stayed with her parents and Paul stayed in the section house in Childean, it wasn’t ideal but it did mean they could carry on saving.

 

The wedding was a simple affair at St Marys Church, it was all very cheap and cheerful compared to what their children would expect.

The wedding car was Alf Mason’s taxi, Lynn wore her mother’s Wedding Dress, Elsie Addison provided the Cake and the buffet, Lynn’s Godmother was a florist so she provided the flowers and reception was in the village hall.

Everything done on a shoestring but the day was every bit as memorable as if it had cost a King’s ransom.

They spent their first year and a bit of their married life at her parent’s house in Lynn’s bedroom.

Not ideal but they made the best of it.

 

It wasn’t until February of 1981 that they finally moved into their own home and their married life could begin in earnest.

Even with all their savings the mortgage really stretched them so they had to wait before they could start a family.

The following spring the War for the Falkland Islands began and as they sat and watched the pictures on the news they saw Paul’s Father, now a Major General, embarking with his men.

 

Neither of them said anything but they both saw and despite the fact that he had to make his own way in the world because his father had disowned him, he still followed the reports of the conflict very carefully.

Harry Cooper survived the war unscathed, but not all of his command were so lucky.

 

The 5th anniversary of their mortgage, also coincided with Paul’s promotion to sergeant so he and Lynn decided to start trying for a family.

And they tried very hard, and very often but they appeared to be trying in vain.

But they continued to try anyway and they finally got their reward after four years of devoted and concerted effort when Lynn fell pregnant.

 

However as delighted as everyone concerned was that was not the only significant family news that year.

In August, Coopers Villa, which had not had a human presence for 13 years was occupied again.

Major General Harry Cooper, retired, was in residence.

 

Their first child, a daughter, was born in February and was the cause of much celebration. 

When she was christened there was another pair of eyes watching proceedings from the vestry.

Harry had been at school with the Vicar and was able to sneak in unseen to watch the ceremony.

He did the same thing three years later when Katherine Cooper was christened.

By the time daughter number three was born Paul had taken his inspectors exam and passed and had been transferred to Shallowfield.

 

Harry missed Karen’s Christening because he was away with the Territorials on an exercise, which was part of his duties as a reservist.

His missing that Christening would prove to be significant.

 

Paul and Lynn’s family was now complete, due to some severe haemorrhaging after Karen’s arrival she was unable to have anymore.

But they were happy with what they had, Paul thought it was  ironic that despite being raised in a home devoid of women, apart from the sergeant major nanny, he was destined to live in a home in which he was the only man.

But he didn’t mind that, life was good, he was even promoted to Chief Inspector that year so everything in his universe was peachy. 

However the problem with a peachy universe was that it was normally a prelude to blight and so it proved to be this time.

A few weeks after Karen’s christening she was very unwell, she was constantly irritable and drowsy.

And when Lynn was changing her into her night clothes she noticed a rash.

She immediately called the surgery and spoke to Dr Collins who was knocking on the door ten minutes later.

She was satisfied that Lynn was not being a hysterical parent and insisted that she would drive mother and babe to the hospital, Paul was on duty so Lynn’s mum watched Jane and Kath. 

 

It wasn’t a long journey and it passed quickly and in silence, both women starkly aware of the gravity, and when they reached the hospital Paul was already there.

There were no words as Dr Collins led the way and Paul, Lynn and the babe followed in her wake.

Although no one had mentioned the name it was clear they suspected meningitis.

So the first thing they planned to do was a lumbar puncture in order to diagnose or exclude it.

Only one parent was allowed to stay during the procedure so as Paul couldn’t bear to watch a needle inserted into the spinal canal of his tiny daughter, he left the room and paced up and down the corridor.

“How is she?” a voice asked

Paul turned around and saw a figure both familiar and unfamiliar in the same moment.

“Hello Dad” Paul said to the man he last saw in person twenty years earlier.

He was at the wrong end of his sixth decade with whitening hair, he was a proud looking man who still carried himself with military bearing but there was a forlorn look about him.

“It’s been a while”

“It’s been too long” Harry said

“Perhaps” said Paul and sat down and after a few moments added

“They’re testing her for Meningitis”

“Oh God” Harry said and sat down opposite his son

“Why are you here?” Paul asked

“Why did I stay away is more to the point” he replied

“So why did you stay away?” Paul asked

“Shame, pride, fear” he replied

“Fear?” Paul asked “Fear of what?”

“Rejection”

Paul nodded as he too had the same feelings, he too regretted what occurred during that long hot summer 20 years earlier.

The angry words and even worse those which were coolly calculated to hurt. 

“I have no excuses for my behaviour” Harry said quietly “I too had a wife and family but I lost your mother when you came into the world”

“You blame me?” Paul asked

“No” Harry said quickly “I blame no one, it was just cruel bad luck”

Harry paused for a moment before continuing

“For everything else I blame myself, I lost one son through my vanity and the other one through my arrogance”     

“I said some cruel and unforgivable things” Paul said

“We both did” Harry said “But that is all in the past”

 

The sample of cerebrospinal fluid was quickly tested and Lynn waited anxiously by Karen’s bedside for the result.

The Doctor picked up the phone and performed a series of nods and grimaces and said

“Ok thanks for that” and hung up

 

“The test was positive for meningitis” He said

“Oh God” Lynn said

“Don’t worry” he reassured her “we’ve caught it really early and a course of IV Antibiotics will see it off”

“Honestly?” Lynn asked

“Absolutely, we’ll have to keep her in for a few days, but yes she will be fine”

 

The feeling of dread had left her and so she decided to go and share the news with Paul and as she turned the corner into the corridor she saw something that gladdened her heart even further.

When she was greeted by the sight of Paul and his Dad hugging

“Well it’s about bloody time” Lynn said as she walked towards them and joined the huddle.

“Is she ok?” Paul asked

“She will be” she relied “in fact everything will”


IF I KNEW THEN WHAT I KNOW NOW - ANNE

 

If I knew then what I know now

I would not have hesitated for a second

I would have asked out Anne

Lovely self-conscious Anne

Who never saw the beauty in herself

The brunette hair that framed her face

Her fabulous legs which she often kept covered

Her intoxicating laugh

The little scar on her cheek

That went red when she was tipsy

Anne who never saw what we all saw when we looked at her

Who always thought herself ordinary

Nothing could have been further from the truth

If only I’d asked her

But I dithered and I was too late

And I lost her to another

So instead I ended up dating her younger sister

Just to stay close, which was torture

And if I knew then what I know now

That night after the dance

When I sat alone with her in the lounge

With Marion asleep in her bed

I would have crossed the room

And rummaged in that awful baggy caftan

That she always wore wrestling her out of it

And I would have spent every precious minute

Caressing her naked flesh

Playing her body like an instrument

While my girlfriend slept above

If only I’d known then what I know now of life

I WHISPERED

 

I whispered those three

Words to you and you replied,

But I love you more

WHY DO I LOVE YOU HON? # 1

 

Why do I love you hon?

Because you don’t know the answer

To your own question

I HAVE FOUND THE ONE # 1

 

I have found the one

Lovely, Gentle and kind

My soulmate at last

Sunday, 27 June 2021

The Clerembeax Palace Hotel and Spa – All the Nice Girls Love a Soldier

 

The beautiful Downshire village of Clerembeax St Giles was situated to the west of Abbeyvale located between Grace Hill and Bushy Down and on the outskirts was the Clerembeax Palace Hotel and Spa which had become very important to the lives of those living in the village community with St Giles’ Church at its hub.

It was a busy village with all the usual amenities you would expect, in addition to St Giles’ Church there was a village Hall, and primary school of the same name.

There was also the Trinity Methodists Church, two pubs, Étienne of Normandy and the Saracen and Stephenson’s General store which included an off-license, newsagents and Post Office.

 

The General Store was run by Ilyas Patel, although it was his young wife Anjuli and her Aunt Shula who did all the work, along with a few additional staff.

One of the shops regular customers, when he was home on leave, was Corporal Luke Stuart, of the Downshire Light Infantry, and he liked Ilyas, he was a surly old goat, old enough to be Anjuli’s father in fact he was old enough to be Luke’s father, by a distance.

He liked him because he was a man after his own heart, spending most of his time sat on his arse watching cricket, that was something else they had in common, and he hoped when he was Ilyas age he would have a gorgeous young wife to keep him warm at night, even her Aunt was a looker.

That was the thing about Luke he was a philandering lothario and he cast his net far and wide and was quite undiscerning, not that Shula and Anjuli were foolish enough to fall for his oily charms.

However, there was one in the shop that was and had, and that was Anjuli’s cousin Ankita, who the family had sent to help out while Ilyas was in hospital, not that she was of much help, and she was possessed of as few morals as Luke was.

 

Luke called in at Stephenson’s on the way to the pub and flirted with the two women as usual.

“How’s Ilyas?” he asked Shula

“He’s doing well” She replied Anjuli and I are going to see him tonight”

Luke nodded and smiled in response and gave Ankita a wink and she smiled at him.

“Give him my best” he said to Shula

“I will, I will” she replied

“And while you give him my best I will be giving your niece something else” he thought to himself

 

As soon as Anjuli and Shula left the shop for the drive to St Bernadette’s Convent Hospital in Abbeyvale Luke Stuart slipped out of his place of concealment and knocked on the back door of the shop and a scantily clad Ankita opened it wearing a lusty leer to accompany the rest of her attire, so he kissed her and then took her upstairs to remove what little she had on.

 

As he was dressing he watched as she redressed her lovely body in white silk pyjamas, the fullness of her figure hard to disguise and all her assets were clearly distinguished though the fabric.

When they were back downstairs in the shop they had an affectionate farewell kiss as he tried to gain access to her treasures once more.

“No more” she said and gave him a playful slap and said “tomorrow” Which was both a statement and a question.

They kissed once more before he opened the door and headed home, and he had only gone about fifty yards when a car passed him, and he saw it was Anjuli and Shula.

“That was close,” he said out loud and continued on his way.

WHEN DID IT HAPPEN?

 

When did it happen?

How did I not notice?

What distracted me?

Or have I been blind

Where did she go?

The awkward girl of yesterday

Where is that ungainly creature?

When did you become a woman?

Have I been blind all this time?

When did you bloom into woman hood?

When I looked away

You were an ugly duckling

When I looked back

A bird of paradise

When did you become so beautiful?

BUT DON’T TELL ME

 

I know you want to end it

But don’t tell me at the hotel

Don’t tell me at the café

I know I won’t take it well

Don’t tell me at the restaurant

Don’t tell me by the pool

Don’t tell me on the beach

Don’t make me look a fool

You can tell me in the ocean

And realise all my fears

Tell me as we swim in the sea

Then you won’t see my tears

ONLY SKIN DEEP

 

You are truly beautiful

But beauty is only skin deep

Isn’t that what they say?

Only skin deep?

 

But looking through my eyes

Who ever said those words

Would think that they

Now sound quite absurd

 

For to say of you

That beauty is just skin deep

Must stir the angels hearts

And make them weep

 

You are truly beautiful

To the core of your being

It’s not just your skin

That I am seeing

 

Your beauty emanates

From your soul,

Gracing every atom, 

That makes the beautiful whole

 

From the marrow of your bones

It outwardly flows

So on your lustrous skin

Your beauty glows

Those Memories Made on Teardrop Lake – (16) The Fortunes of War

 

Henry Beaumont was the only son of the 10th Earl of Dancingdean.  

Henry was a strong man, straight backed and powerful with a square jaw and chestnut brown hair, a gifted scholar, sportsman and a natural horseman.

 

It was early summer and Henry had just returned from Abbottsford University to Dancingdean Hall, the family home overlooking Teardrop Lake.

His lifelong friend, neighbour and fellow returnee Sebastian Blackburn lived next door at Bridge House.

The year was 1914 and they were on top of the world with a bright future ahead of them and only 21 years behind them.

Little did they know as they sailed on the picturesque waters of the lake that glorious June, that their futures would start to unravel with the death of an obscure minor royal of the Hapsburg dynasty on the 28th of that very Month.     

 

Sebastian was destined for a career in his father’s bank and marriage to Lady Theresa Edgson in the following year.

While Henry was to be groomed to follow in his father’s footsteps, which would culminate in his wearing the ermine in the House of Lords as the 11th Earl of Dancingdean.

 

All through the month of July they carried on with their lives, and the usual round of social engagement totally oblivious to the treat of impending war.   

Henry even found time to fall in love.

The object of his affections was Christine Turner a tall auburn haired girl with a smiling freckled face, a sweet nature and a kind heart.

She was three years older than him and she had been employed as his mother’s companion for a year and a half.

 

And he had been attracted to her for every single day of that year and a half but she had always resisted his advances.

And dismissed his feelings as mere infatuation but she filled his every waking thought on his last year at University and when he was home it was her he wanted to see first.

Christine though was resolute in her opposition, month after month, even though she shared his feelings.

But on the balmy evening of the 3rd of July, when his father was staying at his club and his mother had taken to her bed with the vapours, he kissed her on the terrace and she reciprocated.

“We shouldn’t be doing this” she said

“I know” he whispered and kissed her again.

 

For the remainder of that month he fulfilled all the social engagements he was expected to attend so as not to arouse suspicion and then they would meet in secret and snatch intimate moments wherever and whenever they could.

But they told no one, because they could tell no one.

 

On the first of August, the day on which Germany declared war on Russia, was also the day that Henry made a declaration of his own.

It was Christine’s day off and they had arranged a secret rendezvous up at Lovers Leap, a rocky shelf that jutted out above the cliffs, which were an extension of those that formed part of the northern side of Teardrop Lake and formed the natural border between the Teardrop estate and the Dancingdean Forest proper.

Lovers Leap was so called because it was where desperate and broken hearted lovers would leap to their deaths although there was no evidence that anyone actually had.

It was just a promontory that offered a stunning view, but it was a very rainy day so they met at Dancingdean Folly instead.

 

The Folly was built by the 8th Earl of Dancingdean who had it erected for himself, in the style of a Castle Keep.

He was always prone to delusions of Grandeur.

He had it erected on top of a hill and then had the surrounding Forest cleared so everyone for miles around could see his standard flying high from the turret.

 

The scene was very different almost a hundred years later as the forest had begun encroaching on the cleared land.  

Henry got there first and immediately took shelter and then waited anxiously in the doorway for Christine to arrive.

He had been up there for almost an hour and he was just beginning to think she wasn’t coming when she appeared, running through the trees and straight into his arms. 

“I thought you weren’t coming” he said

“Sorry darling, your mother was being difficult” Christine explained and then she kissed him.

 

She and Henry ate their picnic sat on a tartan rug in the old Folly looking out at the rain.

When they had finished Henry refilled their glasses with champagne and as he raised his glass in a toast he said  

“Christine Turner, will you marry me?”

Henry waited expectantly for her answer but she looked down at the ground and said nothing.

“I’m not joking” he said “I love you and I want to marry you”

“I love you too” she said “but I can’t marry you”

“Why not?” he asked

“Because you’re the next in line to the title and I’m a Lady’s companion” she explained

“But I don’t care about that” Henry said taking her hand

“But your father will, and your mother will, and so will all your friends” she said

“I don’t want the title” he said “I only want you”

“But what will we live on and where will we live?” Christine asked

“I have some money left to me by grandfather and a small house in Abbottsford”

He explained but she was still unmoved

“Its madness” she said “you will be throwing away your future”

“I have no future if it doesn’t include you” he said earnestly

She thought for a moment then held his hand to her lips and said “Yes”

 

They couldn’t tell anyone, Henry couldn’t even tell his best friend Sebastian, they just continued to meet in secret and bide their time.

But time was not a commodity they had in abundance.

A point that was heavily underlined when Germany invaded Belgium and Britain declared war.

 

Henry was not a soldier either by nature or profession, he was a pacifist by ideology and content to be so.

However he and Sebastian enlisted at the earliest opportunity and joined the Downshire Light Infantry.

They were both commissioned as Lieutenants and reported immediately to the camp at Nettlefield.

Henry and Christine saw little of each other over the coming weeks and had to conduct their love affair via the mail.

Their engagement remained a secret and she had to wear her engagement ring on a chain about her neck.

Which she would kiss each night before she slept.

 

The training at Nettlefield was intense and rigorous and was completed in under six weeks and when the boys returned home on their pre-embarkation leave they were resplendent in their uniforms.

When they presented themselves to their respective fiancée’s they were viewed with a mixture of pride and sadness.

Christine broke down and cried when he told her he only had 4 days leave before he left for France.

 

Henry’s father, George’s reaction was slightly different.

“For God’s sake boy you don’t have to go” he yelled “you are my heir”

“I have to go” Henry replied

“No you don not” his father argued

“I have to go” Henry repeated

“Then let me pull some strings and get you a staff post”

“No father I don’t want any special treatment” he said

In retrospect he should have said “ok pull your strings on condition that I can marry Christine Turner”

But he didn’t.

 

Sebastian Blackburn allowed his father to pull strings on his behalf however, but not to get out of the firing line, Seb wanted to marry Theresa before he left for France.

So a hastily arrange ceremony was performed at Olwen’s Chapel.

 

Olwen was an Anglo Saxon Lady who was one of the early converts to Christianity but her pagan husband’s tribe would not accept the new faith and she was forced to worship secretly in the forest.

Her chapel actually appeared to me little more than an assortment of stones on the forest floor arranged around a granite altar stone in a woodland clearing, the wooden structure long since rotted away.

It had been rediscovered early in Queen Victoria reign and had been lovingly maintained ever since by a local society.

 

So on September 13th 1914, Sebastian Blackburn the tall, blonde, classically handsome lieutenant with the dazzling blue eyes, wed the petite, dark haired Theresa, she dressed in ivory silk, he in his dress uniform.

With best man Henry by his side.

 

After the reception Henry crept to Christine’s room and knocked lightly on her door.

She opened the door in her night things

“What are you doing here?” she whispered through the crack in the door

“I just wanted to say that on my next leave you will be the bride” he said and kissed her goodnight.

 

Three days later they checked into the Railway Hotel in Abbeyvale as Mr and Mrs Beauchamp on the eve of his regiment’s embarkation, when their love was made manifest.

 

On the platform of Abbeyvale station the next morning he saw her onto the Shallowfield train and as he held her hand through the open window he said

“I love you Christine and I promise we will be married when I return”

“Just come home safe darling” she said as train pulled slowly out of the station.

He stood on the platform looking on and waving until she was out of sight. 

 

They wrote to each other every few days over the weeks he was away, each letter more heavily laden with romantic sentiment than its predecessor.

Even when the First Battle of Ypres began on the 19th of October his romantic fervour was not abated nor did it, by its end on the 22nd of November and all through that winter it was his love for Christine that kept him warm.

 

In his letters to her he didn’t mention all the harshest realities of life in the trenches and in return Christine didn’t burden him with the knowledge that she was pregnant with his child.

 

As winter faded into spring the conditions in Belgium had not improved and the Second Battle of Ypres commenced in April and Christine was fast reaching the point that it was going to be difficult to conceal a pregnancy in her Edwardian outfits.

Then on the 2nd of April her worst fears were realised when the telegraph boy arrived at Dancingdean Hall.

 

The telegram read

“We regret to inform you that on the 29th of May Lt H G M Beaumont was killed while trying to rescue a mortally wounded comrade from no man’s land”

 

Christine hadn’t seen the boy arrive but was alerted to its contents when Lady Dancingdean went hysterical and started throwing things around her room.

The Earl was unable to calm her so he left her to Christine and dealt with the news of his only son’s death by going out to the woods to shoot things.

Christine wanted to scream out in grief at her loss but felt compelled to placate her mistress instead.

 

That afternoon however she was taken to the asylum in Pepperstock which she would never leave.   

George, 10th Earl of Dancingdean never returned from the woods either because after he tired of shooting the wild life he turned the gun on himself.

 

That evening as darkness fell so did Christine Turner’s mood.

She sat in a leather chesterfield in George Beaumont’s study, a large glass of brandy in one hand and the telegram in the other and tears streaming down her cheeks.

Dancingdean Hall was not the only recipient of the Telegram boy’s grim correspondence.

The inhabitants of Bridge House were informed of Sebastian Blackburn’s death.

How typical of the man she loved to risk his live to save his wounded friend.

Christine fell into a black despair and could see no way out.

She would soon be unemployed and as soon as the baby showed she would be unemployable and she had lost the man she loved and the father of her child.

The burden was too great to bear and so she drained her glass.

Her heart was broken and there was no future for her and her lover’s child, weighed down by grief in her heart and rocks in her pockets Christine walked onto the terrace where she had first kissed Henry and then crossed the lawn from Dancingdean Hall and jumped off the east cliff into the black lake below.